Afterlife Reports Excerpted

It is hard for me to explain but I entered another plane of existence at the exact moment I passed out and realized I was floating in a multidimensional space. This was not a dream. Dreams for me have never had well defined time and space relation or even make cognitive sense. I was one hundred percent aware of my mind in the situation. I was not quite sure or even asking at this point, where I was or why I was there. I was there, where ever "there" is. Time and distance and space as we know it acted different. Movement was not limited as it is here in every day life experience. →	For 45 seconds I traveled what seemed like thousands of miles from my entry point and had an experience like no conscious moment on earth or remembrance of any state of mind or any dreams I have ever experienced. This was totally new and real. This was a transition into another realm. As my heart stopped, I passed out on the table. I immediately regained awareness on and in this new plane of existence. The visual area was a combination of massive space and definitive location. To explain: I saw a tunnel from the outside as I was floating in space from several thousand feet above it.	The space all around me was the color of a warm soft sky blue. There were wisps of soft white light moving within my visual range and far off in the distance. The tunnel appeared as translucent blue and white and it seemed as though I could look through it. The tunnel opening was below me yet the tunnel itself flowed up and way above my visual plane and merged into a beautiful blue and white light where everything came together. It was the most incredible view I have ever seen in my life.	I could feel this area around me and it seemed comforting and safe. As I looked at the tunnel entrance, I moved at the speed of thought immediately to the opening of this tunnel. I think more I was drawn to it by nature or fate as if I knew what to do. Just to note, with no loss for the incredible beauty of the experience, the colors, peace of mind, painless and comforting feeling experienced in this event I will not try to describe, they were incredible. I know I will struggle to include every detail which is impossible to do.	The tunnel was large with soft rounded edges flowing into it. It was soft blue in color, not claustrophobic but warm and comforting, inviting. As I entered the space around the entrance I floated in and started to move forward. I began to see events appearing along the surface of the tunnel, like a million large-screen TV’s, or panels lining the walls, but that is poor description as to what I really experienced. The events seemed to surround me from all sides. I felt at first without realization, some connection to these events. →
Within a few seconds I realized it was my life and memories and events that only I would understand and put meaning to. The color and clarity where exactly as I had remembered them. These memories and events where passing though my mind with incredible visual perspective, each was alive and in absolute detail and I could touch and feel them all at the same time. During all this I was moving further through the tunnel and up towards a merging of the surrounding blue and white light. This was or had been my existence, as if all of my being and soul were there and connected at one great moment.	I was distracted for just a moment. I observed an event with my son in it and it caught my attention. I was able to slow my movement through the tunnel long enough stop and see him. It was his birthday I think. It may have been his 7th birthday. All there in absolute detail. I floated out of the event with my son and back into the Tunnel. My passage seemed to move more rapidly after this and I stopped trying to hold on to every memory as it went by. I still to this point had not thought about what was going on. What was happening to me was so wonderful it consumed me.	I had not thought of the purpose or reason I was experiencing this. It was at that moment in time I had a brief pause in my thoughts away from the passing events and then I realized very clearly, I had died. No event in my life has ever been so clear to me. This experience was exact, with meaning and purpose. This was natural order. My body had or was well in the process of dieing. I do not want to sound harsh by saying this. No events in my awakening state of mind have ever reached this level of conscious awareness.	It was the most profound moment of my life. Very emotional for me to admit. I was not of my body any longer, I was of my soul. I was not frightened, I was resolved with my life and very content. As I was thinking all of this I was moving fast and gaining speed moving up through the tunnel towards a brighter blue/white light. The light was so beautiful it is impossible to describe in human terms. I had the feeling I was a very long way away from the reality I had previously been existing in and going with purpose on this journey. I wanted to keep going.	That scares me a little. But I heard someone calling my name and I responded to that voice, my movement slowed down, and as I turned my thoughts towards the voice my direction reversed and I moved again with incredible speed back along the tunnel to its entrance. This was not my decision. I woke up in the ER into a three dimensional space -- kind of disappointing. I had not had a heart beat for 45 seconds and I felt as though I had come back from a very long distance to awake in my body. 1c/2866 [This was the first report drawn in sample c, 2866 is NDERF's number for it.]
