| I suffered an accident that drove me to a near-death experience. ... Suddenly I realized I was about to die, and although I was not at all in any physical pain, I felt this dreadful sensation all over my body. ... Ironically, by acknowledging my own death, I felt a profound sense of peace and serenity than I have ever encountered. → | It was like I moved out from the tragedy to my inner self, a place that I found imperturbable, totally quiet and at rest. I then said to my father, "Dad, I'm going to die." That was the last thing I said at that moment. | ... After this, I rapidly felt outside of my body, but still in the immediate physical environment, I was levitating at the roof level of the room. The momentum of the experience carried me. Time seemed to have disappeared; I was still completely calm. | My emotional upheaval vanished. Though I could not precisely explain to myself what was happening as I saw my own body from a distance as though I was a spectator. I saw my father holding me tight with intense fear in his eyes. | I saw my mother running toward the reception area crying for a doctor. I saw my maternal grandmother and my sisters coming up to the room, and I saw other people from the other rooms coming to see what was happening. → |
| Then my mother came back to the
room with a doctor by the name of Jesus. As soon as the doctor saw the wound in my neck, I saw the same fear in his eyes as in my father's eyes. He mentioned, "All hospitals in Acapulco are on strike now so let's get moving quickly. |
Hopefully we can still bring her back." Then, I saw an extraordinary strength and confidence in him as he started to prepare for resuscitation and surgery in the hotel room. Amazingly, I knew I had not reached the point of termination, but rather of transition. | I saw sequences of my life passing before me like a movie in fast motion but with amazing detail. What happened to me next is almost indescribable, as I find no words for it. Very shortly after, I was rapidly pulled into a dark space. | I saw a spherical long dark tunnel before my eyes, spinning around me, full of what seemed to be dark clouds. At the far end of the tunnel, I saw a distant, brilliant, white light coming toward me, or maybe it was pulling me toward the center of it. I'm not certain. | This intense and radiant light was so bright and yet I was not dazzled. I knew I had no physical body anymore. It seemed like I had a different type of body, totally weightless, feeling no bodily sensations, no temperature, or anything like that. → |
| It was a different state of being. I had a body of what seemed to be made out of a shapeless energy and a bright indigo-bluish light. My new body had a more or less irregular circular form and it seemed to have what I would call arms and hands that would come out of this circular pattern when needed. Also, the language spoken involved no physical words or sounds, and yet I could understand what I was being told. My thinking process was also different, more lucid and rapid than in physical existence. | My mind and attention span were so amazingly clear that I could easily understand what I was told. It was as if we communicated in a form of a direct transfer of thoughts and ideas, a mind-to-mind kind of language. Then, I saw many beings of light waiting for me and saying, "Welcome back." They were happy to see me again and they were welcoming and radiating all their love to me. | It was a very happy moment seeing them again, although I'm not sure if I knew them in physical life. I also realized that I was about to meet with the Madonna and that she would eventually take me to the point were everything would be explained to me. In this place, there are no physical bodies; we are some source of energy, which goes toward a gigantic, majestic, and divine fountain full of love. | We belong there... in the wisdom of God...for it is our home. I was then immersed into this indescribable majestic non-dazzling light in which I felt it was Christ, and without any earthly words, as I described above, I had a conversation with the Madonna and the Divinity. | The Madonna was interceding for me
in a wordless conversation full of meaning that changed my life
entirely. I felt their presence and I felt at
one with them. I felt an exceptional silence of inner peace, and
oneness with all things. It was a perfect love. Death was nothing
to fear any longer. We reviewed my life and also discussed my mission in life. → |
| I was told that two boys would be born to me, one would have a name of an ancient king, and the other one would have Jesus in his name as the Lord has a special mission for him in life. However, up until now I cannot recall exactly what the rest of the conversation was about. I feel that there is more to it, but I can't remember. | Eventually I remembered being told that I could find their guidance through my dreams and visions, and that my words and life experiences would help heal thousands of people, awaking them from a sleeping mind, preparing them for the hard days to come. I was told that I was one of the divine's "flesh ropes." | I never wanted to leave the presence of the light. I knew somehow that even though I was yearning to stay in my new home, I needed to be back to my physical body to accomplish my entrusted mission. I realized I had to make a decision. I remember saying to myself, "Please I need to be back now... what about the ones who are waiting for me? | What about those two kids?" Immediately after I saw the Madonna's hands letting me go out of the light saying, "Go my child, go." Suddenly I was pulled away from the bright light and the dark tunnel like if I was quickly sucked down from a funnel or a bottle. | I came back to my physical body
with a jerk-like sensation. 1e/Lucid [This report was the first drawn in sample e, Lucid is the iands name for it.] |
| [Horse-riding accident.] My friends who were identical twins came bolting through the weeds and stood over some body lying on the ground. The twins picked up this idiot, whoever he was, and ran toward their house carrying him. I went with them and tried to talk to them. They weren’t paying any attention to me at all. That pissed me off, and I grabbed one friend by the shoulder. My hand went right through his shoulder. He gave kind of a shudder, looked around, and kept going. | I followed them up the stairs into their back porch and into the kitchen. Well, I tried to follow them that is, but the kitchen door slammed shut right through me! Man, you think that isn’t startling? Let me tell you, it is very startling! I was sort of getting the impression that everything was not as ordinary as it had been that morning when mom told me to round up my friends for a party. | I was inside the kitchen before I could think about it, and then in the living room where my friend’s were putting this guy on the couch. I could see that his belt buckle was practically smashed. I looked closer, and discovered that was my belt buckle. What was this guy doing with it? I had never seen him before in my life! As I got a closer look, I saw that the person was me! | I mean we never see ourselves as others see us. Even in pictures, we don’t really look at ourselves. I mean, I hadn’t, up until then. Anyway, my friend's mother was checking me - uhhh, that is the body out, and she said, “He isn’t breathing!” My friend grabbed the phone, and called the doctor. No one in the house knew artificial respiration. Just about then really strange things began to happen. | I could see a very tiny silver cord running from the pit of the stomach of the body to my stomach. I could move myself outside of the house by just thinking I wanted to be outside. Then I thought of mom, and I was in the kitchen where she was mixing up the cake batter for my birthday party. I thought, “That is too bad. Now I won’t be able to attend, and she is going to be very unhappy that I am not around.” → |
| I thought of dad, and suddenly I
was in town two miles down the road in the railroad depot where
dad was the station agent. He gave a kind of startled jerk, looked
around, right through me, said, “That is strange”, and went back
to work.
I noticed that in town, around the railroad and in and out of the hotel where the railroad crews changed trains and had their layovers, there were gray bodies just sort of wandering around. They would just pass through the people on the porch of the hotel, neither noticing the other. These gray beings were faceless, and didn’t seem to be doing anything except wandering around, sort of like they were lost. |
So, here I was in town. I began to
feel as if I was being withdrawn. I was now standing in the corner
of the room with my body. My friend was on the phone. He said that
the doctor was on his way. The doctor was 15 miles out of town.
The room seemed to be receding, getting smaller and smaller. I was then inside some sort of dark place that was getting darker and darker. It started whirling around me, and I was feeling intense vibration inside my body. |
It was so powerful that I thought I was going to be dissolved. Just when it got so powerful I thought I was a goner, I was out of the “tunnel,” if that is what you can call it. I was in a place of total darkness. I raised my hand and looked at it. I thought, “Almost too dark to see your hand in front of your face. What is this place?” I looked around, and I seemed to be standing on something solid, but I couldn’t see it. I felt my body, and I was wearing clothes, but they seemed to be of a much finer fabric than my tee shirt and blue jeans. | I thought, “Well, this seems to be it. I must have bought the farm. I am dead. So this is what it is like. Nothing. Nowhere.” I was standing there puzzled and all when I noticed a tiny light, which seemed to be way off in the distance. I was looking and it slowly seemed to be getting larger, not brighter but larger. In a very short time the light was very large, just a little larger than a person. | I could see a person inside the light. The light was bright, but not glaring. It did not dazzle the eyes. It got close enough for me to look at what was inside. There was a very soothing, very strong, but not overbearing thought in my mind that said, “Childing, do not be afraid. We will not harm you in any way.” I thought this is very strange. What is a Childing? I was answered almost immediately with the thought, “In a moment. → |
| What do you have to show us?” Now I have to stop here for a moment with a definition. This “being,” besides being about 8 feet tall, was made of light. The planes in the face were all of light. There was this sense of absolute acceptance, complete and total acceptance. It was around and through me. Seemingly, this “being” was made of two beings. There was a sense of it being both male and female, the perfect blending of the two attributes. | From now on, I shall refer to them as “they” because that is what they were and are. Anyway, when they said, “What do you have to show us?" around us sprang up many images. I have to call them “images” here, as we cannot describe what I was experiencing. They were 360° around us. It seemed that every thought, emotion, action, and word that I ever had up to then was embedded in those “images.” | I could see connections between a thought over here, and way over there--a long time later, a repercussion! I could see words there and right over here. I could see repercussions. Boy, could I see repercussions. Also, I experienced every one of those situations all over again. Now you must understand, this was all going on simultaneously. Here, our brain can only hold one conscious thought at a time, and we seem to feel only one emotion at a time. | I saw that many of my thoughts created real hard, tangible, and physical things. Many of the things I had done, thought, emoted, acted, with absolutely no idea of any repercussions, were pointed out as rather drastic errors of judgment. Not bad, just errors. Other things were pointed out to be extremely beneficial to me and to others. | Things I thought would get me on
the greased slide to the hot spot down below were treated with a
rather vast, gentle amusement. It seemed to take forever, and was
over in a moment. When it was over, I said, “Who are you? You are not Jesus, because I don’t believe Jesus looked like you.” They said, “Childing, we are yourselves of your own far future. → |
| We are who you are learning to become. Without us, you cannot be. Without you, we are not. We are who Jesus referred to as My Father.” Now that is strange, I thought. (You need to understand, there was no air there. I was not “talking” in the sense we talk here. Yet, I could talk.) So I said, “What is this all about? What is happening?” They said, “You are here before your time, an accident. As to what this is all about, you are in a physical body to learn to care about others, and to acquire knowledge. That is the sum totality of physical life.” | I said, “I saw that many of my thoughts became actual physical things. How is this possible?” They said, “Thoughts ARE things. What you image with emotion is what we must give you in order for you to learn to become us. When you learn to generate a stable image, coupled with firm emotion, we are bound to bring it into being. But remember, there are issues to having this thing.” | I said, “Such as?” They replied “Such as, do you have the means to support keeping the item now that you have it? Do you actually, truly want it now that you have it? For example, you cannot image intangible things. Can you image acceptance, or can you only feel it? Can you image love, or can you only experience it? You have much to learn Childing. Do you wish to stay or do you wish to return?” | Now that place was complete acceptance, complete and total love. I didn’t know what else was there, but I had the idea that if I wished to stay all would change completely into something wonderful. And I knew that if I said I wanted to stay, I could. But I sensed that I would have to be born again into a physical body later. My reaction, “But I am only 14 years old.” | I was standing in the corner of my
friend’s living room watching the doctor prepare a six-inch
hypodermic needle. He stabbed that thing into the body’s chest
just below the sternum and rammed the plunger home. That body gave
a jerk. I was yanked back into that body so fast I bounced right
back out again, and then back in. I gave a gasp, and the body
started breathing.
2e/Childing |
| The plane hits trees and crashes onto a mountainside. ... I couldn't breathe. ... The next experience is a profound feeling of calm and peace. I felt like someone had taken a black velvet blanket and wrapped me in it. The feeling was so comforting. I have never felt that kind of peace as strongly. Suddenly, I am outside up in the air, observing just a near distance from the plane. I see my body and my dad's body. I see this bluish, gray light/energy come out of my dad's body. I think, without any emotion, "Oh, daddy died," very matter of fact. | I see my body and I see a bluish, gray light go into my body. I just watch. I have no clue nor do I question it. I just observe. The next thought, "Oh, the plane crashed on an Indian burial ground." I sense this rather than see it, but I know it is true, another observation. I then find myself in a place that reminds me of Grand Central Station in New York City. It is kind of a gray place, not dark and not light. There’s a lot of commotion. People are everywhere. The acoustics were loud. | I am watching between two groups of things happening. On my left side, I view people walking two by two in a very calm way. One is a person who crossed; the other is their guide. I sensed peace and support and they were okay. When I looked to my right, I saw people huddled together in circles. Their heads were all down and I sensed this foreboding feeling, sad and forlorn. I sensed confusion and dread. It wasn't comfortable. I realized that both groups were from the crash. | Guides came for the ones on the left and those on the right were having difficulty. I don't know why. I then started moving really fast, past the people on the left with their guides. I questioned, "Why am I moving so fast and they are moving so slow?” I found myself going warp speed through this tunnel place. It was bright and light, but I could see past this a dark blackness. I knew it was infinity out there. | As fast as I was moving, suddenly I
stopped. I stood on what felt like the edge of a lake shore. It
wasn't a bright place; it was dim and I could hear the sound of
water, like a lakeshore. It was as if little laps of water were
hitting the shoreline, peaceful and rhythmic. I was alone and it
was very quiet except for the sound of what seemed like water, a
river, or a lake. → |
| All of a sudden, I heard giggling and laughing. I looked up and across this lake, river, divide, or whatever and saw these three spheres on my far left. They looked like big cotton balls but ethereal, not dense like cotton. They were so excited to see me. I knew it. I sensed it. Everything said was all telepathic as if energy thoughts coming across. Communication was fast. I didn't have to wait or think about it. I just knew. Their laughter and excitement felt so contagious. I just wanted to go over there. | It was so drawing. (For example, when you’re sitting in a restaurant and the table near you is having such a good time laughing hysterically, you want to find out what's so funny and laugh too.) I was ready to go over and find out what was so funny. They immediately stopped me and said, "No! We'll come to you." In the next immediate second, they were there on my side. | They just came in me, all three.
They melded into me and I realized how great communication is
without words. Mouthing words is so slow. That is the last thing
that happened. The next moment I am in the plane and I hear a voice say, "Oh my God there is someone else in there." |
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| I had general anesthesia. Then the next thing was that I saw myself lying on the operation bed ... . There were people in green pajamas walking around me in a very anxious way. I could see my face, but I didn’t know it was mine. I was observing the scene with no emotion, like it was nothing to do with me. I was in a very pleasant feeling, something like the nothing and the all in the same package. | I saw a nurse slapping my face and screaming my name. I felt as though a child in winter when my mum would wake me up to go to school. I would ask her for five more minutes just to enjoy the coziness of a warm bed and the desire of a bit more sleep. | I don’t know when or how I recognized that woman (on the bed) as myself and without emotion, like a picture of myself. Then I remembered why I was there. My baby, my husband, my friends, my life… I understood that I was dying and could choose to stay or go back. | I thought it was great and silly, being afraid of life. That gave me the strength to go back. I wanted to see my daughter and husband. At that moment, I felt that I had to make a quick decision and run into my body if I wanted to stay alive. | I ran mentally into my body, which
felt like going inside a glove or landing into something of
exactly my size. I opened my eyes and asked to
see my baby. 4e/Glove |
| During the crash I was being tossed around like a rag doll, and time began slowing down. As soon as I bawled “God,” I remember a black tunnel and being totally out. Then I was in another world. I remember using my thoughts to create planets. I sent them out with my thoughts and felt as if lighting struck me, but in a beautiful way. | I saw my planets being created. I was going "wee" and "haa" like when you first see fireworks. A female voice told me that what I create is mine. I then looked at the direction where this voice was coming from and I saw her. She was consciousness itself. | She was like a huge orb of white light with many hands going in and out of her. She was like billons of conscious minds put together. I was also part of her because I saw white light in a form of an umbilical cord attaching her to me. Then I was being treated as a baby because she was massaging my neck. | The love I felt for her was greater than that of any love I have felt in this world. I felt something inside of me, like I did not accomplish a task. I did not remember what it was, but I knew that I had to do it. I remember saying that I have to go back. | Suddenly, I turned around and I came face to face with this light being who looked human. As I looked around there were millions of light humanoid creatures all over the place. → |
| This place had no planets or stars; there was darkness and the only light source was the light humanoid beings. When I first saw him I felt as though I knew him. I hugged him; the love I had for him was very strong. He felt closer to me than my own family. We started to communicate telepathically. I was telling him that I needed to go back and he replied that it wasn't possible. | I saw in his facial expression that he did not want me to go. I told him again that I wanted to go back. He then showed me an image of a young handsome and wealthy couple that just had a baby boy and he told me that I could be born as that baby. | The offer was very tempting, but I refused. I told him that I needed to go back to this life. He said if I go back in this time, life would not be the same and very difficult. I listened to his advice, but I willed myself back into this lifetime. | While I was willing myself to come back into this lifetime, I remember the female entity told me to bring her children back to her. I then realized that this entity is the one source, the true God. | As I left that heavenly realm and came back to Earth, I remember
flying in the air and into my body. While in the air looking below
at the area of the crash site, I was floating down into my body. 5e/Billions |
| I was in the hospital room by myself one night, when I found myself moving "above" my body. It was somewhat like sleeping, but I was aware that I was having the dream. Next, I found myself in a very dark, cold place. I did not want to stay in the cold, dark area. I came to a high vertical wall, and felt compelled to climb up it. When I reached the top of the wall, I was instantly surrounded by the most beautiful, pure light and colors that cannot even be imagined. | The light was everywhere and went into me. I felt pure love, acceptance, and perfect happiness. The grass and colors beneath me were of the purest colors. There was also music like bells. There appeared before me a lovely woman dressed in white (an angel). She and I traveled across the grass toward a building. We communicated without speaking, telepathically. | We entered a large building with a long hall. As we passed down the hall, others were passing us and going in the opposite direction. People communicated with me without speaking. I remember someone saying the word "cancer." When the woman and I reached the end of the hall, we came to a room. I stood at the entrance to the room and looked in. | I saw a room that had many levels (an infinite number of levels). On each level, there were many people doing activities that they loved. I recall just a couple of the levels, a beach and a ballroom. I did not enter the room because at that point the angel informed me that it was "not my time." | Instantly, I was back in the
cold, dark place. I do not recall traveling back out of the
building or across the grass again. I was back in my body and in a
lot of pain again. 6e/Precognition |
| I would open my eyes in the hospital bed and a blue-eyed wolf was next to me. I don't remember getting out of my bed, but I would go down a hall with the wolf. We would get to a door and somehow the wolf opened the door. A blond woman, wearing white was on the other side. I never saw her face. She and the wolf led me down a long dark tunnel. She was on my right and the wolf on my left. I remember holding onto the wolf's fur. | I never saw a bright light. At the end of the tunnel, the woman opened a door and I walked out to a large field. It was beautiful. There were trees, flowers, and many birds. There were a lot of people, but it did not seem crowded. I walked up a small hill and sat with a woman who had short dark hair. | She was sitting with her knees pulled up and arms wrapped around her knees. We talked. I can't remember anything we said. When it was my time to leave, I knew I would walk back to the door. The woman and the wolf were there and walked me back through the tunnel. | Once through the other door, the wolf would take me back to my room. I had this experience more than once because I remember feeling so relieved when I would open my eyes and the wolf would be there. | That is why I was trying to go back
later. I realized that I could not go back on my own and could
only go back if the wolf took me. 7e/Guidewolf |
| Although this near-death experience
occurred 65 years ago (1943), I will never get it out of my mind.
