NDE Guides

2. Suddenly I found myself in darkness where something or someone was drawing me to them, and the closer I got the more comfortable I felt. 7a/4003

3. [Did you see a light?] Apart from the normal light that one appreciates in a park during the day, I saw an immense, central light at the end of the path. It was as if a superior being was seated at the end, very luminous. Additionally, he interrogated me about why I was in that place. 8a/3287

4. Through all of this I felt someone next to me. I think it was a woman because it had woman's voice but she did not speak with her mouth. This woman (?) showed me things. I do not remember all. She said to me, "This is what it will be like when you come here." I then saw a seashore or something like it and the air seemed to be blue. All was blue. I felt as if I was looking from the right upper corner from somewhere, and I felt her next to me at all times. She was so calm. I saw people on this seashore and I seem to know these people even though I have never seen them in this dimension. I felt such love and I felt so much love from them. There was one woman she seemed to be close to me. I was able to hold her hands and we looked at each other and I felt love yet sadness. Then this Being next to me said that it was time to go now and I will see them again but it was not my time yet. 13a/4015

5. We rowed back to the shore I had started on, and there was a man standing there. I could not see his face, but he had black hair. He held out his hand, and I took it. 17a/4010

6. This person got up and came down the stairs and down the road to me. ... When the person reached me we spoke through thought. He told me that it was not my time to enter into my heavenly home but had a mission to fulfill and my life was going to be very hard. 18a/4009

7. - and the warm light was "God" or my idea of God - I felt loved and cared for and precious - which was fabulous - and it seemed like everything made sense - it was like an "Ahhah" moment ....this presence didn't tell me it was god - that was my later determination - this presence didn't tell me it was god - that was my later determination - we try to ascribe labels to things that shouldn't have labels - anyway, this intense energy force wanted to be with me and that was all I cared about at that time. 21a/4001

8. At this point an unknown, but very clear voice, said to me: "No, you're not going to die, it's really not your time yet (with the implication 'you'll live to be very old') and you're going to get out of this." THE ONLY QUESTION IS: Who is this voice which protects me, is it ANOTHER (unconscious) me? The spirit of a living person close to me? Or of a deceased loved one? GOD in person? 22a/3992

9. I was accompanied by someone, I suppose it would have been a woman, because she had a brown skirt on. ... The "person" at my side guided me in the other direction. 25a/3991

10. [Did you meet or see any other beings?] An outline of a human form. It brought me back. I was not aware it was of a human form when I was in it's presence. 26a/3994

11. Suddenly I was flying, slowly following an angel who was only partly visible down my stairs. It felt very real. I felt wonderful and calm, and I wanted to keep following her for a long time. ... But then I realized that I wanted to be with my mom, and that I missed her. I wanted to go back to my normal life. Then, it felt like the angel was pulling me towards her, but at the same time I was being sucked backwards. She released me, and I flew through my house back into my room. 30a/3986

12. I recall clear as if it had happened yesterday sitting up out of my body and looking at a man who was sitting on the chair close to where my body was. I recall laughing as if I was incredibly happy to see him. I felt like I had known him my entire life. He was sitting down, he had blondish brown hair and was wearing a white shirt with blue jeans. He had his face covered so I couldn't see it and he was shaking his head from side to side as if he was disappointed in me. The next thing I remember was opening my eyes to see the paramedics and my mom standing over me. 31a/3985

13. Then I heard a voice directly in my mind. I clearly perceived that it came to me from above-left side. This being I did not perceive as being "more" than myself. It was more like a "similar" to myself. A telepathic dialogue took place in which certain questions were asked and I was compelled to answer truthfully. At the end, I made a decision, and at that point the "void" stopped and, with difficulty, I made it back to the shore. 36a/3982

14. At the end of the ladder there was a man, (for me, it was God) who met me. He was of medium build with white shoulder length hair, with a white shiny white beard like angel hair and had on a white robe with sash. He took me by my hand and we walked towards a marble bench where he sat me in his lap. I felt very weak and tired from the long climb. As he sat me on his lap and laid in his arms, I reached up and touched his beard with my right hand and felt the most immense sense of love and understanding, (until this day this feeling has never left me). 37a/3977