A curious intermission Why? Thought I, did they all cry? Were they sorry for my loss of life? Oh, well. Say’s I, to me, myself as I floated out t’ween wall and shelf. So strange, think I, so curiously, as I look back at the spirit me, no questions then, no needs you see, when you enter where no others be. Up into ceiling between the floors no doctors, nurses, nor cares no more. I could see the girders gray with dust all in a darkness that one could trust. I turned and knew a tunnel black, should I enter? Or, now turn back?	Alike the cord I knew at birth, quite hesitant; a bit, at first. Feet first I went then down inside a whole lot like a tunnel slide, down on down I slowly moved afloat inside the center tube. Hands and feet against it’s sides I thought might stop my floating glide. Yet, still faster did go I, no friction met on either side. ‘though all was dark, no sights there seen, all fear of pain went out of me. My traverse then slowed and leveled out a light was seen removing doubt.	For this tunnel had an end in store it’s at the middle of all life's core. So quickly then I entered space a love light glowing at a gentler pace. The brightest light with a golden hue was surround me there and filled me too. Suspended life; a conscience new, joined me there, just us two. No pondered questions of my course for I was with all life’s force. The center of no dimension shown was asking me of all I’d known. First he asked in a transferred thought to recall all sorrow from the life I’d lost.	And we two shared for a moment then as would secrets pass between two friends. Then "let it go" he said to me so that he could share his inner peace. His light surround, it turned warm gold as his love for me was then full shown. He next then asked to recall all joy I had known ‘til then as a little boy. A warmth of childhood memories dear, filled me so to bring forth tears. At this he smiled whilst I shared alone for this he surely, had always known.	His next pure thought from him to me? A balance for the whole of thee. At this thought we shared no glad, for the balance showed so much more sad. Of life? Well, then, what do you think? Was the last he ever asked you see. No answer did I have just then, so, back to life, I went again. His parting thoughts, they came to me, and have always been a mystery,.. “your life’s not done, you’ve a purpose still, a mission you’re on, you’ve yet to fill.” 2c/3256
. . . and my heart stopped. My sight misted over and I left my body like a gunshot into the darkness. I was very scared and fully conscious that I was dying. I thought that in a few moments everything would be finished, as the state of lucidity I had for the moment must be from the adrenalin which my body had surely secreted due to panic. Suddenly I found myself floating, I could hear and feel a sort of vibration, a buzzing, very pleasant and relaxing. I realized that around me were floating some strange and colored globes, very bright and strange, spinning on themselves slowly and all moving in the same direction as though pulled by some force.	I looked in that direction and there was a warm, brilliant, white light. Then I couldn't take my eyes of the light, all my fear and anxiety disappeared, I felt as if naked, as though the depths of my soul and my thoughts were uncovered, with nothing further to hide. The feeling of peace was indescribable, and I noticed the light begin to pull me towards it just as it was pulling the strange globes. I let myself go, the light getting bigger and bigger as I got closer, and just before I went into it my mind recovered its clarity and I knew that once inside I would never come out.	My thoughts were crossing my mind at tremendous speed, actually they were not random thoughts which I was gathering to form an idea, I don't know how to explain this, they were like avalanches of ideas which came to my mind, I thought I could not die, that people needed me, that I was very young and I had important things to do. Suddenly I again felt the same sensation as at the beginning, I was shot at great speed and found myself floating in a sort of dark abyss, where I could hear heartbreaking lamentations and suffering.	I could feel thousands of souls who were suffering and lamenting, trying to cling to me, but not with the intention of taking me with them, rather they were trying to get out of the abyss. The feeling of fear and anxiety came back, then suddenly I seemed to be floating in space with the image of planet Earth in front of me. Although it looked beautiful, the feeling was awful, I felt all the suffering which was in it, I felt how sick it was and that the sickness was growing, I felt egoism, violence.	I felt how humanity was getting further away from the spiritual world and this was infecting it with a sort of cancer, and that this would bring consequences, not as some kind of divine punishment, rather by its own process of cause-effect. Again I felt the sensation of vertigo. I opened my eyes. I was lying on the hard-shoulder of the road, one of my friends, a girl, was trying to resuscitate me. 3c/4048