After anesthesia I felt my body rise into the air above the
surgeons and operating table, and I was looking down on this little
boy lying there with two men hovering over him. The feeling of floating above all this was exciting. I had never experienced anything like it before. After briefly observing the activity beneath, my floating self began to slowly turn toward a window high on the wall in the operating room. |
Through this window I could see a
bright light, which seemed to be beckoning to me. Fascinated, I
began drifting toward the source of the light because I wanted to
pass through the opening of the window and into the light. Suddenly it all disappeared and my next memory was of lying in a hospital bed. |
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| I lost consciousness. It was such a
relaxed feeling, just slipping away like that. My whole being
seemed to change. The first thing I noticed was an amazing sense
of relaxation and calm. I noticed that every single negative human
emotion had simply gone, which left me feeling absolutely
wonderful. Imagine the biggest high of your life, multiply it by a
thousand, and you still won’t even be close to this wonderful,
safe feeling. Then I found myself in a blue tunnel. |
The colour was an electric blue, similar to the kind you get on certain L.E.D. Christmas lights now. It was a very vivid and wonderful colour. I floated gently, quite slowly along this tunnel and fully relaxed. I can even give you the dimensions of the tunnel. It was 2000 feet in diameter. Eventually, I could see in the distance a point that was a hive of tremendous activity. |
At this point, the blue tunnel turned into the white tunnel, a very clear line of transition. It was impossible to see into the white tunnel, as there was so much light pouring out from it. There was also a tremendous feeling of love emanating from this source, and a kind of instant knowledge. You just knew it. The blue tunnel could accommodate two way traffic, whereas the white tunnel was one way for souls leaving the earth plane. | Once you crossed over into
the white tunnel there was no going back. The light from this tunnel was so bright that under normal circumstances it would have been blinding, but here it was warm, safe and full of love. As I got closer to the transition point between the blue and white tunnels, the activity became clearer. |
I could clearly see many, many souls on both sides of the transition point. There were quite a few souls, like myself, coming from the earth plane. All of these souls were being met by groups of souls who had come from the white tunnel. It was like each soul had its own entourage of souls from the other side to meet them. → |
| Some were being welcomed with open
arms and carefully guided through the transition point and into
the wonderful light of the white tunnel; some were being greeted
with discussions; and some were being turned back toward the earth
plane. When I finally reached the transition, the first thing I did was carefully look around. This is how I gained my knowledge about the diameter of the tunnel. It was quite an amazing sight to behold, this transition point, with all the many souls coming and going. |
It was a very busy place, and most unexpected! When I was met by my own entourage of souls, I could clearly see that they were human, but in this existence were beings of light. They seemed to be the same colour as the electric blue in the first tunnel. I was greeted with a great love and urgency. I was held, and knowledge was imbued into me. I was told, this is not my time, but this was meant to happen. | It was the only way my life could change onto the right path. I was given so much knowledge that it would overflow in your head normally, but I was told that each piece of knowledge would become available to me when needed. The knowledge that was made aware to me at that moment, which I felt to the core of my being: Time is just an illusion created by humanity; it simply does not exist. | From the other side you can travel to any period in time as easily as crossing the street. It is hard to describe the feeling of home that these souls brought with them. I knew them all, but am unsure how as my time there was limited. | Eventually, I had to say goodbye and was returned to my body so fast that I awoke with a start. ... Death is not the end, only a transition to our true home. |
| I remember being in a beautiful garden with huge flowers and big colorful butterflies. Someone in all white escorted me to this place, and there were other children there. I remember running and playing with them and nobody seemed to be different because the love was so strong. What captured my attention is someone calling my name. The more I heard it, the stronger it became familiar to me. | It was my mother’s voice and I was
always taught to obey my parents. That is exactly what I did. The
person who was watching me walked across the bridge and said
goodbye to me. I was too young to understand what had happened and
didn’t think much about it until years later.
10e/Name |
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| There were two nurses in the room at the time. Suddenly my father, who had passed over 30 years previously, was standing at the left of my bed down near my feet. I remember saying, "Oh, hi dad," as if it was perfectly normal to see him! I must have been talking too much, although I cannot remember doing this, because he said to me in a very impatient voice, "Well come on, are you coming or not? You have to make up your mind.” | I replied, "Ewe, I’d better not,"
and before I could say anything else he was gone without another
word. Then I was looking at 12 nurses/doctors surrounding me. One
doctor was yelling my name into my left ear. I remember exactly what my father was wearing. |
When I described this to my mother the next day, she went white and told me that was the exact clothing dad had been dressed in for his funeral. I did not even know that my father had been dressed. The other thing I noticed was everything around my father was in total darkness. | It was total black and I remember
this vividly. I also remember at the time looking around my father
for any sort of white light, but it was total blackness. 11e/Life After |
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| The doctor said, "Hang with me buddy, hang with me," over and over, but it sounded like he was moving away. The lights went from bright to dimming and as they were dimming the lights quickly went off. All sound stopped and like at hyper speed each and every thing that I had done, said, thought, or not done--but should have--played through. I wasn't a bad person, but it became clear that I wasn't a good one either. I was terrified that I was going to hell. | Then suddenly the room lit up, not a glowing or bright light, but a peaceful, perfect light. I still heard no sound, but I watched as another nurse burst through the door to help the doctor and the nurse in the cath room. That is when my attention focused on the room adjoining it where my wife and three other people looked onward; she was standing at the far left of the room talking with another nurse. | My wife had barged her way into the
observation room, I guess since she was a nurse and working with
the doctor (private practice) that was working on me. She invaded
the room. I watched as they worked on me (but never looked at myself), and I watched from the adjoining room. You can see everything at the same time; there is no field of vision. |
I could see the look on their faces and tried to tell them I was great. I was warm, loved, peaceful, and perfect, something I thought I knew until that night. It made no difference in love between my wife and the strangers, yet I knew I had a connection. | I remember thinking I have to go
back, two kids still at home, a wife, and bills, but I wanted to
stay. I remember thinking I have to go back and when I do it was
going to hurt like hell. It did. I was suddenly cold and in pain
again but this time, no fear. 12e/Where I Was |
| I was riding my bicycle home from high school when a driver ran a stop sign and hit me really hard and fast from the side. I flew over the vehicle and landed head first onto the pavement. I remember feeling my body float up in the air and seeing myself lying on the street surrounded by people. | It felt like I was a helium balloon floating above the accident scene. I felt calm. When I noticed my school uniform skirt was up and showing my underwear, I became self-conscious and panicked! | The next thing I knew, I felt my body
being sucked back into my body. I then pushed my skirt down and
came into consciousness. 13e/Balloon |
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| I was rushed into emergency where
doctors and nurses worked on me. Somehow there was no one in the room, and I stood there looking at myself in the bed. It looked like I was sleeping peacefully. The feeling I experienced was so nice and peaceful, without a problem in the world. Everything was so perfect. |
In the room to my left, where I couldn't cross, I saw my deceased parents, family members, and friends who had crossed over. I was so happy to see them and to be there. Without a word, they were pointing back to my body. I knew what they meant. | I was to return, and although I
didn't want to go I went back. In a few minutes people came into
my room to tell me that I had just suffered a heart attack. I was
calm and said, "I know." I glowed and was so in peace and relaxed;
it's hard to explain. 14e/Couldn't Cross |
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| I was in a
hospital for dying children. While there I often saw what I called
"Takers," opaque people who took the hand of children who were
about to die and lead them away.
I was determined NEVER to take their hands so I was conscious of where my hands were and held them closed tightly. I heard a lot of rapid discussion and felt a pulling sensation all over. The next thing I was sitting cross-legged (supported mid air) in the middle of a great void. |
It wasn't dark. It wasn't light. It was NOTHING. I was in the middle of absolutely nothing. I can't express how empty it was. I felt no emotion. Not even calm. I seemed to be there an eternity, as if there was no such thing as time. I had been there for the whole of existence, in both directions. | I knew there was something important I was supposed to be thinking about, but it was hard to care. I remembered briefly, how hard it was to breathe and whether the attached feelings meant anything. I spent some time thinking about the life that went with those feelings. | Not exactly judging but measuring, foul ups against successes. It was NOT judging but just taking stock. I was slowly becoming painfully aware that whatever the measure came to there was not one damn thing I could do to fix it. | (That is now my idea of heaven and
hell. My own personal measure of how I went.) Then there was pain.
And the loud voices, and I knew I was back. 15e/Non-existence |
| I had lost consciousness and then flat lined two times. During this time, I opened my eyes and could feel something different. I was in a dark tunnel with space on each side of me. I could tell I was moving and I didn't know how. I was floating toward light shining through a crack in a door. This light was so bright that it hurt my eyes. I was going toward this light. | Then I felt something wrap around me (draped over my shoulders). A voice came into my ear saying, "Cindy ask him to forgive you." I said, “Oh Lord forgive me." The voice came into my ear again saying, "Now Cindy ask him to help you." I did. | At the same time, while moving toward the light, I heard my mother saying, "Cindy please don’t leave me like this." I was in a great hurry to get to this light, and the closer I came to it the more the brightness took over the door. I couldn't get there fast enough. | Almost entering the light, the voice came again and said, "Cindy you have a short time." I was so mad because I didn't get to stay and remember being mad for several days after that. | I opened my eyes and saw my
family and asked them if I died. My sister said, "No, you’re okay
now." I said, "No, I died." Then I proceeded to tell them what
happened to me. 16e/Hurried |
| A doctor arrived and told them to
stop, as I was dead. At once, my spirit left my body and I looked
down and observed the whole scene from above. I could see the
nurses had defied the doctor; he slammed the door upon leaving the
room. Almost at once I began a terrifying journey down a black spiral tunnel to an amazingly bright light, the likes I have never seen before or since. |
On arriving in a very beautiful place, I was met by my mother who had died two years earlier. She told me this was heaven and began to introduce me to family who had died and I had never known. There was a bright light there that I could not look at because of its brightness. | After about twenty minutes a man
who I did not know came up and told me, "It's not your time yet
and you have to go back." The journey back was the same, but this time into darkness. When I re-entered my body I was in great pain. 17e/Mother |
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| My heart stopped beating. It was a chaotic moment. I didn't know what had happened. Out of this chaos came a deep state of tranquility; I experienced this incredibly intense and calm state of awareness. There was no drifting of consciousness as in the normal living state. It was an all-consuming state of awareness. I remember first becoming aware of how quiet everything had become, how incredibly quiet my reality had become. I panicked for a moment, attempting to get up. | I could not move any part of my body. I knew my heart had stopped beating and that I was dying. I understood immediately that I had no recourse but to experience my death. My attention was drawn upward, out the top of my head into a tunnel of sort that had a bright light up in the there. | I could feel myself beginning to go into the tunnel. My life's history exploded into my consciousness. I thought I wasn't ready to go yet, I had more things to accomplish in this life, and I wanted another chance to do the things I needed to do. | This light up in the tunnel turned into a lightning bolt that shot into my brain and down my spine into my heart, the most intense moment in my life. My heart exploded with energy, beginning to beat again. | The intense calm and quiet and the
entire state of mind was gone with that flash of energy into my
heart. I was lying there, slouched over in the seat of my car. 18e/History |
| As a child mother told me about the circumstances of my near-death delivery; it was as though she was telling me something I already knew very well from an actual experience. I could visualize the delivery room from above and see the nurse handling me. I still have a strong visual impression of those moments and I wonder now if I may have been undergoing a near-death experience. | I do not recall feeling any
specific emotions at the time of this experience, only
astonishment later as I relived it when my mother related it to
me. It was and still is all so real. I
could actually see everything that she would not have known as she
would have been under anesthesia. 19e/Special Delivery |
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| The waves were coming over my face. It was hard to breathe, and I knew I might not make it to shore. I vaguely remember turning to see the shoreline for the last time with all the people having a good time, unaware of my whereabouts. Then I felt a calming sensation as if I were watching the people on a movie. I didn't feel afraid. | I felt a sensation of floating over
the water, watching myself and not hurting or having any thoughts
about being in distress. The last thing I remember is seeing
how a man grabbed my hair to pull me from the water. 20e/Over Water |
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| I remember the lady sitting next to me yelling for help and people pulling me from in between the bleachers. I also recall people shutting the doors to the barn to send others away. I believe I had died three times during this time. I left my body to watch from the top bleacher, which was way higher than the four rows. | I saw my body being worked on and remember thinking that I had no pain and questioning why I couldn't feel any pain. I knew I wasn't in my body, but it didn't feel like I was without a body. (I know we still live after death.) I continued to watch, for how long I don't know. |
It seems like there is no time when you don't have a body. My husband said the rescue was about twenty minutes. When they put me on the stretcher to go into the ambulance, I re-entered my body. 21e/Bleachers |
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| I heard them say, "She is going to
die." I don't know how much time went by, but I did have a
beautiful experience. I was skipping up a beautiful path
surrounded by flowers toward a big gate. I wanted to go in but a
man's voice said, "Go back Mary Lou, go back. You are too young.