15. Finally, the end of the tunnel is here, and I am enveloped in that same light, that without a word spoken, directed me here. Within a few seconds, a lady appeared, to tell me, that I had a choice, and that I was young. Looking at her was my new agenda, Who is she? I don't recognize her, but she seems to know me. I continue to do a checklist of her characteristics. She has shoulder length, strawberry reddish hair, and very pale skin. Her eyes were a stunning blue. At this point, it did not matter where I knew her from, or who she is. I had a choice to make, and she made me feel that time was of the essence. I wanted to stay, but had remembered her saying that I was young. What did that mean? Does that really have anything to do with my choice? She was about 50 years old, and looked extremely happy! What a decision to make. This is the best vacation ever! I needed more time, but she gave an insistent order to make my choice and said whatever I choose will be fine. At that time, I turned around, back to the direction I had so calmly came from, and was immediately pulled back through the dark tunnel. 39a/3897

16. I got closer to the light, to the point where the darkness disappeared and I was preparing to join the light. It felt wonderful. Then a loving, caring voice said quite clearly, without words, "It's not your time. You must go back." It all disappeared, and at some point after that I regained consciousness. 41a/3292

17. Suddenly, I saw this beautiful white light slowly coming towards me. A man who had a kind gentle face dressed in a white cloth was before me. He stood to the right side of this ever growing light. While I began to move in his direction, he was so welcoming and only spoke to me it seemed through his eyes. He asked me if I wanted to enter the light. I was overjoyed that he had come for me and loved me so much. I can't really describe the joy or calm I felt. I wanted to go with him so badly. It felt like home. Somehow it was decided for me not to go with him and I returned to my body. 43a/3968

18. I had been aware of the tunnel of light with me for a while, but did not seem compelled to approach it. I was allowed to make the decision whether or not to return. 44a/3966

19. I saw a figure of light come towards me out of the light. This figure was very tall. I am guessing it was about 8 feet tall or so. I am saying "it" because I could not tell if it was male or female. The "being" spoke to me although the words were not heard with my ears. It was as if someone was speaking in my head, although it was not my voice I heard. Everything was so crystal clear and seemed to make perfect sense although logically it was impossible. The figure told me "You must go back, we are not ready for you yet." I remember feeling like I did not want to leave. I kept saying "Why?" "I don't want to go." But I was already leaving. [Did you meet or see any other beings?] I could not tell if the figure was a male or a female because it did not have a gender. I also could not tell by the voice which seems to sound strange but it just did not seem as if gender were present. 47a/3961

20. I started to feel scared and it was then that I saw a glow of light and a hand reach out to me. I grabbed the hand and was pulled to the other side where I was greeted with the most handsome spirit who guided me through this experience. 48a/3959

21. ... and somehow something or someone told me that I must go back. 49a/894

22. A lady softly spoke that "it's okay, everyone goes through this," but that did not calm me down. 50a/3957

23. When I got to the end the light turned orange, and there was a very tall man dressed in tan work outfit (shirt & pants). I looked past him and I could see yellow flowers and a large mountain and a blue sky. His face was the color of light sand and his hair was golden tan. He had the kindest look in his eyes. I could hear the silence and see the trees and I wanted to run in, but he stopped me. He tilted me backwards and sent me back through the tunnel with a gentle push, at which time I heard the doctor say "we got her. " 51a/3956

24. Some power was also traveling along with me, beside, I felt. I don't know whom it was. 53a/3957

25. Then a bright light appeared having a soft man’s voice that told me “YOU WILL LEAVE EVERYTHING BEHIND. YOUR LOVED ONES, THE HARD EARNED AWARD, MONEY, EVEN YOUR CLOTHES. YOU’LL COME TO ME EMPTY HANDED.” The light also gave me an important message to follow it as much possible. 57a/2143

26. A being of white light appeared to me and took my hand and took me to a door that opened on its own. 57a/2143

27. There was an oval shape of a cloud-like image surrounded in light that became larger and larger in size. I heard a voice saying; "Tina, it is not your time yet, so don't worry or panic." The voice repeated this statement two or three times and then told me to relax, calm my body and concentrate on opening my eyes. I then remember thinking (knowing) that it was my angel speaking and comforting me. I felt an extreme sense of peace and stillness. 59a/3746