I was being pulled, with my back facing in the direction of the pull, and my face facing the earth. But, I don't recall seeing the earth. It was a knowing that I was leaving it. There are some souls that appear as wispy, cloud-like entities. They take the form of a small ball when they are far away. But, still swirling, leaving a sort of hole in the middle when the ball begins to disperse, then swirls in a circular motion. The ball becomes larger the closer it gets to you. Then when it begins to disperse (with the hole in the middle), the outline takes a human head shape, but eventually disengages to swirl. The process keeps repeating itself, as the soul draws closer to you. Then there are colors, blue that first appears in the swirling stage. You can see "movies" of a sort in these blue areas. The blue areas also turn green.	There are also souls who appear in their previous human forms, perfectly clear in every aspect, including clothing. You can understand these ones with perfect clarity. The greatest emphasis of this experience is LOVE. You are so totally engulfed with a love that does not exist in our physical world. No matter how deep a love you feel for your children, it does not compare with this love. This love is the purest, truest, deepest, totally unconditional love that you could EVER imagine. There is a great light that exists that I was compelled to move into. But, I was not able to. From a distance, I'd liken this light to those seen in a picture of the sun with it's rays emanating.	The light is shorter in width at it's origin, when it is far away, and the rays spread out the further they travel from the source. The closer the light is to you, the wider it's point of origin becomes, until it is so close, that it's point of origin lights up your entire viewing screen. This light is the source of the "knock your socks off" love, which is probably why your instinct says "more please, I'm going there." Now, that is not to say that I did not feel immense love from the individual souls that I encountered. I did. And the love they held for me was enough to fully saturate any human being for a lifetime. It's just that when I became aware that there was more love, that was even greater, along with a realization that this source of love was even	closer to me, in terms of relation, I wanted it most. It was as though the entity emitting that incredible love for me knew me the best. The love was "over-the-top" in terms of what a mother or father feels for their child. So, in a sense, I was sort of drawn to my closest relative, even though there was no doubt it was not the type of relative we experience in the physical world. It never the less felt more real than any physical relationship. I think of this light now as god. And I'm grateful that this light revealed it's love for me in my death experience.	[Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect...)?] Yes, perfect clarity. Fields were different - one field could apply to one, while another field applied to another, all in the same area. Colors were all extremely pleasing and beautiful. Brightness of the light cannot be described in human words. I have agonized over finding the right words to describe the light. It is very bright, but not harsh to the eyes. It is very pleasing. And it is healing, loving, understanding, amazingly powerful, and good. 4c/4022
Months later my memory spontaneously returned right up to before the accident, and then right after the accident when I realized I was floating above a car wreck. I had an altered type of vision because even though I was above the car I could "see" inside the car with a sort of "super vision". I saw my body and I saw the body of my friend at the wheel. I had no real emotion to what I was witnessing. There was a calm sense of detachment and I remember looking at my body as if it were a sweater or a suit I had worn and now had cast off. I remember thinking "That was cool being Thomas," like it was some fun excursion, this human life.	Then I remember being transported up quickly and with light and swiftness that defied all things and I could no longer see the car accident. I couldn't see anything but it did not matter. Sight suddenly seemed like some primitive tool as I felt enveloped in some kind of "knowing" that surpassed the human senses. I was aware of a presence that was at once familiar and loving and kind and all powerful and so very immense that there will never be any words appropriate to describe this thing. My first thought was "It knows my name!". I was in awe that this amazing force knew me! It was exciting and exhilarating that something so immense and important took the effort to know little me. I asked was very impertinent. "Why is there so much pain down there?" (meaning on earth). The answer was laughter.	I knew that this presence was all powerful and knew everything and that everything would always be alright no matter what happened ever. I became aware that the presence was prompting me into a dialogue. I remember bits and pieces of a "conversation" without words. I remember asking questions and receiving answers. The first question I asked was very impertinent. "Why is there so much pain down there?" (meaning on earth). So much joyful laughter like a mother laughing at the amazing questions only a small child can ask. The laughter was followed with something like: "Don't you know I have the power to take away all the pain? I can rewind the universe and start all over again with one simple wish. The pain is left behind on earth. It does not travel with us, but the lessons we learn from it are eternal.	