If you come in you cannot go home." When I awoke everyone was
crying. 22e/Skipping |
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| The doctors were only giving me a 50/50 chance. My first recollection was a SNAP in my ears, so loud it was almost deafening; it reverberated and left my ears ringing. I was above an operation, watching from a location near the ceiling, and found it very fascinating. It didn't seem extraordinary; it was like watching TV. Nurses and doctors were sort of frenzied around the patient, and I knew she was in trouble... I was overwhelmed, and deeply sympathetic for the patient. I seemed to feel her horrendous pain, emotionally rather then physically. | I couldn't really see her or even the others, with the drapes and masks etc., but then I thought, oh, that's me. But again, it was nothing extraordinary, just an acknowledgment. The brightest, whitest light annoyed me, shining onto the right side of my face. It was interfering with my ability to watch the surgery. I didn't want to quit watching the surgery, but the light kept bidding me to look away, and I looked toward it a couple of times. | It was distracting me, and I wanted it to go away. I watched as a long needle was thrust into the patient's (my) chest, and was a bit squeamish about that, so I did look away, and this time I moved into the light, drifting toward it. I entered a dark channel, a corridor, a tunnel, a canal... I remember thinking, "Yes, this is the birth canal." I thought with a big sigh, "I don't want to be born again." I realized with relief that wasn't happening. | In some way I was being born because of complete encasement in warm, gyrating, black jello projecting me forward towards the brilliant light. I saw my entry into the world, one childhood memory after another as distinct and as clear as if each were really happening. | There was a doctor with a round mirror attached to his head on a band. I was jumping in my crib. Most things were pleasant to see, some things made me very embarrassed. In fact, revolution and guilt took away any good feelings, making me so very sorry for certain things I had said or done. → |
| I hadn't just seen what I had done, but I felt and knew the repercussions of my actions. ... I was grieved to see how totally selfish, thoughtless and downright cruel I had been. I felt his complete panic and fear, and his change as he became less trusting. I was sickened. I had such total guilt that I tried to pull my view away. I was being pounded with the fears, pain, injuries, and anger I had caused in others, and the repercussions that had been passed on and on. I literally turned inside myself and as if going through a cleansing, turned outright again. | These things were all behind
me now, but I would know them and be with this knowledge. I stood before a light, white landscape in front of a podium that I cannot describe in detail. I know there was a large structure to my right. I know that all knowledge was in a structure with an enormous stairwell that went on forever up and to my left. I knew that the others were beyond my line of sight. |
I saw no one. As I waited, I remembered what I had forgotten, which was everything. I was astonished at the simplicity of why, what, who, where...all of it. I knew it all. I remember thinking that it is so weird that we don't remember any of it on the other side. It's so apparent, yet we cannot see it while living in the other form. | At that very moment I likened it to
an ant that could never perceive a human in its entirety, it's
complexity, or it's completeness, yet we are right there to be
seen if only the ant had the capacity. As I waited, I remembered three sisters or spirits, three others with whom I'd spend a great deal of time. |
I remembered that they had been surprised and concerned that I had made the decision to live this life. They feared a danger that I couldn't place at that moment. I wondered about them, and wanted to tell them that it was okay, but I also felt strongly that I had to go back. → |
| I remembered that I had a daughter, and before I could plead my case for returning, I was told by thought that I would not be allowed to stay. I got excited to return, and thought how much I wanted to remember the knowledge, so I could explain it to others, ease fears of death, and inspire goodness. | I thought that maybe I could trick them; I would think of some words that perfectly described the knowledge in it's simplest form, and then remember the words. Then I'd associate the words and remember the knowledge. I came up with perfect words, all is everything, everything is one. | I was so happy with my choice of
words; I knew that I would remember. Simultaneously, I drew the
deepest of breaths into my human body and was hauled from the
podium through the tunnel and back into my body with enormous
force. 23e/All One |
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| When the paramedics arrived, I was sitting on the couch. There was much commotion around me as they checked my vitals while all the time asking how I felt. I remember looking over to the top of the stairway where my wife and daughter stood panic-stricken. I wanted to tell them goodbye and how much I loved them. Something inside told me I was about to die. Later, I was told that I was speaking in some strange language that no one understood. | They said I spoke it well and coherently, but no one understood anything I was saying. At what must have been about the same time (everything was happening very fast) I saw myself standing at the base of an enormously high mountain. There was an opening in front of me and I walked in. | I was standing in a dimly lit long tunnel and began walking toward the source of the light. As I rounded a slight bend, there in front of me stood my father. My dad had died on Christmas Eve of 1998. He looked not as he had in his final days but as he must have 40 or 50 years earlier. | In the background, I could
dimly see a group of people and animals that looked like other
deceased relatives and pets of mine. My dad spoke and said, "Go
back, it's not your time yet." 24e/Source |
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| When the car hit the gravel at 80 mph, the car slid quickly to the left. We were now facing the trees. Trying to counter steer, I looked ahead saw a driveway and tried my best to lock the car up so that we could pull into the driveway. Thinking that we had made the driveway and sitting in the dark I said, "We made it." Looking around, all I could see was pitch black darkness. I asked my friend, "Where are you?" There was no response. Suddenly, I was walking down the middle of the road toward an old lady. | I was saying, "I am a mess. I am a
mess. I am a mess." As I walked closer toward her, I reached up to
feel my face that was tingling and warm. My finger went up inside
my sinus. At that moment, I started to walk away from myself. My vision was clear. My person, my body was moving away from me. I reached out and tried to grab myself. My hand swept through me as if there was nothing there. |
I was about three feet behind
myself when I watched my body falling to the street. For an
instant, my vision was back from the perspective of my body. I saw
the pavement in my face back and then darkness, the pitch of
black. As if looking down through the branches of a tree, there was an image fuzzy and dark. I thought, "What is that?" My friend answered, "I do not know, what is that?" |
Focusing all my concentration, the images were distorted like the sunlight that shines on the bottom of a swimming pool. The dim fuzzy dark image was illuminated clear for only an instant by the brighter lines moving across the field of view. I said to my friend, "That is my brother's car." | I could see a police car to the
left, a group of people behind the police car on the left, and an
ambulance to the right with a police car to the right of the
ambulance. My friend said, "That is us." At that moment, we both
said, "We are dead." As if in the snap of the fingers, the image
was gone and there was total darkness and a hint of fear.
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A voice up in front and to my right said, "Fear not. Do not be afraid." My uneasy feeling went away as I asked, "Who are you?" The voice answered, "Just call me father." In the center of my being I heard, "Christ." Then before me there were images, fuzzy and dark like the scene of the car with my friend and I below. But these images were all around me 360 degrees of vision in a circle that curved up and away like a bowl. I watched as a section of the image became clear and bright. |
I could see myself at the age of two. It was like a corridor of images stacked one in front of the other running away and up. As the bright area like a flash light was moving from the center in front of me to the left, I watched as the corridors of images showed my life at three, four, five, six and so on until the bright area got to the three o'clock position to my right. | Suddenly, I was standing in my mother's bedroom. The dog woke up and I said, "Hampton, it is okay." Then the voice up, in back, and to my right asked, "Is this not your mother?" I said, "Yes." Then my vision was turned to the right where I would see through my younger brother's door. The voice asked, "Is this not your brother?" I said, "Yes." | Then in the blink of an eye I was 12 miles away outside my older brother's apartment. Looking down through the concrete floor of the second story and the steel security door of his apartment, I could see my brother reaching out to open the apartment door. Beside him was a shadowy figure. | The voice up, behind me, and to the right asked, "Is this not your other brother?" Thinking that I could talk to the dog, and that my brother is awake, I started to say, "Charles. Get me out of this. Charles. Get me out of this." The voice again asked in a monotone voice, "Is this not your other brother?" → |
| Again I said, "Charles. Get me out of this." Then the voice asked in a fainter voice, "Is this not your other brother?" I said, "Yes." Then again in the blink of an eye I was taken 15 miles away to my father's apartment. I was hovering in the parking lot looking at him through his apartment door while he sat on the couch reading a newspaper. I was looking through the newspaper at his face when I wondered about his wife. I was told that she was in the bedroom. Then I was asked, "Is this not your father?" I said, "Yes." | In an instant, I was back in the darkness where I saw the 360-degree vision. The last one-quarter was quickly scanned. Then I had a sense of front and back. There were voices in a murmur behind me as if eight to 10 people were all talking at once. The voice up and to the right told me something and then to look behind me and to my right. I saw an image of myself in a white robe as if it were hanging on a coat hook. | My head bowed down. My right hand held my left wrist at arms length and rested on my belly. As I turned forward, I could sense that the voice was gone. Then I wondered what was this bluish white sesame seed in front of me. Up until that point every time I wondered anything the voice told me. Yet this time as I looked at the blue sesame seed, there was no voice. I watched as the seed approached me or I approached the seed. | There was a low pitch rumble down the frequency range. Then as the seed got closer or I got closer to the seed, the low pitch started to rise up in tone. When the seed and I came together, light began to fill my eyes as if it was being poured into my head from a pitcher. The low pitch sound had become a high pitch ringing as the light started to become clear. | A ching like that of a sword pulling from its sheath chilled my body as I became aware that there were people around me. A man kept asking me, "Why did you do it?" I would respond, "What did I do?" Then my father angrily said, "Answer the officer." I responded, "What did I do?" My father said, "You know what you did." → |
| Then I looked down at my feet and saw that they were hand cuffed. Looking at my feet, I saw my brother Charles. I said, "Charles, Charles, what did I do." Charles came to my right side and said, "You wrecked my car. Cline is dead." At that moment, from the crown of my head, a burning pins and needles feeling like when your arm falls asleep started to descend over the entire length of my body. | I lay on the stretcher hands and feet cuffed as my body tingled
with the most excruciating pain that I have ever felt which caused
me to pass out. I woke up shortly in jail. Then I
woke up for good. 25e/360º Vision |
[Note: This report appears elsewhere in the IANDS archives as Corridors of Life's Images.] | ||
| Emergency surgery. I closed my eyes for a moment. All of a sudden I was off the planet and floating way above the earth, although I could feel it behind me. I was looking into a star field--a massive, infinite entity that encompassed all of the galaxies, all of space, and some presence which is right in front of us all of the time that the earth sits in. It was massive and unimaginable. | And, I had the thought that all of the dark matter and dark energy in the whole of the void was God. I was overwhelmed by the size of this presence. I understood that it knew everything about me as if it had built me cell by cell. I felt the earth behind me. | I realized it was seething with life, an ocean of blue and white froth waves being life and teaming with it. Then I didn't hear a voice, but rather I was asked a question by this entity. It told me if I wanted to come out now I could, or I could go back. No voice, but I felt the question in a big way. | I thought of my life and fiancée and decided to go back. Right then I opened my eyes and was still on the rolling gurney, almost in the very same spot as if no time had passed at all. When I woke from surgery many hours later, I had the strangest thought that we are all floating around in a gas. | Where we are going, there is no gas
and everything is crystal clear, like diamonds. Here we are
looking through a foggy gas, kind of like when it is very hot and
you see those heat waves on a road as you drive. 26e/Infinite Entity |
| One morning I felt a tingling in my knees that proceeded up my legs. It was a comfortable, warm sensation. Then I noticed a strange thing--the bright sunny day I could see through the large windows had turned a beautiful deep purple. There were little golden lights twinkling in that sky. I felt really warm and comfortable looking at that scene. Next I remember feeling myself floating up toward the ceiling. Looking down, I saw myself still in bed asleep and very far away; it was as though I was much higher up. | There was no sound at all and it was a bit cool, although it was a mid-summer’s day, which in Cape Town, means quite hot. Through the door in the ward I saw my parents come running in, led by a white-coated doctor, and nurses began to bring the mobile screens around my bed. My mother took hold of my hand and held it to her face. She appeared to be crying, and my father was standing next to her. | They stayed there for a long time, eventually leaving very slowly and stooped over. It is a scene that I can never forget; I’m 74 years of age now. It’s as fresh as if it were yesterday. It was also very windy up where I was. Apparently I woke up normally, and nothing was said to me about anything at all. In fact, I didn’t remember anything either, at that time. | It was only a few months later when I was cured and back home when my mother told me that they had received a telephone call from the hospital asking them to come immediately as I was nearing death. When they arrived I had already passed on. | By the time they had arrived back home, another
telephone call from the hospital told them the amazing good news.
That’s all she told me, but then it all came back to me in a rush. 27e/A Call |
| I knew I was dying, and I was aware of all circumstances (being operated on). I instinctively waited to be afraid, but I wasn't. This was a pleasant surprise. Then, I was not trying to breathe anymore. Rather, I just let go and became very aware that it was the end. I was not afraid. In an instant, I was high above the operating table and I saw everyone rushing around my body. I saw that they were talking fast, but I couldn't hear anything. | I remember feeling very clear, having access to all my consciousness from the whole life and feeling the ability of pulling any thought or information if I needed to, but I did not need to do that. I remember thinking, "Why are they freaking out like this? Everything will be fine!" |
In an instant I felt a few strong, very cold blows of forced air into my lungs. I was not above the table anymore. I had another thought, "They did it!" After that thought I did not experience anything until I woke up from the anesthesia. | I asked what had happened. They
said I had a cardiac arrest. They were very surprised to find out
that I knew. 28e/High Above |
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| I remember being put to sleep and then I experienced swimming in a pool. I was on the bottom of the pool and looked up to see blue sky and the sun shining. It is similar to when you are at the bottom of a pool and you look up on a sunny summer afternoon. There was very soft, beautiful music with lots of violins. I have the song in my head, but I have never heard it before or since. I had the sensation of having to get to the top of the pool to get some air. It was a struggle to get to the top of the water; I struggled and struggled and fought my way up. | I would look down and see a white stone path with people waving; I had a feeling that I knew them. It's like they were waving hello. The path was very light, white and bright. I could see Jesus at what looked like the end, and the path was lined with a huge crowd of people waving. I wanted to keep looking down and go in that direction, but I also felt I should go to the top of the water. | I would try to swim to the top, but I would look down and see all those people. They looked so welcoming and inviting. I was torn about which way to go. The last time I looked down I heard my grandmother's voice telling me, "Honey you have to go back now, we aren't ready for you. Maha needs you." I didn't see her, only heard her; she died in 1981. | I felt a push, broke through the surface of the water and took in a big gulp of air (just like you would after you have been under water too long). administering pain meds. | My husband was brought back in to
see me. And how my grandmother would know to call my daughter Maha
is amazing. Maha is not a name she would have known. 29e/Pool |
| I could not breathe. I then had a
thought in my mind, "Is anyone going to be able to make me
breathe?" I then asked myself, "Am I dying? Is this what it is
like to die? Am I dying?" And then all of a sudden, instantly, I
did not hear anyone. I was in my own thoughts and swoosh into this unbelievable, most beautiful, brightest light and ever golden. There is no describing it. You have to see it; it cannot be explained by words. But, it was not blinding light. You are part of it moving. |
I get chills, tears, goose bumps when I relive this. As I tell it, my heart beats fast and I feel the incredible peace and love every time I share this, which is not often. I did not see a tunnel, although there may have been one. I was traveling in the light at an amazing speed/absorption where I came to this space, open space of light and I could see all of these images of people outlined in light. | There were no clothes on anyone, and I could not make out faces as male or female. There were no boundaries; it was as open as the eye could see and I could see images of people and their forms as far as I could see. I instantly had no fear. I was filled with love and peace that I can only describe and can never do it justice. I was so loved and accepted. I had never felt so loved in all my life. The peace, serenity, joy, and no pain was unbelievable! | I then began to have a dialogue with myself, not moving my lips but talking in my brain. It was lightening fast of my life, how beautiful this all was, and how I could not believe this was happening and how lucky I was. I went on and on, not enough room here to write it. I began to think, Oh my God I did not tell anyone I was going. I was then shown my present and current life at that moment. | I was watching from above. I was not in the room, but I could see this action picture of me in the center of the room. The respiratory guy resuscitating me with the ambu bag; ER doctor controlling the code; the nurse in the room; a nurses aid holding my hand; and a nurse at my feet. The room was a wreck all with me in the center on my hospital bed. → |
| I remembered that I never got to
tell anyone that I loved them or that I was going. I needed to
tell people I was going to miss them and they were going miss me.
I was talking again at lightening speed. And then in that instant
I was talking I felt like I was being swooshed back but this time
I could feel something like a puff of air was being pushed into my
lungs and my eyes opened to blinding light from the room.
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| The first thing I remember is the absolute knowledge that I was dying. My body started shutting down from my right toe then slowly up both legs all the while I thought, “This is what it’s like to be dying.” I was conscious of hospital staff trying to awaken me, but I kept on going into a faint and could not focus properly. My body kept on shutting down or slowly dying, and I then remember going into what I can only describe as a white enclosed slide type of tunnel, the diameter being about five feet. | It was terrifying and I was going feet first like a slalom ride, faster and faster and I felt desolate and terribly alone and terrified. The thought that ‘this is what death is all about” kept recurring in my mind over and over. The noise in my ears was terrifying and got louder and louder. This seemed to go on for what seemed hours, and I remember thinking that this is all there is and ever going to be; I was crying inconsolably. | At first the slide was white, then it turned into darkness and the space seemed to be getting narrower. The next thing I remember is that I was standing next to my hospital bed looking at myself. (There was a large chest of drawers or a locker and a chair next to the bed. The room was very small. It occurred to me later that I could not physically have stood in that spot). | The doctor was bending over me, looking into my eyes and I could see that he was very upset and was trying to awaken me. I reached over to touch and tell him that it was okay and for him not to worry or feel at all bad about things as I was dead and okay. I touched his arm, but he was not aware of any contact and he could not hear me. | I was then in the
darkness again but going toward what I knew to be the end of the
slide. There was only a tiny speck of light. I then came into
absolute silence and into a space so vast that I cannot describe
it but the sky was arched. The air was warm, like liquid velvet
on my face. → |
| The background sky was of an inky, dark blue color and the billions of stars were beautiful. The vastness was indescribable and extremely beautiful. I appeared to be floating and was not aware that I was standing on anything. I just wanted to be there and not move. The peace was so overwhelming and so comforting. | Then a voice spoke over my left shoulder, a voice so beautiful, full of love and so deep that I will never forget that sound. He said, “Your time is not now. You must go back to your children. They need you.” | I said, “I do not want to go back,” several times over, and the voice said, “Your newborn baby needs a mother and your other two children need you.” No words were spoken as it all happened telepathically. | All I had to do was think about what I
wanted to say. I was back in my body and woke up. 31e/There's More |
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| After my car went off the road it
seemed like things became slow-motion. I saw the ditch and knew I was going to hit it, but I guess my mind was going a million miles a minute because I was able to think about what was going to happen, what I was going to miss out on (I was going to the Homecoming football game), how my parents would feel about me being in an accident, and who would call my boyfriend. |
I was supposed to go to marching
band, and it made me feel really sad. All of this happened in a
matter of like two seconds. The weirdest part, however, happened as soon as I hit the bump before the car went airborne. I felt like I was floating above my right shoulder with the roof of the car a foot higher and I was against it. |
I saw my body, again in slow
motion, like a rag doll and I remember thinking, "What the hell?
Is that me? What's going on?" And just like that, it was over. 32e/Floating |
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| Passed out. I remember I could not scream for anyone but tried to anyway. I floated up out of my body toward the ceiling and corner of the room. I saw a tunnel and began spinning in the tunnel. It was white all around me. I then heard the nurse come in to check on me and she saw me passed out. She ran out screaming for the doctor. | He came in and ordered her to go get the adrenaline shots. She came back in and they both sat me up and began shooting me in the arms with those shots. (I was dripping with sweat and I remember I had on a grey cotton shirt that was wet when I left the doctor.) | As I came to, I came out of the
corner in the room and tunnel and went back into my body. 33e/Spinning |
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| I had an asthma attack. I was aware of four states of consciousness: awake, dreaming, hallucinating, and out of body in another realm. I was listening to two doctors discuss the opening up of the thoracic area and thought they were talking about me. I thought, "Geeze, they think I'm unconscious and they're going to operate and I'm wide awake". When I regained consciousness, I related this to a nurse who told me that the conversation had taken place but in a different room to the one I was in and the doctors were talking about someone else. |
I was in a hospital bed in a clinical room that wasn't solid. To my left stood my yoga teacher's wife, Bha, who had died three years previously of breast cancer. Bha was talking animatedly with a blue light being; he was tall and the shape of a man, but he had no features. A neon turquoise blue light outlined his shape and he had lights moving on the inside of his shape like sunlight playing on water. Bha and the light being were laughing a lot. | I was aware that my lungs weren't
moving and I was trying to make my chest go up and down by
breathing; nothing was happening.