Suddenly I was given a choice. I could go back to earth and back to the human body that I was living in or I could stay in these realms. I wanted to stay forever and stated just that. I was shown once more the scene of the accident and I saw my friend with blood pouring out of her nose and she was struggling to breathe and the blood was making bubbles out of her nose as the air was forcing it's way through. For the very first time of this event I experienced anxiety. I felt as if I had to help her. I was concerned about what was going to happen to her.	I turned to the Presence and said that I wanted to return and the Presence said I could return but I had to do something. I had to promise before it would let me return. I promised and swore on my heart with all my might I promised and promised. The next thing I knew I was back in my body and my body was saying "Oh God. Oh God. Oh God" uncontrollably. That was the last thing I remember before coming to in the hospital. 5c/3958
I passed out. At first, before losing consciousness, I fell to the floor, and your body tries to get up but your mind says to you, "this is it and your head is o.k. with it." I was all o.k. with dying and very peaceful, no fear, like relief like pure love and contentment. I was enveloped in darkness, like all dark, cave dark, and I was still me but in an empty space all dark and I started to fall through a bazillion million miles of dark to this light that was a spark, the amount of energy it takes to create a thought. A miniscule amount of energy the light of a synapse, the light created from the electrical impulse of your thought.	When I hit this light I was shot backwards and from this energy source the universe was created right in front of my eyes. I saw everything that has ever happened since the beginning of the Big Bang, like the discovery channel. I saw everything the whole universe from the beginning of time. And time is something humans made up, there is no such thing as time this is all a series of events. It was like a big paisley of cosmos being formed in front of me and I had superman vision. [EXPAND]	(I told a friend what I saw and he turned me on to fractals it looked like that.) I was hanging in the dark space and our universe was below me like a teacup saucer inside of a 33 gallon trash bag. I was in the bag still. I was beyond the far reaches of the universe. Beyond the universe looking at it with superman vision and I could see earth and my house and inside it and all from a bazillion gazillion light years past the edge of the universe. it was really amazing.	Then out of no where slide in my face these two beings I call them. Beautiful beings wearing similar outfits are in my face. One had blonde wavy hair it just passed the shoulders, it was masculine, and the other feminine one had a wavy pageboy shorter the same color and they were bronze color a little less pretty than GOD, and they had eyes the color of coffee and cream. A soft beige color. They both grabbed me from either side of my body like a hug and said, "Don't worry we'll be with you."	They flew me backwards through the universe at supersonic speed and when we got close to earth they disappeared but I could still feel them holding me. I was back here in this craphole of a planet. 6c/4020
I lost consciousness from an overdose. Then I felt my spirit man on the inside go out of the top of my head like taking my hand out of a glove is the way it felt so to speak. My spirit man then went down through the floor of the house I was in, then it continued on down through the earth very deep it seemed until I came to a very large cavern of total darkness. Although it was the worst darkness I have ever experienced, yet I could still see very well. I landed on a rock against a wall and sat there for a moment trying to understand just what it was I was into, trying to consider my circumstances, when I saw a spider that was as large as a automobile tire with the head of a human being attached to it instead of a spider's head. The spider glowed a fluorescent orange color and instantly I knew the spider was color coded according to his crime that put him in this dark place.	Then I learned this spider was the leader of a group of spirit beings that once was on the earth to keep and care for the earth and the people on it, and I knew the time line for this being was during the time of the Adam and Eve episode spoken of in the Bible. And this being was called a "watcher" by the God of all things. This spider was placed here in this cave/jail because here on the earth was where he committed his terrible crime against God and man. All these things came to me through telepathy, from whom I do not know as this episode was taking place. Then I noticed a door in the distance with bars over a small window in the door and this confirmed what I was told about this place being a jail. The spider had friends also in this great darkness they too glowed in different colors according to their transgressions, all colors were present it seemed.	