Bha came over and said, "Stop interfering, let the machine breathe for you, all you have to do is be here". I thought I would give it a go and stopped trying to breathe. I realised that I was still here even if I didn't breathe. |
I was watching my life on a sort of video in my mind, which was running left to right. I saw myself laughing when I was seven and wearing a brown and white striped dress that my grandmother had made me. I saw myself in a conversation with my school mates saying, "Don't be stupid, when you're dead, you're dead". I saw other things that I cannot recall just now. | I went back in my memory to when I was a fetus and I was rocking myself to a sound that was the shape of a triangle; not like a pyramid but with a long base, a short upright on the left side and the top line curved. (perhaps my mother's breathing?) I had just discovered my tongue and I was rubbing it on the roof of my mouth. The sensation was exquisite. → |
| I discovered that I could
click my tongue (I would describe this now as the sucking motion)
and was clicking my tongue to the shape of the sound as I rocked
myself. I was in a state of bliss.
I went to a place of knowledge, where I knew everything. It was here that I knew that there was no such thing as time or space. It was here that I realised that I had created all of the melodramas in my life and it made me laugh (I call that my cosmic giggle). |
I went into a flow of oneness that I think is God, (I called that the "isness"); it is a state of bliss where I am all there is. It is formless. It is like waking from a nightmare and finding yourself safe at home. Life on earth is the dream and this oneness/bliss is the reality that you wake up into safe and sound. | I was back in the room with Bha and the light being. Bha said, "It's time for you to go back now". I said I didn't want to go back. A vision came into my mind of my daughter crying over my grave. I could feel what my daughter was feeling and I thought, "Ah, she's not ready for me to leave her yet. I'd better go back". As soon as I had the thought, I was back in my body. | I was watching the video of my life again when suddenly it disappeared (as if the video was one of those little tape measures that has a button on the top to recoil the tape into its plastic housing and someone had pressed the button). I thought, "Hey, I was watching that". | For some years, I would wake at
about 2 a.m. and the blue being (Michael) would teach me spiritual
things until about 5 a.m. Although I still sense him around me,
his presence is not as evident in my life as it was. This has been
my choice because I felt that I was becoming too dependent on him
to guide me. 34e/Oneness |
| In ICU on a ventilator. I was in a very bright, white light place. There were angels who looked like people but not anyone I knew. They were down a tunnel. I was on one end and they were on the other. Someone was saying, "Come, the fight will be over, come and you will feel better." The pull toward the "angels" was huge. It felt safe and secure. I walked a bit but below my children were looking up. They needed me. I told the angels I needed to stay with my children. | They carried on saying come, come.
It was exceptionally difficult to fight the urge to go. It was as
if I would have been in utopia, but my children were where I could
see them looking up at me. The experience was peaceful and during the entire time I felt safe. I wanted to go about halfway down the tunnel. |
I looked down again and immediately turned around and walked back. I could hear them calling my name but it got quieter and quieter. Then I woke up. | ||
| I heard one of my pals say, "Get an ambulance." My vision and hearing went. I was thinking of my family. I felt so sad as well as being frightened beyond belief. Then I was in a dark place, but the fear had gone away very strangely. In my religion, we have a place called purgatory where Catholics who lived a less than perfect life end up. I was thinking it wasn’t so bad. It was so dark but peaceful, and I remember thinking I must be dead. | I couldn’t feel my body--don’t
think I had one, but  I was still me with crystal clear thinking.
It felt like I was there for a long time. Then I could see in the
distance, almost miles away, a small light that was so warm and
inviting. Even today, I can still feel it when I think about the
light. I thought, "Do I go to it or what?" as it sure beat the
darkness; it felt right to go there too. |
As I willed myself to the light (that’s the best way I can describe my traveling) someone stopped me. I felt him/her stop me, but I didn’t see anyone. I just felt a strong presence. I will never forget the words spoken to me by neither a male or female voice that said, “Don’t be scared, you’re going to be okay." | ... Oh yeah, I forgot to mention
one point. The voice…it seemed to know me. That’s the feeling I
got. 36e/Someone |
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| Just before I came to, I was walking through a long dark corridor that seemed like quite a while. I had very little concept of time. After a while I heard a raspy voice, who I believe was Satan, calling my name. He said, "Don't go into the light, come into the darkness. The grass isn't any greener on the other side." I said, "Jesus Christ is my Lord and Savior. He is the way, truth and life," the only scripture I had memorized from the Bible. He said this to me several times, but I had no fear of him. | I responded the same way each time until he went away. Then, I kept walking toward a faint glow for what seemed like a long time. As I drew closer, the faint glow started to get bigger and brighter. I didn't see anyone, just the dark and the light. As I got closer and closer to the light, I could feel that I was about to enter into it and I was very excited. | I felt that I was about to enter
into Heaven. Just then, a lady's voice spoke to me, one of obvious
authority. She said, "Don't go into the light.
It is not your time yet." I remember bowing my head in
disappointment. I awoke out of my coma. 37e/About to Enter |
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| I tell someone every day of
my experience with Jesus Christ and how He touched me and cured my
cancer. I especially like telling my story to other cancer
patients as my story seems to impart a sense of hope and faith in
those facing death. I like to think that my story gives solace and
comfort to others who are told, "You have cancer and you are going
to die and there isn't anything that anybody can do about it." 38e/Jesus |
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| Reaction to a prescribed medication. I saw what looked like a bright, white circle. It looked very happy. I took it to be my future. The first and second times I saw it, I thought the time was not yet. On the third time, I saw and thought it. "There's nothing for me here. I don't care what it is...I'm going." I stepped across into the circle and immediately I was engulfed in a beautiful light. It was all around me and it was composed of unimaginable kindness. It was like being in the middle of the sun. I delighted the sun. | It knew what I was like -
faults and all but it loved me completely. It was also horrified
by what I had done; that is, I had gone there alone and unaided.
It didn't know a human being could do that. Such a feat should
have been impossibly dangerous. As I walked around inside the sun, I became aware that there was someone else walking around with me. I didn't recognize this person, but I was aware that he was unique and loved me. |
Then I became aware that there were thousands of people in the sun but they were not there yet; however, a place had been saved for them. I felt that I knew all there was to know, not specific events but I could see the significance of everything that happened and I knew what the consequences would be. I was able to step into and out of the sun and I saw on earth a verdant garden; no flowers were there, but birds sang and brought the flowers into being. The sun resided on earth in this garden. | There were green people (I could see the foliage of the garden through their forms.) waiting outside the gate to the garden. They began to come in when they saw me there. They seemed to know me and, although I was the youngest of them, they loved me the most. I beckoned to them to come in but the doctor who was attending said they were ghosts and that I was to send them away. | I waved them away and they went out
of the garden but they were sad because they did not know why they
had to leave. Then the doctor told me, "Come back now." I stepped
back down to earth with the utmost reluctance. Earth to me now
seemed like hell because it is where injustice, chaos and
everything that seems unfair or arbitrary operates. The doctor
ordered me to promise not to go there again.
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| I did so without the slightest
intention of keeping that promise. I was back on the wretched earth but I closed my eyes and felt myself walking through a dark forest. It was dark but not an unfriendly place. I was very tired and I stood still for a short while. As I stood, one of the trees in the forest grew up around me and I had to struggle hard to free myself and keep walking toward the western horizon to the sun. Then it showed itself to me. |
It was warm and glowing, sitting tangent on the horizon. It was about to set. I went toward it and saw again the bright, white circle and I threw myself into it. Again, it became the sun, surrounding me above and below with its unimaginable kindness. The second time the doctor ordered me to return. I knew that if I did so, I would not be able to enter the sun again, at least not until the end of my life here. | At some point during the
experience--I cannot remember specifically when--I became aware of
the significance of every event that had ever happened to me. I
also became aware (to my astonishment) that I had lived on earth
many times before. I even remembered a fragment of my past time
here. I was walking across a grassy heath with one other person.
He was dressed like a soldier or as if prepared for an arduous
journey. |
I was wearing a long, white dress,
which was some sort of a mark of distinction. We had been very
happy in our time together and we had agreed to meet again. 39e/In the Sun |
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| From ages three to eight, I had an "imaginary" friend I named Mr. Cardine. He would take me to places outside my body and tell me what was going to happen to me and other family members. I could also see other beings, but I could not see Mr. Cardine. When I would be out of my body, I could see people having conversations and I could listen to their plans. It was very hard to understand why other people did not believe me when I would tell them what was going to happen. | Mr. Cardine was very friendly and never frightened me. I thought everyone knew Mr. Cardine and I would talk about him to everyone. Soon I was the target of ridicule and bullying because nobody believed my stories or that I had an "imaginary" friend. My mother got frightened because I was telling her things that happened and were going to happen. | Her concern for my behavior
prompted her to go to a preacher in the Holiness denomination and
he began to tell me that Mr. Cardine was not real. I would tell
him things about his life and he told mother to take me to a
doctor. The doctor told me to kill Mr. Cardine and my parents wanted me to tell them when he dies. One day while I was talking to some of the other beings, mother got angry and gave me a spanking and then dad did the same when he got home. |
Mr. Cardine was the main being in
that realm of existence. He could make all the others leave. I
could not hear his voice or see him; it was a presence I would
feel and the communication was verbal on my part, but I am not
sure how I understood him. I would see many other beings too. Some of them looked like melted piles of tar and I was very afraid of them. |
They were able to move through
walls and I could tell that they had no boundaries, as I knew
boundaries. I remember their presence mostly when my parents were
arguing or drinking and arguing. Mr. Cardine could make the
tar-like beings leave. The last time I was aware of Mr. Cardine was the day I had to tell my parents he had fallen off the roof, broke his leg and died. → |
| He told me to do this and said he
would always be with me but I could not talk to him anymore
because of the beatings my parents started giving me when they
caught me talking to him. Fast forward to my 39th year. It was 1995 on July 14th that my life changed. I had been breaking out in hives for 21 years and I didn't know what caused it. I ate a peanut butter sandwich and five minute later I could feel the hives starting. |
One hive was below my navel and it was worse than any hive I had ever had. In the mirror I watched the hive move around my body in a circle that ended back at the origin of the hive. At that time my body felt as if it was on fire. I knew I needed to get to the hospital immediately. | When I got to the hospital I was very faint feeling and I walked in the ambulance door and the staff nurse told me to go to admissions and fill out the forms. I told her I could hardly stand up anymore and requested a wheel chair. After arguing for a few minutes she agreed to take my information. I was seated in front of her and after a few questions I told her I needed to lie down. I heard her saying something and I laid on the floor. | The next thing I knew I was floating above my body and watching it as people were giving me CPR. I heard a voice that said, "Why have you worried so much in your life?" I looked at my body again. The voice said, "What good is it now?" I turned to see who was talking and the ceiling was not a barrier to me anymore. I went through to the outside and I looked in the night sky for the voice's origin. | I did not recognize it at first and I found myself focused on a star. The star started to get large and I was enveloped in its light. I looked toward the source of the light and saw the light was coming from a core of colors that were in an oval shape and swirling around in beautiful patterns. Somehow the colors started to form a space and I knew I was supposed to go in that space. → |
| I then recognized the voice
as it said, "Here is your assured home you built while you were
living. Have you finished everything you want in this life?" I
thought about my woodcarvings that were not finished. I found
myself back in my body that instant. I could feel the weight of the nurse sitting on my chest and compressing my heart. I said, "What in the hell am I doing back here?" I was then moved to a cubical with a doctor. He started inserting tubes into my arm and talking to me. |
He asked me, "How are you feeling?" and to stay awake and not close my eyes. I relaxed and I heard the voice of Mr. Cardine. He said, "This is what happens to evil people." Then I saw a man I had never seen before. He had a look of terror in his eyes that seemed to convey that he saw where he was going and why. He then turned to a cloud of light that was colorful light swirling about in the center of the cloud. | I suddenly saw one of the tar-like beings and the cloud formed a point that drew the whole cloud into the tar-like being. I saw a woman do the same and several others came in rapid succession. Mr. Cardine said, "This will happen to your mother." I awoke suddenly on the stretcher with the doctor yelling for me to hang on. He said, "You have to hang on, don't close your eyes." I said, "What in the hell am I doing back here again." | I was on the stretcher and a moment later Mr. Cardine said, "We are going on a journey." I saw the composition of the ceiling materials and I found myself moving in darkness. I wasn't afraid because Mr. Cardine was there. We came upon something I do not know how to describe other than to say it was the largest thing I ever knew. It was alive and knew I was there. | It was communicating with Mr.
Cardine but I could not understand them. We started moving again
and suddenly we stopped in the presence of another larger being,
larger than the first. They both turned from each other and looked
at me. I have never felt anything so good. I felt love. I tried to
say something but I was not able to communicate at all. → |
| Mr. Cardine and I were
suddenly moving and the last thing I heard him say was, "You have
chosen life. You will suffer as you help others." I awoke to the doctor's yelling for me to hold on and wake up. He was slapping me and I said, "What in the hell am I doing back here?" 40e/Mr. Cardine |
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| Injured. I was on the other side of the veil in a heavenly realm. There was a bright mist permeating everything. The light was everywhere; it even passed through me. I can remember looking at my hand and the light passed through it. My hand was transparent, but this did not surprise me. As I walked with a heavenly person, his countenance shone forth with such brightness. I can't even begin to describe it. I knew this heavenly being was Jesus because I recognized him as a familiar friend. | He didn't announce who he was because this wasn't necessary. I remember walking with Jesus, but we weren't walking in the physical sense. The best way I can describe our walking is in mid-air, floating a bare spare above the ground of a beautiful garden. Everything in this garden had an overall whiteness and brightness about it. I was seeing the bright green of the plants. | I could see the water and a bright glow surrounding it. The burbling of the water had a musical sound. The stream of water fairly sang. The water was so sparkling clear. I remember wanting to bend over and take a drink from the stream that was running through this garden we were walking through. When I tried to scoop up water with my hands, the water ran through them, literally, and it wasn't wet. | Jesus stopped walking and looked at me while I was bent over trying to drink this water. I could feel his eyes on me. My thirst for this water (even though I wasn't able to put it to my lips and drink it) was gone at that moment. I can't describe the sensation I felt when the water was running through my hands, but I did feel something. | I felt this overwhelming desire to experience everything about this garden. When Jesus and I talked it wasn't with our mouths, but I knew we were communicating. His countenance fairly shone, and how he felt about me shone forth about him. He simply exuded love and concern and caring for me, just by standing there. The feeling of peace I felt was indescribable. → |
| I was given the choice that I could either come back to earth and live more life or stay with him in heaven. We both knew that returning to earth would be a struggle because I told him that I wanted to return to earth if I could help others and myself. He knew that I didn't want to live more life on earth if it meant being trapped in an unresponsive body, unable to communicate. The look of love in his eyes filled me with joy then, and as I remember that feeling of joy I felt I'm filled with joy anew. | I don't know how I did this, but I was instantly in a hospital room looking at my husband holding my hand and talking to me. The next thing I remember was being trapped in my body while others cared for my physical needs. I can remember that I could tell what the nurses were thinking about me by how they touched me. Through their touch I knew if they thought I was going to live or not. | I knew if they thought they were caring for a basically dead person whose spirit wasn't there. I remember trying to scream out, "Look, I'm alive. I'm in here. I'm going to live." I relaxed and trusted a person much more if I knew that they knew they were caring for a living person. I obviously could read their thoughts. While in my spirit body, I remember communicating telepathically. | This is how Jesus and I communicated in that heavenly garden. It was so easy. It required no effort. You thought the thoughts and they were communicated. Speaking through my physical mouth is so difficult and frustrating. Sometimes we're misunderstood; people get the wrong meaning of what you're trying to say. | The
phrase the world uses of being soul mates is referring to the
communication between two souls, spirit-to-spirit communication.
To communicate on a spiritual level is a very profound experience. 41e/Communication |
| After I said, "Help me." I felt his arms around me and he said, "Relax everything is going to be okay." I could hear this and my body like it was everywhere. Initially I felt no pain and I could breathe again. I never felt so happy in my entire life. I knew this being was an angel and not God himself. My angel and I were like flying toward this really bright light. The light was getting closer and then and in a second it just engulfed us. It was thousands of times brighter than the sun and yet my eyes did not hurt. Somehow I knew I was home. | This light itself had a real feeling of love, like it was alive. I felt this love in my being (very hard to explain). Then, the angel said that he had to go. I didn't feel alone because this light was still there; after a second or two another angel came toward me. I couldn't see him perfectly but he was tall and beautiful. I never saw a man that beautiful in my life. I asked him who he was and he told me that he was my guide. | I was in love with him and everything I knew as a boy. I asked him, "Am I dead?" Speaking to my mind he said, "You never die." I didn't understand and I asked him, "What do you mean I never die?" He said, "You never die," and soon I will understand everything. Then he said two words and I got this jolt of joy. The words were like a package of knowledge. I could understand everything--and I mean everything. Then I started to see this movie of my life. | I somehow knew I was being judged or something and I remember thinking, "How bad can this be I'm only eight years old?" I was wrong. He was showing me things with a lovely smile. I knew I was in trouble. He showed me the time I scratched my neighbor's car with a key; I could feel how bad this man felt. I was thinking, how many points for that bad thing. | My angel knew what I was thinking and said, "Don't
worry, that was just a lesson." He then told me, "It's the things
that I do out of love that count." My life was going backward. I remember being inside my mother and then I was this pure light. I was part of everything and everything was part of me. → |
| I had this feeling that I was not who I thought I was. Then I felt my mother's pain when she heard the news about losing her three sons. That was when I started to remember my life as a human being. I stared to remember my beautiful life, the little things like drinking, eating, breathing oxygen, and earth's beauty. I told my angel that I want to go back to earth. He just smiled and told me that my mission was not done. (I still don't know what my mission is.) I told him, "This is beautiful and all but I want to go back." | I even forgot about my
brothers. My angel told me to forget everything and not to tell
anyone. The next thing I know this tall,
beautiful man with dark skin is carrying me out of the water. It
was then that I realized he was the one that saved me and took me
to what I think was heaven and home. The first thing I saw when I
became human again was the beautiful blue sky. 42e/Guided |
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| At one point instead of losing consciousness, I was very present and very aware of being. I was in a different place, but very aware that my body was in the hospital room giving birth. (I could even hear, but not see, the nurses and sounds of the delivery room.) All this seemed to be going on through a veil or just on the other side of where I was being. Then I became more aware of my surroundings and lost connection with the physical plane. | I could no longer hear the hospital room sounds. I was aware that I was surrounded by a purple colour and existed in what can be described as misty energy. I didn't have a body, but seemed to exist as a light bluish energy. I felt the most overwhelming sense of belonging, like I had come home. It was pure love, just pure existence in love. | It is very difficult to describe in words the intensity of that feeling. I was aware that behind me were other energy beings, people whom I knew so well, like I had really come home. I felt so happy and wanted to turn around to greet them, but I got the message--there were no words or touch--that no, now is not the right time. | I felt them gently guiding me back.
I was instantly back in the delivery room. 43e/Lost Connection |
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| Went into surgery. Here's what I recall next. I was on a pure white bed with pure white sheets in a large white room that had curvature where the walls met the ceiling. There was a thin black line where the walls met the ceiling, but the ceiling wasn't perceptible only the curvature, brilliant white and pure white floor. I remember thinking, "Wait a minute, this isn't what it's supposed to be like." I know my eyes were closed, but I could still see everything. | I could see my bed, the perfectly squared sheets, the room, and myself. I couldn't make out the length of the room...its corner went on and on, tapering as the distance grew until I couldn't perceive an opening. As I recall, the instant I had the thought, "This isn't what it's supposed to be like," there was a lady at my left shoulder even with my head. | She was wearing an almost indescribably beautiful deep red crushed velvet dress that flowed to the ground (but there really wasn't any ground; I don't know how else to describe it. She had the most beautiful shiny ebony hair, wavy, flowing down below her waist and almost to her feet. I couldn't make out a face but she was the most beautiful thing I had ever seen. | This I knew. This I still know. She said, "You can't go. I can't let you go." But, I didn't want to listen. She kept telling me that I couldn't go, that she couldn't let me go. After repeating that a few times, she sternly said, "You cannot go." | A tear was rolling down my left
cheek and she wiped the tear with the part of her index finger
between the first and second knuckles. At that moment I was back
in the operating room. 44e/Cannot Go |
| The next thing I remember is that I lay naked on the operation table. I still find it hard to explain. But as I lay there, I felt my spirit go out of my body and hover over it. I still tried to communicate with the doctors and nurses but no one could hear what I was saying. I was trying to tell them that I was still alive. I looked down and saw my body. I saw how the doctors were using electric shock paddles on me, doing what they could to bring me back. | ... After the doctor finished and
stitched me up, I remember the doctors leaving the operation area.
They left a nurse to watch out for me. I still didn't regain
consciousness. All of a sudden, I felt myself reenter my body again. 45e/Never Forget |
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| I am writing about my husband's NDE. He told me that he almost went to heaven. He went through a tunnel and to a light so bright that he needed shades, but the light did not hurt his eyes. Things were shiny and glistening. God talked to him. His voice was loud like thunder. He was huge and behind a cloud. He said he learned that God was the universe. He is love and never ending. | He is in every blade of grass. It was calm and peaceful. He told my husband that he had to go back; his work wasn't finished. He was told God sends us people to help us get to heaven, a handle to God. He told me there were several levels; he was on the brightest level. Below are darker and darker levels. | He told me he was in an in between place, "the other side," and people were around him in white gowns, like sitting on a train. He saw his brother-in-law that passed away about a year before. Before this experience, my husband was unsure of an afterlife and cussed a lot. | Afterwards, he never cussed again. When he got angry, he would say cuss, cuss. He told his daughter, "Jesus sits on the right hand of God." He never would have talked this way before. | He was different. He didn't like
violent movies, liked different foods, and was very loving and
patient despite his handicaps. 46e/Almost Heaven |
| Heart issue. Immediately, I saw myself flying in a direction to my interior at an unthinkable speed and soon my trip continued in a dark space. It was a very remarkable realm without the limits of earthly life. There was a sense of freedom and no fear. I perceived a holy presence very close to me. I said, "Lord will I go home now?" He answered, "No, it is not your time. Your mission is not complete. You have to return." | Immediately I
saw my body at a long distance very well and a powerful spiritual
hand that touched my chest, exactly over my heart. Immediately it
began to work again. In less than a second, I returned to my body. 47e/Holy Presence |
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| Heart stopped. At first I felt dizzy then I blacked out. I saw flashing lights and heard male voices speaking to me, but I did not understand what they were saying. They were distinctly male and it sounded as if they were speaking all at the same time. The sounds of their voices were not unpleasant at all, just confusing. | I then felt warmth. I can hardly
describe the feeling; it was just fantastic and wonderful. Warm
and safe is the only way I can describe it.
I was resuscitated. 48e/Male Voices |
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| Injured. I stood and began to walk. In the middle of the first grassy field I looked up and saw one puffy cloud and for some strange reason said out loud, "Please God, don't let me die, give me another chance." Just then another of my older brothers appeared out of the creek bed, picked me up, and raced me to my mother who was waiting in the station wagon. I always look back on that moment, and as an adult realized two things. | One, I had an out-of-body experience. Two, I didn't go to any church back then, nor were we religious as a family that I can recall. My mother was a divorced alcoholic with six kids, me being the youngest. So why did I ask a God who I did not know for another chance at such a young age? Fast-forward to 1993 at age 29, married with no children and church going. ... |
[Hospital. Sedation.] ... I was now floating in a dark black tunnel. I tried to see the sides but they were as though they were not. I looked at my hands by my side and noticed that I was a golden transparent color. I had feet, toes, and fingers--the whole nine yards--all this golden transparent color. I looked ahead of me and saw a distant light, a dot of light very far a way and blurry. |
I squinted to try to focus, but I was suddenly outside the tube in a vast flat, black darkness of space. I looked for stars but saw only the dark rubbery looking tube stretching ahead of me into forever. Not in a straight line either. That confused me because when you look into a hose you need to stretch it out in order to see the light at the other end. | Now, here's something that is hard to explain. I was watching myself inside the tunnel at the same time I was looking at myself outside the tunnel, all seeing and all questions happening at the same time. → |
| How could I be down in that tunnel seeing a light at the end of it when I'm floating out here seeing a tunnel that is not in a straight line? Suddenly, I was thrust at a high rate of speed through the tunnel toward the light. It was magnificent. Years later I dove into a warm swimming pool and was brought back to that moment as I floated underwater. | It was the water splitting across my face. That was the feeling in the tunnel. As quickly as I has started my journey through the vast length of the tunnel, I was suddenly in the light. It swirled around me as clouds. Different shades of white, all swirling fast. | I describe the feeling as this.
"Imagine the most wonderful feeling you have ever had and multiply
that times millions." I recall saying, "Wow." It was so perfect; I
never wanted to leave this place. Suddenly I was in darkness and yelling "No!!!!" I woke up. 49e/No Leave |
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| I was on the operation table. ... But this blackout wasn't like the previous ones. I still remained conscious. My senses were tremendously alert. I became aware of a loud vibration sound. Everything around me seemed the deepest black that I had ever seen. In the far distance there was a tiny spec of visible light. For some unknown reason I started accelerating toward the spec of light at an incredible rate. It seemed that I was sucked along a tunnel, rushing past stars. | Then I became aware of a being alongside of me. I thought that it must be an angel because of its appearance. The light in the distance grew extremely bright and the tunnel had bright yellowish clouds streaming from the light source. At the end of the tunnel the light grew so bright that I could only see absolute white. Then all of a sudden I was in a place so beautiful that no words can describe it. | I said to myself, so this must be
heaven! I noticed the angel was still along side me. It seems that
he knows exactly why I am here. We communicated telepathically. We
traveled along a small road for a while. Right there in front of
me stood the entrance to heaven.
Before we entered my guardian angel suddenly stopped me and said after my visit here I will have no doubt that heaven exists. |
So we entered thru the gates into a landscape that seemed like a massive garden of some sort. The grass was so bright, glowing with energy. I noticed we were not walking but floating above the ground. Your movement is controlled with your thoughts. I could not think of any bad thoughts as we could on earth. | The peace was absolutely
overwhelming. I felt like I could burst at any
moment because of the intense love that streamed through me. I
witnessed countless trees and plants that seemed in perfect shape.
All of the scenery seemed to go into infinity. My guardian angel was dressed in a pure white robe and seemed kind of transparent. → |
| I noticed my body was very different than on earth. It lacked nothing, no pain or limitations, just perfect. I became particularly interested in the robe I was wearing. I glowed and my whole body seemed to emit light that made me also kind of transparent. There were countless people there, all dressed in white robes; some were walking in the garden. Others were flying through the air at incredible speed. All around was just happiness in its purest form. | Suddenly, I thought of some people back on earth that died during my childhood. They were all in our church. I thought that if what we teach there back on earth is true then they should all be here in heaven. I was thinking of a lady that was incredibly happy on earth, and I was certain that she should be around here. Out of the blue before I could finish my thought there she was walking past me only 10 times happier. | I just thought of the particular
person and right there they appear in front of me. Then I became
so amazingly joyful because they are all here safe and sound and
seemed incredibly happy.
Then I thought of a man who wrote a book in our church that was the leader of the church for a long time. He died a few years ago and was a good example to me how we should live our life on earth. There he was right in front of me. |
I thought that he could certainly give me advice to return here when it was my time. He told telepathically many things which I don't quite remember all. One thing I do remember is that he said I should persevere till the end. He said that was how I can attain paradise again. A little further off from where I stood was a place where some people sat around a being. | I immediately recognized them as the
apostles, Elijah and David of the Old Testament. I was amazed to
see them. It was like you knew everyone for a long time and just
forget who they are. In the middle sat someone that seemed to emit
such great light it was so bright and powerful that you really
couldn't look right at it. I just knew it was Jesus. → |
| My guardian angel asked me if I wanted to explore more of heaven. Instantly I said yes. I looked up and could see no sun only a blue sky with clouds. I traveled unbelievably fast. I saw a sudden drop or a steep slope at one location in the garden. When I arrived there I had a scenic view over the scenery that unfolded in front of me. Down below in the bottom of the hill where I stood I could see all kinds of animals and people in white robes playing. | There was a river and a pure golden bridge that crossed over it. In the distance I saw a city with towers all in gold and white and amazing bright colors. It seemed that the great city was emitting light that shoots out from it with such energy you could feel the power. | I wanted to go there but the only way down was flying and I did not feel comfortable with that. I saw a stream of water that ran along the edge of the garden. When I came close, the water was crystal clear. I have never seen such amazing water before. My guardian angel explained that it was living water. | Shortly after that my
guardian angel said I should return to earth because it was not my
time yet. All of a sudden I traveled back to
earth at such a speed, through the tunnel, and back into my body. 50e/Living Water |
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| I became comatose. When I became self aware (I don't know when exactly) I was suspended by very soft, white, thick, and silky ropes around my ankles and wrists. I had a black and gold velvet death mask on and a black and gold robe but I didn't have a body. I was so surprised thinking, "It's my time!" I didn't wonder what had happened. I was looking at myself and thought (since I didn't have a body), "What about the quality of life?" | I didn't want to be helpless
and not be able to take care of myself. I took the fact that I
didn't have a body meant that my body would never work again. I
decided to go on to die and I wasn't afraid. Then I was in a room and kneeling down. I was young again and perfect. I had no clothes but that was fine. |
It wasn't wrong. Then there was very pure water being poured over me to wash away every care, disappointment, and things I had done or didn't do. I experienced such peace of mind and perfect love, unconditional love. I cannot describe it with mere words. | Suddenly I saw myself again in the death mask and robe, still suspended and without any pain. Then there were my children and grandchildren. | They were so bright and beautiful
and so filled with life that I decided I wanted to live after all,
and it was then that I woke up. 51e/Perfect Love |
| "Stick with me buddy. Stick with me." He [doctor] slowly faded away. As he faded I asked God to allow me to die with a smile and forgive me for all I had done. The room began to fade into the darkness. My life, not like Hollywood makes it look, flashed at the speed of light, yet slow enough to comprehend it all. Fear was intense; I thought I was going to hell. | Suddenly, breathing was easy and the room illuminated in a perfect light. I thought he had fixed my heart until I saw a nurse run into the room from the adjoining room (observation). Then I saw the look on everybody's face, including my wife who had barged her way into the far left side of the next room. | I could not hear anything. I watched the doctor and two nurses working on me while my main focus went to my wife. Then I thought about the kids and my parents. My wife's face was so scared, so lonely, and so frightened. Yet, I did not understand why. I wanted to convey to her that I am great, but I couldn't and it didn't frustrate me. | I loved her and everybody else in
the room equally and it made no difference. God's light
illuminated the whole room and me; He filled me. At some point, I'm not sure if I thought: hey I have two kids left home, parents, grandchildren, and a loving wife so I must go home, or if I was told to go back. |
I remember thinking if I go back
it's going to hurt like hell, and it did. 52e/Nurse |
| I had an out-of-body experience where I was suddenly, in spirit only, floating stationary in a void of darkness. I could sense myself in the outline form of my body but my body wasn't there. I could see like there wasn't darkness just like a person can see when there is light in a room, but everything is black. It was extremely soundless in this space. So soundless that it actually hurt my ears not to hear sounds. | No light was present. Yet, I could see clearly all around the black space just like being in a space that had light. I knew there were invisible boundaries that I could not go through. I just knew they were there. I called out, "Isn't anyone there?" I did this several times and started to get upset. No one answered. | I knew I was the only one there. I thought I was going to be alone like this forever. I was feeling extreme emotional anxiety because no one would answer me and no one was there with me. I was just there floating stationary and calling out. I didn't like it. This bothered me a lot. | Then suddenly ... I woke up and saw
my mother standing at the bottom of the bed. 53e/Floating |
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| I saw myself under the water and I looked at myself being very calm. Eyes closed just wedged between a canal of slippery rocks just barely an inch under the water that was coursing over the length of my body. One of my feet was up on a rock on the outside. I saw my friend standing on the bank looking at me and she seemed quite afraid. I said aloud, why doesn't she help me? I said it again and again, I said it so that she could hear it, "Why don't you help me?" | Water spilled over me and I watched the leaves as they fluttered in the wind, yet I remained very calm and resolute. "Help me." I said. Then nothing. I don't know for how long there was nothing because then the dreaming began. I cannot recall much of it, except that I felt like I was tumbling and being pulled and jerked around. | I saw images of shadowy places and
figures and glints of light and patterns like leaves with the
sunlight pouring through them.
When I awoke I was calm. 54e/Happened |
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| My heart was not transporting blood
anywhere. So, I stopped trying. There I was dead, but my mind was
so very much alive. I faintly remember neighbors coming into our
apartment living room. They were starring at me. I was upset that nobody was trying to help me come back to life. I know I experienced quite some things while dead, but I just can’t retrieve the memory. I don’t think that anything can spark the memory, since nothing can come close to what’s on the “other side/the next dimension.” |
I have told a lady with whom I do Nordic Walking with that when you have leave your body for a while you’re observing happenings/life with an “emotional distance.” Watch an anthill for a while, that comes close to what it’s like when your dead and you are watching “life” from afar. You are not “attached” to this world anymore. I have had almost two years of psychotherapy. | I remember telling my doctor that I did not have emotions anymore. That I didn’t miss having them. It seemed ok. In the meantime “my emotions” have completely returned. I know why we have them; this is one way to “feel” life. We are human; therefore, we have emotions. If we didn’t have emotions, life wouldn’t be lived the “right” way. | I remember seeing people from above at a grave yard somewhere. They were moving toward a grave with the casket. I remember not understanding why these people were “crying.” It didn’t make sense to me. I thought it strange. | What a waste of energy, I thought. No feelings of loss or any regret of not being on earth anymore. |
| I insisted that the doctor sedate
me before trying again. He agreed and the next thing I remember
was Jesus walking me to Heaven. We came out of the darkness into a very bright, white room. I could see the white wall, but I could also see beyond it. There were rolling green fields, trees, blue sky and people. Some people were walking around, some sitting, some conversing, and some reading. |
I "heard" Jesus tell me that I could go on or I could stay. I understood that he was saying I could go to heaven now or I could stay on Earth longer. I gave a big sigh and told him, "Well, Lord, if it was just me, I am so tired of pain that I would go now, but my husband and son still need me, so I guess I better stay." | I knew that he smiled and he said,
"Okay." I woke up and there was the surgeon in my face. He said to
me, "Whew! Welcome back! 56e/Walking |
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| [Car accident.] I began rising above the scene,
still watching, but I was beginning to notice that something
wasn't right.