The spider's friends were snakes scorpions and other creepy crawling things and they all had human beings heads on them just like the spider. The orange spider then crawled down the wall beside me and started to talk to me. He said that he was going to torment me for eternity as he knew I was very frightened and had no idea of what was what, and I knew that the spider also was gaining knowledge about me through telepathy as he spoke to me just as I had about him. As the spider spoke to me his face would twist and distort as if he were in great pain and could not control the things he was feeling. He appeared to be totally miserable but just as determined to torment me nevertheless and seemed to take great pleasure in doing so.	I decided to run at that point to try to escape from this doom of darkness I found myself in but the things I could see glowing all around me throughout this cave scared me so bad that I had become frozen in great fear like I have never experienced because I did not know what might be in the cave in the darkness that I could not see, so I was frozen and could not move. I could not look at the face of the spider any longer because of fear so I looked over at the door with the bars on its windows and I could see one small beam of bright white light and I knew then that there was a way out of this place so I placed my hands over my eyes and said to myself, or rather in telepathy, "God help me." 7c/2470	And at that moment I flew through the top of the cave just like I came into the cave, and felt myself going upward and came to my body laying just where I had left it and entered into my body just like I had left through the top of my head and woke up, and my life has never been the same since that day. [If your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain.] I felt like I was sent there by God to learn about these beings I had witnessed and their condition and why. I have never felt so aware and alive as on that day. My awareness was so that it seemed I could have known and learned about anything instantly except I was rather busy being frightened so I could only focus on the cave and the beings in it called "the watchers."

The next thing was the nurse mentioning the monitor and saying, "We're loosing this one," and hearing nneeeeeeeeeeee! and realizing that it was machine and I was above myself and the person working the mask. I said, I'm here..I'M HERE! and then it became black, and then, as if I was on one end of funnel/tunnel. It seemed to be narrower on my end...that opened out to a light...and in that light I could see figures, a main figure, with other figures on either side. It wasn't as if their arms were out-stretched ...but the feeling...of beckoning me.	It was a comfortable and not fearful feeling. And then something came over me, and I stopped myself...and said. I can't come now [but I wanted to], I can't come yet [as I heard a baby cry...off in the distance]. The next thing I knew...it was the next day. No one would speak to me about it and finally the head nurse came, and said there would be someone to come and speak to me tomorrow, if I insisted, and I did.	I was a bit of a mouse back then, but the feeling was so over whelming, that I DEMANDED to speak to someone. The next day a woman came and explained that it was my imagination. This was September 22, 1971, The feeling has never left me, and twice after that I experienced out-of- body...it frightened me, as I was responsible for 4 children and was afraid I might wake up and find myself dead...so to speak...as I might not be able to return to my body.	I had no experience with these matters. it just happened, and I had no one to speak to about it. My family always repressed their ESP gifts...and I never pursued it...just took it for granted. Some times I would think of my mother for 3 days and then call her...she would say" what took you so long, I have been waiting for you to call for 2 days now". I lived 600 miles away.	It was kind of a game as to who was going to pay for the phone call. My husband at the time was from a background of Welsh/Irish, and Pennsylvania Dutch...and also had this gift. He was in the military, and we were separated. I was under a lot of stress then and for most of a week I kept thinking how much I needed him. →
By the week-end he showed up unannounced....said he felt he should come. These things have happened all the time in my life. My second marriage was not the same. My husband was uncomfortable with what I call my gift. My oldest daughter has it, but suppressed it, my 5th child also a daughter has it. The worst time...for about 6 weeks I had the strangest feeling that some thing was going to happen to my children [my 5th child was 6,twins-2 yrs., and a 6 mo. old.	After 4 weeks, I was so upset, I was checking them all the time, and cross with my husband for not being more careful with them. He came home one day, and said he had news from Belgium and it wasn't good. That it was about his cousin's 9 month old...I said, "she's dead"...and he just stopped on the stairs, and sat down on the step, and said, "will you stop that, I can't stand it".	I asked him what the news was, and he said I was right...she had a blocked bowel, and they didn't operate in time. At that moment I felt relief, because I knew that my feelings were correct, just not in the right place. Their baby had been sick for over a month. All my life I have had these feelings, but I always miss the mark.	I will have a feeling about something...and it will be a man, instead of a woman. Or it will be someone close to me...instead of me. 8c/Feb. 25, 2002

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