As I floated above the scene, I floated by a traffic signal that literally wasn't installed until the following week. Shortly after that I began feeling warmth radiating from the left and above me. I looked to see what the heat on my shoulder was and realized that I had no shoulder. My attention was drawn to the left and higher up where I noticed the most beautiful bright white light that I had ever seen. |
I was drawn to it and began heading toward it. Suddenly my attention was directed downward when I realized how effortless it was and that I didn't have real eyes. A past life review followed where I saw and understood everything that had ever happened in my life. I witnessed things that I had done, things others had done to me, and places I've been, but I held no "judgment" about any of it. I just observed. | Then I felt heat on my "no shoulder" and turned my attention back upward and to the left. I continued to rise and the heat became warmer. I felt so much love and electricity all around me. I swam in it, as if in water, twirling and feeling the complete bliss that the heat and love offered me. Then five shadows began to form in the distance and come toward me, but they stopped. | They were familiar to me, but I did not recognize them. When they stopped, I began receiving "thought talk". They were discussing whether I could go with them or not. Eventually I "heard" that it "wasn't my time". I begged and pleaded in my own thought talk for them to take me with them, but they wouldn't. | One
shadow lingered behind and sent me a message that there was more
for me to do.
I woke up after two weeks in a coma. 57e/Warmth |
| I remember saying that we were having an earthquake. ... I remember that I lost my vision and at some point was in my own bed and they were with me. In the beginning, it was just black. Soon, shapes of all colors and sizes were flying past me and I was just looking at them. Then, I began to see a very, very bright light ahead of me. I must have been talking out loud because I heard my mother say go toward the light. | I continued on the way that I was going and at some point I could see clouds or a thick mist above. The light was everywhere. The closer I came to where I was going I saw a ladder, which went up into the mist/clouds. I began to climb the ladder and saw a hand reaching down to me. I could not see a face. I heard my mother say, "Grab the hand." | I don’t know if I said it out loud
or not but I knew it was the hand of Jesus. This is the first and
the last memory of earth. I returned and have never been the same. It is as if I changed places with someone?? 58e/Hand |
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| I was out cold for a while. It was so strange, I saw myself floating away...down a tunnel with a bright light at the end. Once I hit the bright light, I looked around and I was in a large beautiful field. I saw my childhood dog running in the grass beside me, and I tried to stop, but I was floating too fast. | Then parts of my life started
flashing by me it was like a huge movie screen of my life
surrounding this field. That lasted quite a while, and then all of
a sudden I flew back into my body. 59e/Field |
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| I awoke from a profound sleep and
was aware that something strange was happening. I knew where I
was, the date, the time despite not having a clock, and completely
remembered what had happened to me. I was totally aware of the
room number, etc. Yet, I was also somewhere else completely
different. I was, you could say, in two places at the same time.
Part of me was in the hospital bed and part of me was walking down a long dark corridor. Actually, I had been walking down a corridor and reached a y-shaped junction at the end. I didn't know which way to turn. My confusion jolted me out of my sleep. |
So, here I am physically lying in a hospital bed in room x (I forget now, but I was very clear about it at that moment) and a different part of me, which didn't really feel like a physical, touchable, corporeal body. But, the body looked and felt just like mine as far as I could tell, and more importantly, the body could walk and wonder which way to turn. I looked around. The corridor was shades of gray on gray. In the dim light I could make out walls about seven maybe seven and a half feet high and a floor with much of the same gray tone as the walls. | I couldn't tell what they were made out of, but they were substantial-like plaster or stonewall and floor. It was pretty bleak, like a cold winter's day with a gray that just permeated everything. There was no color. Like dusk right after things lose their color when the sun sets. It wasn't cold or uncomfortable, and there was a strong sense of impermanence, as if this was a temporary place, not a permanent abode or somewhere I would be staying for any length of time. It was just a zone to take me from one place to another. | There was no ceiling, just a
lighter gray "sky." No clouds, no textures, just gray on gray. It
was almost like a gray charcoal drawing.
I remember how happy I was that I could walk with my leg working again. I also remember feeling that something important was happening and I needed to make some sort of a choice. As I looked at the two corridors splitting diagonally off the one I was standing in, I was at the joint of the y. |
I understood that I had to choose between the left corridor and the right one. The left meant I would choose to die and the right to live. I recall thinking to myself, "I didn't realize I was this badly injured." (Later, several medics confirmed that I could have died if I hadn't been in good shape and taking care of myself.) I somehow understood that turning left meant choosing to die and leaving my current situation to move onto something else. → |
| Conversely, turning right meant remaining alive. I peered down the left corridor. I couldn't see anything, nothing at all; it was too dark and the walls seemed to just stretch on and at the same time just fade into nothingness. But, I remember feeling this incredible sense of peace and comfort, warmth and security. It was as if all my cares and responsibilities just melted away. Prior to then and since then, I have not experienced anything so incredibly peaceful and seductive. It was extraordinarily beautiful to me, though I could not see anything. | I also remember thinking this must
be what it's like to be in the womb before birth. I was sorely tempted to turn down
this hallway, but I stopped and thought "No. I'm not ready yet.
There's still too much I want to do." So I turned to my right and
peered around the corner at the other corridor.
Again, I couldn't "see" anything. However, waves of sensation rushed over me - frantic, frenetic, loud, confusing, frightening, flashing, bright, and overwhelming. |
The only way to describe the feeling is as if I were standing in the middle of Times Square just before theater time wearing a blindfold. It was really unpleasant. Cacophony is a good word for it. I thought to myself, "This is life." It was really not attractive, but I also knew that it was what I wanted at that moment. So I summoned myself together against the noise and light and stimulation that were assaulting me and I took a "step" in that direction. | Suddenly the corridor, this dim,
gray place that I was in, melted away and there I was lying in a
hospital bed. I was sort of sad, too, because I realized that I
had made my bed, so to speak, and now I would have to lay in it. I
had chosen to return and deal with all the stuff that we all are
confronted with day after day after day. 60e/Corridor |
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| [Anesthesia.] Some time during all of this, I found myself standing among beautiful, gently rolling green hills, a pasture of sorts. The grass was natural yet perfect. Across the pasture were large oak trees, the most perfect and inviting shade trees found in a storybook. The sky was a lovely, absolutely clear shade of blue--somewhere between Robin's egg blue and Crayola blue. | The air was perfectly crisp with no hint of humidity or dust; a gentle breeze touched my skin. I could hear an extremely pleasant and soothing natural chorus of insects and birds. I thought, "This is perfect. I want to stay here forever. I have never felt this wonderful!" I felt absolute clarity, peace, and love. | Thank God because that scene and
feeling are imprinted so strongly in me that I can recall the
experience at will. I heard someone say "Take a few deep breaths for us." 61e/Go Back |
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In 1984, rescuers had to use the Jaws of Life to cut me out of my car. I remember the light up ahead. I had never known such peace and then I heard voices that sounded like three or more people speaking to me. They said we’re not ready for you yet. I said, “Who are you talking to?” Then I awoke taking a deep gulp of air. 62e/You Were Dead |
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| That night in bed I kept ruminating
about dying. I was upset and rubbed my eyes, pressing hard on my
eyelids. All of a sudden I felt myself shoot out of the top of my
head. I found myself floating in inky blackness. My body, if you
can call it that, lacked definition. It felt like I was made of
clouds. Even though I was in pitch-blackness, I was not afraid.
After a while I became aware of something below me to the left. I looked down and saw a large blue ball slowly turning. I saw shafts of sunlight shining on blue water and brown soil. Large white clouds floated over the whole scene. |
I knew that I was looking at the earth. It was quite beautiful and peaceful, but I felt no urge to go back there. In fact, I felt rather dispassionate about the whole image. It was nice to look at the earth but I had no emotional ties to it. Time seemed to stand still. But after a while I became aware of something above me to the right. I turned my attention upward and saw a beautiful golden staircase backlit with the most spectacular warm, golden white light imaginable. | Mere words can't explain how breathtakingly fantastic it was. Even though I wasn't close to the stairs, I could see intricate carvings in the gold. I wanted to get closer to the staircase and as soon as I formed the thought in my mind, I started to float over to it. had the definite feeling of movement when I looked at the stairs yet they weren't moving. The closer I got to the staircase, the faster I went. | I reached out
with my arms to touch the stairs and my fingers started to tingle
with anticipation. Just as I approached the bottom
stair, I heard a booming male voice loudly yell, "You are not
supposed to remember this!" The next instant I found myself back in my bedroom. Even though I love life and am so thankful for each and every day, part of me wants to be "back home." |
I often wonder what would have happened if I could have retrieved more of that memory. It was so frustrating to be so close to going up the stairs then be yelled at and sent back to my body. I have tried numerous times to go back to that memory but I just can't get past that booming voice. Oh well, some day I will. 63e/Back Home |
| I passed out. I woke up inside of another room where I was alone and covered under a sheet. I felt okay. I sat up in what looked like a dark room then went straight into a lighted room and didn't pay any attention to the lump on the bed underneath me. I turned crossways to sit up on the bed. That's when I thought about getting dressed, but realized I was fully dressed. I saw the lump at both ends of the bed. I started to wonder about the lump when all of a sudden the corner of the roof starting spinning over my left shoulder in the upper corner of the room. | The spinning got faster and faster and then the roof opened. I tried to hold onto the edge of the bed but couldn't. As my fingers slid right through the bed, I went feet first into the tunnel. I was being pulled down toward this fiery looking area and that's when I begged God, "Oh no God, please don't let me die here today." Then I started going into another direction, a more pleasant tunnel of subdued light. | Every so often I could see
what looked like clouds floating along through the floor of the
tunnel. This went on quite a ways and I ended up in a tunnel where
it had elbows that made me sickish like when I had dropped into
the blackish area. On the other side I saw my great grandfathers, one from peacetime born in 1865, and the other from the civil war in a tattered gray uniform. I saw one who was a state senator. |
Then I saw a man riding a
horse toward Mohawk Indians and toward British troops. He
disappeared when I looked to my left to see where I was going. In
front of me was a king's silhouette, but I didn't recognize this
big man. He disappeared. I entered into a blackened area after this crown's light almost blinded me. Suddenly, I ended up with a burning chest pain that went away. |
I knew that the doctor was trying
to pull me back into my body. And all of a sudden I could feel
this sudden cleansing come over me. Then out in front of me were
all of these people. There was a doorway open in front of us and
we flowed through it. It was as big as a garage door. When the
door opened, there was a tremendous snow-white flood over us. → |
| The sudden white light was blinding; I had to turn away from it. The next time I looked up, I was flat on my back and floating. On my left, I could see over the top of a brick fence that went on for miles. It was so tall that no one could get over it. I looked forward to see where I was going and this cloudy area cleared away. I saw a blackened area over one side of this large fence. No one was allowed to look over into that area for it meant instant death to do so. | The sun was high in the sky to my
left over the fence. In the corner there were two tall and round
(barrel-like) cedar trees. There was a green pasture over the
fence with another row of high trees to one side of it on a
sloping hill. I was back on my feet and free to walk around in what I call the waiting area. It was pretty to me. There wasn't a gate in the fence. |
I turned around to my right to see if anyone was there, but I found no one. Then I saw a man dressed in an unusual robe looking garment with sandals. I had asked him if someone would be with me shortly. He said, yes, someone would be with me shortly. He also told me, no one was allowed to look over into the blackened area or they would die instantly. One part of the fence looked like green vines were growing on it. | Just as I had started walking around this waiting area, something lifted me off the ground. I stumbled over something down under the smoky area. I was inside of it, up to my knees, then I was lifted up onto my back again. I had heard this wonderful, familiar voice, "It is not yet your time to be here. You must go back." I begged it to please not send me back. | And that is when it told me I had a
mission to do. I begged it to please tell me the mission so I
could do it and come back. Then it told me I had to go back and
perform my mission when the time came. I would not know what it
was until that time. Then it would be my time to be there. I awoke
in the hospital. 64e/Mission |
| I had to emotionally accept that I might very soon be dead. When I accepted the unacceptable, my body shook violently as an intensity of energy moved through me. I opened more and more to it, and after one or two very long minutes it was complete. I felt a calm inside that I had not known before. All my senses were sharper. My vision was clearer. Colors were brighter. Hearing was clearer. Sensations were more alive. | I realized that I had released a
perceptual filter that had been standing between the experience of
life and me, and ironically, it had been the fear of death. Now
that I had released that fear, I was experiencing more of life,
more of being alive, even if just for a short while longer. I thought of the life I had lived, and the things I could have done but didn't, and I found myself saying to myself, "I wish I had." There were a lot of "I wish I hads." |
I thought to myself that it was, in
fact, a sad way to end a life, and that if I had to do it again,
there would be a lot of "I'm glad I dids." I had to decide what I wanted to do with the short time I had left. If I spent my remaining time worrying or feeling bad about what was, in fact, inevitable, I would have just wasted the rest of my life, thrown it away, and it was too valuable for that. |
I decided to spend my remaining time feeling good, and just thinking of things that helped me to feel good -- the color of the paint on the walls, the smell of flowers in the room, anything positive. I knew I could always find something. Finally, the time came. | I was taken to the operating room,
and as I was being given the anesthetic, I thought that this might
be the last experience I would ever have. I had no idea what might
come afterwards. I had been agnostic, with no beliefs, believing
in nothing that I had not experienced. Perhaps the next step after
death was just oblivion. I let go. → |
| I began to experience vertigo, a sense of spinning, and it didn't feel good, so I stabilized myself in the center of it until I was still, and everything else was spinning around me. I was moving through the spinning scenes, which were memories from the life I had lived, memories that were calling for my attention. If I put my attention on them, though, I felt myself "pulled," because I was moving through these spinning memories, like being pulled through a tunnel, or falling down a well, but discovering that half-way down the well reaching for the walls would not work. | My only hope would be to aim for
the water at the bottom. I had to withdraw my attention from these scenes, then, these memories, and put my attention on the place to which I was being drawn, aiming for it. I was headed there anyway, but aiming for it gave me more of a sense of being in the driver's seat, and that was a lot more comfortable for me. |
It was a bit like riding a roller
coaster in the front car, and pretending that you're driving the
thing along the tracks. It gives a totally different ride, I can
assure you, than being swept out of control. The ride was long, but I had nothing else to do but go for it. Finally, the end of the tunnel was in sight. I came out into a kind of space, stillness, where there was a glow of energy addressing me. |
It was like a spark of life,
energy glowing with intelligence, not in a human form, just pure
consciousness. It seemed that some distance away, there was
another spark just observing the scene. I felt as though I were having an exit interview, something like, "Well, your trip is over now, so complete things in your consciousness about that, and we'll move on." |
I looked back and saw my life as I
had lived it, completed my thoughts about things that had
happened, understood a lot of things differently, and then
expressed that I was ready. The Being began to move away. I began to follow, and then I paused. The Being quickly asked me what the thought was that had just entered my consciousness. → |
| I had thought that it would be a shame for my daughters to have grown up without their father in their life. I had spent a large part of my life without my father in it, and I would have liked my daughters not to experience that. Anyway, I was ready to go. The Being said that because my reason for wanting to return was somebody outside myself, I would be allowed to return. | Before I had the chance to express
that I didn't really want to return, there was a rapid, confused
movement, something happened, the other spark which had been
"observing" was somehow a part of it, and then I was waking up in
this body. 65e/Energy Glow |
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| I had overdosed. It wasn’t planned. I felt myself starting to tremble, and the next thing I knew I was looking down at my body. I felt no fear looking at myself lying there. I remember clearly saying if this is death, it’s wonderful. I recall some kind of people surrounding me in a circle like form, but I couldn’t make them out. I felt comfortable with them. | There was a light behind them in
the distance. I remember saying this is wonderful and then being
told that I couldn’t stay. I don’t recall any anger at the news.
Everything seemed just matter of fact. 66e/Death Wonderful |
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| My family was first told that I had a 20% chance to survive, but I pulled through to 50%. I remember a large silver and black grate coming toward me. It was a large, perfect cube being built with each piece connecting and the loudest sound of metal clanging. I figured it was to cube me or I was going into it and not coming out. I was scared. I could feel my physical body fight. I was tied down to the bed. I screamed to God I don't want to die, I want to live. I saw my arms in front of me punching and thrashing. It was louder and closer. | I knew I was gone. I cried and
screamed and fought hard. Then, all of a sudden, rainbow prisms
flooded through every cube and I knew in my heart of hearts God
had heard my cries. I was lifted up and into Jesus’ arms I went.
He held me and told me he loved me and I was his. That is what I
remember of the experience. It was an orange hue when I was with
Christ. 67e/Cube |
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| I arrived home and went to bed. My
world ceased to exist, except for my mind, and an incredible
feeling of wrong and unease beyond words. I remained trapped in
this condition for an eternity, which seemed like hell for there
was no possibility of hope or change, just a timeless eternal
agony. Eventually I floated above my body and saw myself
convulsing on the bed. At some point, I re-entered my body and
came back to life.
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| [Drowning.] At that time, my spirit was out of my body and I was watching myself struggle under the water. At first I was afraid, but almost at the same time I felt a calm all over me. I was at the same level in the water, about six feet from my body, watching myself and two of the other people who were struggling under the water. I believe this continued for about 30 seconds until I was once again thrown against a rock. | When I hit the rock for the final
time, my spirit popped back into my body. Since this experience I
have a better understanding of life and my personal purpose. 69e/Watching Myself |
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| I have never felt such intense fear in my life. I have no visual memory as this is happening. It's as if I was in a dark void. I have no recollection of having any type of form, just thought. Then a calming voice communicated into my mind the thought, "Yes, but its okay." Then I am immersed, engulfed by total love. I was totally enveloped by this divine presence in a way that I simply can't put into words in a way that anyone would understand unless they had the same experience. | All my cares and worries simply fell away. I was given knowledge of various things. It isn't spoken and I wouldn't call it exactly telepathic. Knowledge of many things on different levels simply appeared in my mind instantaneously. It's as if the knowledge of the ages all appeared in my mind at once. I was shown that our arguing and fighting are not what God intends for us. | And, that we are meant to love and help one another. I felt deep shame at this. I've often wondered about the meaning of many things. I was allowed the answers although I wasn't allowed to bring this knowledge back with me. I retain the knowledge that it was shown to me. There is a reason for everything from the smallest drop of rain to every last grain of sand in the deserts. | I was shown the reason for everything in the matter of a couple of seconds. I'm not surprised that I didn't retain the knowledge. To say that man simply cannot comprehend the greatest of God is more than an understatement. I feel privileged that he allowed me a glimpse into his greatness. | I don't remember having a life review as in other accounts, but I was given the realization that God knew everything about me, every atom in my body and every thought that had ever crossed my mind. He sees through to my pure essence and knows me better than I know myself. → |
| My reaction, after all of this had
been shown to me, is that I am filled with deep sorrow and
sadness. I thought, "I wish I had done more with my life."
Immediately after that thought the experience ended. I remember
nothing further until the hospital. I believe that it was indeed
my time to die then, but that God gave me another chance. 70e/Another Chance |
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| [Car Crash.] At that moment my spirit flung out of my body, landing like a child at the chest of a much larger being. Without any hesitation I said, with a loud, deep voice and mixed tone of commitment/ reason/plea, "I'm not xxx done yet." A second conscious/third being looked on in utter disbelief as if I said to myself, "Who do you think you are staying with this being and not returning to your mangled body?" There was no light, just a dark setting and no pain. | A physical spirit--as if in my own
body--renewed and I felt the landing against this other spirit
physically. I pushed away from the larger-than-life spirit and by
doing so must have moved my actual arms outward simultaneously.
Once back in my body ... 71e/Flung |
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| I thought, if I kept going further,
I was going to die. At the time the feeling of euphoria was so
intense that I was happy to go. I had absolutely no fear. I cannot
describe the intensity of the calm, the peace and all the while
being aware. What jolted me was the thought, "What about my family?" How would my "going" impact them. I did not want to leave this "place" I was in, but from somewhere else, I could feel a struggle starting to emerge within me. |
From here the situation gets a bit confusing. I remember arguing to go back (that is to live). I was being told it was impossible or it couldn't happen; somehow I was too injured or it just couldn't happen. My overwhelming anxiety for my family was making me fight and struggle against the "sucking in feeling" of the darkness. | These were not verbal conversations going on but rather a dialogue I sensed in my mind. The will to fight became more overpowering. I had made the decision to go back, away from the black. The sensation is difficult to describe. I had to make a choice, live or die. | I remember a sensation of the
darkness rushing away from me and all of a sudden taking in a deep
breath. ... That's when I regained consciousness.
72e/Peace |
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| During the wait in the ER at some point I slipped away. It started with a darkened area (which was not a void) that was kind of a roadway with different colored streaks and sparks. I had the sensation like I was riding one of those airport level moving things. Then the next thing I knew I was in a kind of desert-like place and I could see a stream of people going toward a building. At that point I knew what had happened and went to the building. It kind of looked like a cross between an old 19th-century church and a barn. | There were people there (none of whom I knew) and some small animals. No one would talk to me because they were occupied with whatever they were doing. I finally found a badger who would talk to me. I was there for a very long time but he told me that I would eventually go to where I needed to go. I went outside and it was real bright but I needed no adjustment for discomfort. | There were large animals and several roadways. I went back inside and was met by an unfamiliar man who told me, "You don't belong here." I was sent away. I went to another place which was kind of a neutral place similar to this plane. I knew I was supposed to take a "class" or learn something. My experiential time was approximately a week although only a few hours had passed here. At this point I woke up from surgery. | I had the mental state as though I knew I was going to die and was okay with it. At some point I slipped back into the experience and found myself in a "class" with several other beings. We were all given a "tool" each of which had different functions. Also, they were in groups of three except for mine which was one being and me. The class took experientially about four months. | Half of it was actually at a place for learning how to use this tool and other related matters. The last half was going with my "lab partner out in the field" using our tool. I then went to his home and we built some sort of healing construct. His tool built the construct and mine did the healing aspect to it. Experiential time passage was approximately six months, equal to two or three days here. → |
| I woke up to find at least two people (I think there was a third person out of my immediate vision) beside my bed. The nurse had a big needle and was flicking the air out of it. I felt very disoriented. The doctor leaped back when I said, "What are you doing?" He said something kind of lame like, "It took us a lot of time and effort to wake you up...." He asked me to move this, that and the other thing then asked me questions and pushed me to answer. He checked me over for the next several minutes. | At some point, I don't know exactly when this happened in the hospital, but I met "the lady of the veil" who put her left hand beneath my neck and her right hand on my belly and I passed out. I then went to a place that was kind of like rolling hills of memory foam grass with little flowers all over the place. Some entity like none I've ever encountered was embracing me. | Complete unconditional love and
acceptance. I interacted with this entity for the
next experiential two months. This area was clearly a place where
the truly dead can only go and I thought that I was not coming
back. I knew that the last place I went to was beyond any
"barrier" to come back but something or someone made an exception.
Obviously at some point I did come back. 73e/Learning |
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| I left my body, but the exact location was not evident. I found myself in a tunnel of light with a diameter of roughly twenty feet. It was warm, comforting and created total calmness. I was content and without apprehension. Having read of this phenomenon during my medical training, I was quite aware of the circumstances. | I could feel the presence of a divine source, and indicated my willingness to pass from this world. I realized that this was not the end but rather a transition and I was motivated to explore the future. | However, I indicated that if my work on earth was not complete as per my Creator, I was ready to return; but I remember thinking, "We better put the plumbing back together again because things don't look very good." | It was at that very moment that I found myself again in the hospital bed. | |
| I knew I was dying. Everything was so peaceful with faint music. I saw and felt my spirit rise above my body. I kind of just observed my body for a while. When it happened I didn't realize I had died. I remember trying to talk to people and they were not responding to me. At the time I thought, why aren't they listening to me? I was kind of looking at people from above (but not too far above) as if floating. Time seemed to slow down. It was a very strange feeling as if I was caught in between worlds or realities, one that I will never ever forget. | Honestly, it is really hard
for me to express completely what I experienced during my NDE. I
can't seem to put it into words. I also remember begging to stay alive for my son and the look on my father's face once he arrived at the hospital. He tries not to show too much emotion. He couldn't hold back fear. I remember saying to our great creator, I have more work to do so please let me stay. |
There seemed to be an agreement
with my statement. Our communication was different. It is not the
same type of communication we have here. I was not talking. We
could just send messages and understand each other (more
telepathic in nature). One thing I do know, there is such great,
immense love for all of us there. 75e/Between Worlds |
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| I awoke in a dream and decided to go look for God. I flew up through the clouds and into outer space. I flew for a long time and entered more clouds where I was drawn to a bright light. As I approached the light it spoke to me telepathically. With each word the the light brightened and dimmed rhythmically. At first he kind of scolded me and asked what I was doing there as it wasn't my time yet. I had to go back. I was apologetic and very disappointed. | I lingered and stalled as I bathed in the warmth and light of his unconditional love. As I absorbed the light of his love I felt the depth and breath of eternal knowledge and the wisdom of the ages within me. Reluctantly I returned home, but life was never the same. No religious brainwashing could ever convince me of their version of God. | I already knew about God and never
believed in hell. I always remembered this as a dream from around
seven years old. ... I continue to love unconditionally, fly in my
dreams and commune with ethereal entities on the other side. I'm
convinced that our dreams are the gateway to our eternal
personality. 76e/Telepathic |
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| Car accident. I remember leaving the scene - moving up a dark tunnel - being pulled slowly by my shoulders. After what seemed like only a few minutes, I stood suspended in front of two forms of light. The main brightest light form addressed me mentally, saying, "It's not your time yet. You have to go back." Before I heard this, I had been examining my hands and arms, which were a translucent light blue. I still looked normal, but without actual body mass. I had some sense that I was not alive, but it wasn't entirely clear. | As soon as I acknowledged what the
light form was saying, I was pulled backward down the black tunnel
with great speed and noise. It was extremely unpleasant. My arms
and legs pointed straight in front of me as I was "sucked" back in
the direction I came. I never saw anything else except the beings,
the tunnel, and my see-through arms and hands. 77e/Quiet Clarity |
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| The only thing that I remember is
that I felt like I was coming out of my body. I was trying to sit
up because I could see my body in the bed and all I felt was fear.
I looked toward the foot of the bed and saw this evil looking
image that was trying to pull me out of my body. I didn't want to
go with him. I woke up gasping for air. 78e/Could See |
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| Hospital. I remember being above
and slightly to the side of myself, watching the “crew” tapping my
spinal column for spinal fluid. I went through a long dark tunnel toward a bright light. My impression was that Mary and Jesus were there in the light to meet me. I remember a life review. I felt guilty about things. I was assured that the guilt was not mine to take or keep. My relationship with my parents had caused some of the guilt. I was loved. I wanted to return in order to take care of my spouse. |
I was told ok, but you must
continue to love her, even if there is a divorce. My second spouse
would have a dog that nearly dies. I did not remember the part about my second spouse until I had remarried. The woman had a Sheltie that had come very close to dying a month and one half before we had our first date. As a last measure, the veterinarian had prescribed a human medication for the dog's liver. The dog had to be hand fed for a time, but was nursed back to health. |
I remember learning that all
spirituality is good. No one belief system was better than an other. I remember, people who have suffered injustice by others
were generally more spiritual. I remember meeting but not “seeing” someone's brother. I was to tell his sister that he was ok. “Well, how was I to know who to tell.” His name will not be on the Vietnam Memorial, but his name will be on the Vietnam Memorial. His sister is a twin, but not a twin. |
In the mid eighties, I learned that one of the finance personnel working at the data processing center had a brother who was killed in Laos. His name was not on the actual Vietnam Memorial. However, an Illinois veteran’s organization had a scale model of the memorial. His name was included on the scale model. While traveling on business, I told her that her brother was ok. She was very relieved and said that she had always wondered. | He had not been very religious, but
had been spiritual. I told her that I was puzzled about her being
a twin, but not being a twin. She replied with a smile that, “Oh
of course, that’s true. As kid’s, the neighbors always commented
about us as twins because of our looks. However, of course, we
were not actually twins.” It was time to return. |
| [Injury.] The next thing I knew I was following an intense bright light. There was darkness all around me. The light didn't hurt my eyes; it was warm and loving. I wanted to be where it was. I wanted to go, even though I didn't understand what was happening. I was leaving my family and dog who I loved so much. My memory is fuzzy about it, but when I "arrived" I remember people around me although no one I knew had died yet. These people were in white robes. | They were so alive, more alive than
anyone I had ever known before. They had intense light, but my
eyes were not like earth eyes and I could see different there. My
eyes adjusted for the light--like when you go out from a dark
house to a bright day and your eyes adjust to the brightness. These people were complete love. They told me things. |
Some I didn't remember until later in my life (I forgot a lot due to the molestation I experienced from the man's son and the brain injury). I remember the day I buried the memory of the molestation. I was ten because I could not handle it at that time. They told me I would not have children, but I would come to be at peace with it. I always knew I could not have children. I had a hysterectomy without ever having children. Our dogs and cats are like our children. | I realized during my late 30's,
since remembering the brain injury and the residuals, that I would
never be able to care for children. I saw myself starting to become successful and I had glasses. I would get glasses, which I got at the age of 25. They told me that I would have someone very special, a true love to love me the rest of my life. I always knew that I would find that some one. |
I married my husband at age 22. Because of the molestation and the problems I had emotionally, we separated, but talked every day and spent every Saturday together. We got re-married last year after working everything out and my having forgiven that man. We still have that special love, more than ever. → |
| I don't remember them telling me this, but I have seen the future and events as they happen. We used to live about a mile from Highway 97. There were accidents on it quite frequently. I would know when they happened at times. Once we were driving the long way home. I told my husband to slow down. I had a feeling of panic in this one spot. The next day I found out that a man died at that spot. Another time I woke up feeling crushed. The next day I found out that a couple was crushed but not killed by rocks coming off the hill five miles away. | There are too many to list. I
always knew that if I used this ability for my own gain I would
lose it, not that I ever would. My frustration is that it's never
clear enough to warn anyone. They also told me I would be very successful in life professionally and do great things for others. I am now starting to do many things in my profession. |
This past year and I am on the Colorado Traumatic Brain Injury Advisory Board. I know I will do more for others. I plan to volunteer for Mother Teresa's hospice in town once my job situation works out. I think they told me more but I don't remember. They told me I had to go back, although I didn't want to. | I wanted to stay in that wonderful place where I would be like them and would get such wisdom. I knew it would hurt so much to go back to my body, but I had to go back. I felt a pull on my whole self and like a zip I was back in my body. (There was blackness all around going back in. There is no difference between here and there. They are here but we don't see them because we are too caught up in the physical world). |
Dieing is wonderful. No matter how, it doesn't hurt to die. What
hurts is coming back into your body. There is no fear in dieing.
Dieing is being born into the real life. We are here to love
each other and learn. That's the message. I want everyone to
know that it is real there, more real than here, and what I said
about dieing and their message.
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| While beneath the water for the third time, I began to relax. I recall a feeling of peace coming over me. Toward the end of my decline in the water I saw a lighted tunnel. Many times I have tried to recall who I saw in this tunnel but I could not remember a soul. It was unlikely I knew them at all, given my age at the time. These individuals were welcoming me into the tunnel. They were quite pleasant male and female adults. | I specifically remember making a
decision that it was not my time to pass. I recall pushing off
from the river bottom and reaching the water surface with my
sister's boyfriend there to catch me.
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| [Injury.] Although now it seems like a vague memory, yet still very much a reality, I saw/felt a place. It was a light very similar to many of the drawings I have seen before. There were people emanating love to me. I wanted to go where they were, but I was viewing the place from a distance. I realize now that I was physically fine and that I could not go there at that time because my body was still in good shape and I was okay with that. | I began to become conscious and I
did not know where I was. For a split second I felt like I did not
even know who I was. I did not know what had happened. The
incredible peace I had been feeling began to turn and I became
upset. 82e/Emanating |
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| [Drowning.] Suddenly I was aware that there was no sound, like when your ears pop but magnified. There was light, but I believe it was the sunlight hitting the water above me. I began to get very warm and sleepy. I stopped struggling and thought about my brother and that he wouldn't be able to find me. Then I decided that I would take a nap and figure out how to get out of this predicament when I woke up. | I closed my eyes and felt warm and
sleepy then dozed off for the shortest possible second. Suddenly I
was thrust up and out of the water. 83e/Not Frightening |
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| [Hospital.] I felt myself leaving my
body; it was a very physical experience. The first feeling I had was "no pain." Then I found my self surrounded by PURE LOVE and I felt as if I was being embraced by Jesus. I cannot tell you what he looked like but I knew who I was with. He told me it was not my time to be there and I should go back. I did not want to do that. I remember seeing my life review and I was ashamed but when I turned to Christ I was greeted with pure love and I was guiltless. |
I asked him how that could be and he told me that as a mortal I'd behaved as a mortal and there was no judgment from him. I then asked him why we were not speaking the way we speak on earth and he told me that in the spirit world we communicated through our hearts and feelings so that there could never be any misunderstanding. | Again he encouraged me to return because he said that, "I needed to raise my sons." I told him that they had a great father and they would be fine, after all wasn't free-agency a part of his plan. A response of great humor and joy surrounded me and he said, "I'd expect you to argue for your own case!" I was overwhelmed by how intimately he knew me. | Then he told me that he needed to show me something else. What he showed me was my husband's death! My husband died four years later in an accident. Upon seeing this I agreed to return and raise my sons but not before asking for a promise that I could return. I received that promise. | Then the savior said to me remember
that all you can bring back with you when you return is the love
you give and life on earth is about loving relationships. I then found myself entering back
into my body opening my eyes and laughing out loud with JOY! 84e/Surrounded |
| One moment the hateful pain was there and then it was no more. I was somewhere really dark. I'm me the way I was a moment before, no change. I'm whole and I can move in any direction I want without any effort whatsoever, but at the same time it's as if I'm all eyes. I can see even behind me and darkness is all there is to see. There is nothing to be afraid of though. I feel comfortable in that nothingness and a little as if I'm waiting for something to happen. As I'm floating in slow circles I notice a white dot and I decide to go toward it. | I start moving the moment I thought it but in a very lazy manner. As I was floating I found myself thinking of my life and it wasn't the people I knew I was thinking about or the things I had done or had done to me. It was like I was carrying with me the essence of everything I had lived through during my life. But most important I had TWO kinds of experiences with me. Those that made me feel happy and satisfied and those that made me feel sad and disappointed. | As I was getting closer the dot was growing in size. A little before I reached the white opening I heard someone call someone else (I supposed later that it was my sister calling my name, but I didn't recognise at the time either the voice or the name). I thought to myself that it had nothing to do with me and just went on. I found myself between the darkness and the most luxuriant white light you can imagine. It was made of all the colours of the rainbow and more but it was not hard on the eye. | It was warm and welcoming and more important, it was me. As I was thinking, I reached out with my hand to touch it (I cannot remember seeing my hand though) and at that very moment I felt the presence of someone beside me, on my left. I knew he was there and without having to look I knew exactly what he looked like. He was dressed in a colourful something or other but what stayed with me was his face. | He had long shoulders, brownish-fair slightly curly hair, a longish face darkened by a short beard and the most amazing eyes. They had a colour between pale blue and light grey. Although I knew he was there I never turned toward him. I was intent on going into the light but as I was moving toward it I heard him. "What are you doing here?" he asked. "I belong here", I replied. → |
| "That I know, but what are you doing here now?" he asked again. A thousand answers were ready to come out of my mouth but before I had time to voice them I knew he was right so I kept my silence and waited. "It is not your time yet", he said in a kind but also firm way. "You still have a lot of work to do". I wasn't ready to give up yet. I was readying myself to refuse, but then something inside me realised the truth of what he had said. | And that was the moment I opened my
eyes and saw my sister standing above me almost pulling her hair
out and the chip was just nearing my stomach still cutting away
but the pain was not important to me anymore. 85e/I'm Home |
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| The next thing I remember is a very
bright light and being free from my body. It was the most
wonderful feeling I've ever felt; there was total peace. I was
outside a gate with other beings all around me waiting for
something to happen. There was a very bright mist. I knew if I
crossed over the gate it would be final. I was told by a higher
power (a female) that I had to go back. It was not my time. The
next thing I knew I was back in my body. 86e/Other Beings |
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| I am a psychiatrist by profession. My experience was I suddenly found myself in a black void. I felt very comfortable but very surprised. There was no sense of vision, including no colour or light (not even a hint of visual stimuli as one may see even when eyelids shut in a dark room), complete silence - except for the hint of a memory of a "click" having come from the left side just some moments previously, no sense of temperature or pain or touch or smell/taste whatsoever. | There was a sense of enclosed space, like this black void was within a container that was not very large. There may have been a sense of being suspended - of floating but not moving - or there may have been complete stillness - at this stage of writing I cannot be sure which. There was full powers of logical reasoning and language. I found myself thinking, "Where am I? What's happened? What was I doing?... | I think I was playing
football...hmmm...that's it, I was playing football...so now.. I
must be knocked out...(a feeling of relief - but only slight
because I was not really feeling any worry, the experience was
quite pleasant and interesting up till then)...it's going on a bit
long.. (slight anxiety).. I should 'come to' soon...it's still
going on a bit long.." Then something started to happen. |
I felt myself moving and then a sense of rapid acceleration backward and upward as though I was travelling a huge distance and all around me a sense of small spots of light that could be stars blurred by the speed with which I was flying past them. I had a feeling of excitement and a sense of going somewhere wonderful. | I then thought, "But no! This is leaving my life like in those near-death experiences. I can't, I'm not ready, I've got to go back." Those thoughts were compressed into a moment. But they seemed to do something. I had a sense of sudden change of direction and rapid movement in the direction I'd came from for a brief moment. → |
| But as my experience showed me, I
was not "fully" unconscious. I was thinking quite lucidly, even
though I was unclear who or where I was - although may have soon
worked that out, being disorientated initially by the sudden shock
of being suspended in blackness, as my reasoning seemed very clear
and sound at the time. 87e/Lucid Thought |
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| I was talking on the phone and a
lightning strike hit me in the face throwing me backward. I
separated from my body and observed the people around me. A nurse
was waiting to use the phone. She started CPR. I floated away from
the scene, saw my children playing and floated out of the
building. I was bathed in a bluish, white light that had the
sensation of acceleration and direction. I was pure thought
flowing in a wondrous river of peace and loving feeling. Then
instantly I was back and in pain. 88e/Wondrous River |
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| I was asleep in the early hours of the morning, and suddenly found myself in a different level of existence. There was no tunnel or transition; I was just there. It was a realm consisting entirely of light, sound, joy and bliss. All around me were beings of pulsing, colored light, and indescribable music/singing full of joy and praise. The beings did not have human shape; they were more like oval or round pulsing loci of light. There were no sharp outlines in this realm; everything seemed to gently blend into everything else a little. | There was nothing but light, music, praise for God and All That Is, and many beings/points of consciousness. The beings were creating the music and were made of the music. I was made of music, light and joy. I was filled with bliss and comfort, and felt "at home" for the first time ever. It was an experience where everything was instantly self-evident. | If I turned my awareness to
anything, it was self-evident to me with no time delay. I
experienced that I was free in time and space; they were not
obstacles to my awareness. I KNEW what I was experiencing. It was
clear. The experience was very brief and had less detail than most
NDEs I've read about. I knew I was in some sort of heaven or astral realm. |
I knew I was out of my body. I wanted to stay, but instantly knew that I had much work to do back on earth that I had barely begun and that most of it had to do with my family relationships. There was a sort of abbreviated life review that hit these points very quickly. Knowing all this, I immediately looked down toward my body. | I could see a cord connecting me to my body, hanging down from me and softly swaying. It looked like shimmering, softly glowing, grey silk. We were still connected. My body was far away, downward, in a very dark place. The space between us looked dark and foggy or smokey, very dismal. → |
| I jumped/dove back into my body
instantaneously and found myself trying to get my breathing
passages clear ... . When I could finally breathe, I just lay in
bed going over the experience, feeling awe and wonder. There was
no fear or confusion; the whole thing was perfectly clear. I was
amazed that I was able to come back and get my body "started up"
again. 89e/Self-Evident |
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| [Swimming.] I felt myself standing alone. The atmosphere changed it became dark and I started to panic. At home my mother had always left the hall light on at night, as she knew I feared the dark. I started to cry and call out for her. She wasn't there! I thought I was all alone, as nobody was shouting back to me; however, I didn't feel alone. For some reason I didn't even feel frightened. I felt a warmth inside me as though I was in my mother's arms but I knew she wasn't there. | I sensed that there were people in front of me but couldn't see anyone. Then I heard what I thought was a lady's voice. The pitch was soft and gentle. Was I dreaming? I couldn't hear clearly. I just had to get closer so I could comprehend exactly what the voice was saying so I started going toward the tone of the feminine voice. Not really walking, more like drifting, yet not really floating as such. | As I got closer I could hear the words this lady was speaking to a figure of a man next to her. She kept saying "There she is. Oh! Isn't she lovely. Look at her." I felt as though I knew her, yet didn't. I couldn't see her clearly nor the man standing to her left, but I could make out the shapes of two shadow people, an older woman and a young man. As I got even closer to them, the lady kept saying, "No. Go back as your Mammy needs you." | I couldn't understand what
was going on. I just wanted to go with them. It seemed such a
happy place to be therefore I kept going forward. However, the
lady insisted that I go back as "Mammy needed me." I didn't really
want to go back through the dark, however, somehow I was turned
back. 90e/Shed Body |
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| I was in pain but I kept going in
and out of consciousness and don't remember much. I started to
vomit and sweat. Then I have no memory at all. I found myself standing on a hill of beautiful flowers and tall grass. The day was very bright and sunny. There was no pain and I felt wonderful and free. I had never been so happy in my life. I remember just feeling extreme happiness and contentment. The weather was perfect; the sky was bright blue with no clouds. The hill was covered in wild yellow and white daisies and tall green grass. |
The grass and the flowers looked so pretty and fresh and so bright and clean. To my right and up a little was an incredibly bright large sun; it took up almost a third of my field of vision. I bent over a little at my waist to see what my dress looked like. I could see my hands holding out the skirt of the dress; it was a beautiful bright pleated skirt with yellow and white daisies on a bed of tall grass. | I thought it looked just like the
setting on the hill that I was standing on. I loved the dress and
I was so happy with the feel of the crisp bright pleats folded on
the skirt. My view at that time was limited to my hands, the skirt and my legs in the grass. I could not see my bare feet because the grass was too tall. There was little flashing white things floating everywhere in the air. I thought they were the white fluffy part of dandelions blowing everywhere. |
My hands looked like they did when I was younger and thinner. The time I spent standing on the hill didn't seem like a very long time, just a minute or so. I will always remember the beauty and intense feeling of happiness. As I was looking down at my skirt I heard voices coming from far away. For the first time I started to think a little. | I never wear dresses and why was the sun so big and bright and low to the ground. I had no idea where I was and why people were talking around me. Suddenly I was sort of lifted, but not really lifted as such, out of the field and I could feel intense pain and I was sitting slumped over a little in a chair while someone was trying to hold my head back. → |
| Exchanging the beautiful
sunny day with darkness and pain was very unexpected and
confusing. At first I didn't know
exactly who or where I was, I just remembered the beautiful yellow
dress and the hill. ... My time on the hill was so real and it left me with very vivid memories of that experience. My friend was still so upset about the way my eyes looked. |
He felt I looked dead. For the
first time I remembered the bright oversized sun. Could it have
been that bright light that people talk about? 91e/Oversized Sun |
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| [Drowning.] The next thing I knew I was traveling in an escalator-style ride up to the clouds. People say they see a bright light but all I remember seeing is very white clouds. I looked down and saw my friend and the swim coach trying to revive me on the opposite side of the pool from where I drowned. I remember saying, "You're wasting your time, I'm up here." I entered what I believed to be heaven and being totally surrounded by God's LOVE. | I remember there was no desire to return to earth. I didn't miss anyone or thing. I felt very good. I could see but I don't remember hearing per se. I received thoughts from other sources but I didn't see anyone. I remember seeing God and I remember inheriting his ability to love, forgive and forget. | I remember being able to come down to earth and sit on a tree limb in a beautiful valley of trees and grass. I'm thinking it was an apple orchard but I'm not positive about the apples. I think I remember seeing green apples not red. I remember floating around to different locations up in heaven but I didn't see anything specific, no objects or people. | I remember I could visit anyone I wanted to and they would visit with me but I didn't have the desire to visit anyone at that time. I was just totally caught up with God's Love! The next thing I knew, I was on the ground spitting out water.
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| It was sunny and pleasantly warm. I
was walking down through a field of grass and flowers towards a
pretty wood and shimmering lake. There was someone I liked beside
me but I sensed them rather than saw them directly and did not
know who they were. There were nice sounds around us but I cannot
remember what they were like. I really would have liked to stay
but I realised I couldn't. I really, really had to go. 93e/Sensed Someone |
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| I had overdosed. During the time
that I was "asleep" from the overdose to the hospitalization I was
in a hyper-real state. I remember people talking around me. I also
felt like I was floating and moved around the ambulance. In the
beginning, I also felt extreme pain and an evil presence. Later, I
felt joy especially after waking up. I felt like I had a spiritual
experience.
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| I was drifting in and out of consciousness during this time and I could feel my spirit actually leaving my body. I saw and heard the conversations between my husband and the doctors taking place outside my room, about 40 feet away and down a hallway. I was later able to verify this conversation to my shocked husband. Then I actually crossed over to another dimension where I was engulfed in a total feeling of love. I also experienced extreme clarity of why I had the cancer, why I had come into this life in the first place, what role everyone in my family played in my life in the grand scheme of things, and generally how life works. | The clarity and understanding I obtained in this state is almost indescribable. Words seem to limit the experience - I was at a place where I understood how much more there is than what we are able to conceive in our 3-dimensional world. I realized what a gift life is and that I was surrounded by loving spiritual beings who were always around me even when I did not know it. | The amount of love I felt was
overwhelming and from this perspective I knew my powerful nature
and saw the amazing possibilities we as humans are capable of
achieving during a physical life. I found out that my purpose now
would be to live heaven on earth using this new understanding and
also to share this knowledge with other people. |
However, I had the choice of whether to come back into life or go toward death. I was made to understand that it was not my time but I always had the choice, and if I chose death, I would not be experiencing a lot of the gifts that the rest of my life still held in store. One of the things I wanted to know was that if I chose life, would I have to come back to this sick body because my body was very, very sick and the organs had stopped functioning. |
I was then made to understand that
if I chose life, my body would heal very quickly. I would see a
difference in not months or weeks, but days! I was shown how illnesses start on an energetic level before they become physical. If I chose to go into life, the cancer would be gone from my energy, and my physical body would catch up very quickly. → |
| I then understood that when people have medical treatments for illnesses, it rids the illness only from their body but not from their energy so the illness returns. I realized if I went back, it would be with a very healthy energy. Then the physical body would catch up to the energetic conditions very quickly and permanently. I was given the understanding that this applies to anything, not only illnesses - physical conditions, psychological conditions, etc. | I was shown that everything going on in our lives was dependant on this energy around us, created by us. Nothing was solid. We created our surroundings, our conditions, etc., depending on this energy. The clarity I received around how we get what we do was phenomenal! It's all about where we are energetically. I was made to feel that I was going to see proof of this first hand if I returned back to my body. | I knew I was drifting in and out, between the two worlds but every time I drifted into the other side I was shown more and more scenes. One scene showed how my life had touched all the people in it. It was sort of like a tapestry and showed how I affected everyone's lives around me. Another scene showed my brother on a plane having heard the news I was dying and coming to see me. | (This was verified to me when I started to come round and my brother was there, having just got off a plane.) I also saw a glimpse of my brother and I. Somehow I understood it was a previous life, where I was much older than him and like a mother. (In this life, he is older than me). In that life I was protective of him. | I suddenly became aware he was on
the plane to come and see me and felt "I can't do this to him -
can't let him come and see me dead." Then I saw how my husband's purpose
was linked to mine and how we had decided to come and experience
this life together. If I died, he would probably follow soon
after. → |
| I was made to understand this during the tests of my organ functions. The results were not back yet. If I chose life, the results would show that my organs were functioning normally. If I chose death, the results would show organ failure as the cause of death due to cancer. I was able to change the outcome of the tests by my choice. I made my choice. As I started to wake up, in a very confused state, I could not at that time tell which side of the veil I was on. | The doctors came rushing into the
room with big smiles on their faces saying to my family "Good
news, we got the results and her organs are functioning. We can't
believe it. Her body really did seem like it had shut down." 95e/Illnesses |
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| At first I heard one paramedic say, "Stay with us Jim." Then I heard nothing. All pain was gone and I was in a very comfortable state. I was totally peaceful; it was total bliss and total harmony at the same time. Then I saw a tunnel that was lit up with white light but it wasn't hard on the eyes. Then I noticed I was following another being whom I didn't know toward the tunnel for a long period of time. I couldn't catch up to this person. | This peaceful state lasted for some time but then I felt intense pain and burning in the chest again. Apparently the paramedics zapped me. ... I told the head Nun at our local Catholic church when we moved to Wisconsin from Illinois and it went right over her head, like I was not important to her. It is very important to me. | However, I did talk to a Shaman
from the Ojibwa Tribe in Northern Wisconsin and he told me the
figure I was following toward the tunnel was my spiritual guide.
To this day I believe him. 96e/Guide |
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| I was clinically dead several times over a period of about one hour. I was given the last rites. I was floating near the ceiling looking down at everyone. There was a room full of people. I zeroed in on my mother crying. I saw how upset she was and how much she loved me. I saw her crying and the priest giving me the last rights. I saw my father to the side looking speechless. I heard the doctors and nurses either talking or thinking that I would not make it. | I felt like I was being pulled away
from my body then I was stuck for what seemed like a long time
near the ceiling looking at myself and everyone. I remember saying
or thinking I'm not ready to go. Next I remember heading back
toward my body. The next thing I remember is waking up the
following day in the hospital bed. 97e/Not Ready |
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| My experience consisted of becoming consciously aware of floating above my body and observing medical personnel working frantically on my body which I could see on the ER gurney. My viewpoint was from the ceiling area of the room. Next I recall traveling out of the room, down a long white light corridor. At the end of my travel I recall encountering a much more intense and powerful bright white force. | I was sent back from this force via
the same corridor. My next recollection is of an ER nurse saying,
"Good you're awake." 98e/White Force |
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| [Road accident.] I was surrounded by
an intense energy, vibrant color, and a loud cacophony of mixed
noises...shattering glass and bending metal. My injuries were
minor, but the emergency personnel were amazed I was all right. I
was in great shock afterward. It was an intensely terrifying
experience. 99e/Surrounded |
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| During the surgery, I awakened and saw myself lying below on the operating table. I could see the tops of operating room caps from two doctors who were doing the surgery. It dawned on me that I was the person lying on the table. Following this realization, I began to move in what I'll call a tunnel through dark space slowly, on an angle, not straight up. I was not happy with this and afraid! As I ascended in this tunnel, it became warmer and I began to relax. | As I ascended, I became calmer and
began to accept the wisdom of this process. The light became much
brighter and there was a warmth and sense of well-being that I can
only describe as ultimate peacefulness. Behind the light I heard a voice that talked to me. I believe I saw my grandmother Susie there. |
The voice told me that "It's not
your time," and that "You'll be there in the end." I was then
dismayed that I had to leave. The descent was fast and in the same
slanted angle in the tunnel. When I hit bottom it was abrupt and I
woke up in severe pain in the recovery room. 100e/Peace |
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| There was an almost immediate out of body. It felt as if I was two to three times normal height and I could see through the walls. Later, either during surgery or during the three days that followed, I had an experience that I know was real, not a dream. I found myself in what seemed to be a huge cavern, probably what you would consider to be a void. I was crouched behind what seemed to be a boulder and was watching two figures. | My eyes felt like they were literally as big as saucers but I did not feel afraid, just very alone. The figures were in black, hooded cloaks similar to those of the ring wraiths in the Lord of the Rings. I did not feel like they were evil. One of them approached the other one and was floating. They did not appear to have feet or at least were not using them. | There was no sound of any kind but I KNEW that they were discussing me and deciding what to do. I came back with the feeling that I am supposed to be here. However, I didn't get the feeling of a great purpose or important work to accomplish, just a sense that things would not evolve the way they were supposed to if I didn't live out this life. | I never felt as if I were being
judged. It was more like they were reviewing the outcomes of
sending me on or back. And you can see which one they chose (lol).
101e/Review |