29. At one point I became aware of a light that was with me that I'll refer to as a presence. The presence was communicating with me, and assuring me I was safe, and led me through a beautiful field with flowers and trees and a creek. The presence was telling me I would no longer have any worries or troubles, and was so calming. We got to a white bridge and I was ready to go over when the presence said it was okay to go over but told me I had three small children on this side, so I remained on this side. 65a/3939

30. Air brushed behind my neck as though someone was behind me. Then all of a sudden I heard a voice coming toward me. A man's voice which was in a different language. It was more of a whisper that turned into English, telling me "It's almost time." 68a/3934 [This report appeared also in the second random sample.]

31. I came onto the bridge, lost control of my car, thought I would die, saw my life pass in front of me. And at that same moment, something intervened to redirect my car and I glided safely to the other side. The next day, I took a walk near the bridge to study the icy effects and discover details. The bridge was closed. Someone else had gone over it after me, lost control and did not survive. 69a/3933

32. When I got to the light, there was Jesus. It wasn't visual but there was no disputing who it was. He took me by the hand. The profoundly incredible peace was beyond conception. We walked hand in hand for some time. It was hard to tell because it was like there was no sense of time. I remember feeling the presence of my deceased Father in the distance. I also remember not wanting to come back. It was bliss. Jesus told me that only he got to chose, and it wasn't time for me. That's all I can recall before I came back into excruciating pain. 71a/3931

33. There was some sense of God being in control of the situation, however, I did not specifically see any Being. Then, suddenly, I was "let go" and I came to. 72a/3929

34. I didn't "see 'God,'" but I felt as though I was sitting in the lap and wrapped in the arms of the most wonderful, loving [giant] "parent." This is where it gets frustrating, because there are not, now, and will never be words to convey how this feels... I detest using the word "God," because of the great perversion we humans have made of the concept, but I will use it from this point onward, merely for the sake of expedience. I was "sitting in God's lap," wrapped in the warmest embrace, and immediately involved in a "conversation." We communicated -- telepathically? Don't know how else to describe it. I didn't want to come back. That was my focus. I was Home, I liked being Home, just let me be Home. But God was holding me tighter [in the best of ways], and showing me the life to which I must return. My field of vision was akin to being inside a TV screen watching a movie. The movie kept running, the road kept going...so fast...so much "information." Personal, universal. Mostly about Thought and Love. And, way down the road, late in my life, it seemed the trip would become more enjoyable. God told me [crappy earth translation ahead] to stay true, "follow the clues," and all would be well. The totality of God's love for me was the predominant feeling/understanding, at all times [luckily, that feeling has stayed with me, though I don't necessarily understand it, any more]... 73a/3928

35. There was someone on my right holding my arm taking me. I could tell that this person KNEW where we were going and it was their mission to bring me. I was screaming no, no, no. I did not want to go. I could see objects going by me on each side. I don't know what they were because we were flying so fast. It felt like we were going down that dark hallway for a long time. I remember just thinking "No. Where am I?" Where are we going? Then we stopped in front of a door on the left. I don't know what color the door was, all I knew was it was a door and I was not going through it! I kept saying NO! The next thing I remember was my husband telling me I had a seizure. 74a/3923

36. My sister, who had passed away 21 years before my experience, she was doing some type of work with other beings, who had human form, but I do not remember their faces. This was in a one-level structure that looked like a long house from the outside. She was giggling and quite happy; she greeted me and told me there was someone she wanted me to meet. Amidst some commotion, through the back came Jesus Christ, and there was no mistake as to who he was; he looked like the artist's portraits, but not meek and mild, as often portrayed, he was healthy and robust. He put his arm around me, in the area of what would have been my shoulder, looked me straight in the eyes and said "I have come for you, that you may know that I am real." I was totally awestruck by His presence, yet I felt a love and respect for Him that I have never felt in physical life. I followed Him to an area that I can best describe as a "desert garden". We sat on large "sitting rocks", and he began to speak. I remembered little of the conversation we had after the experience was over; my memory of the conversation has remained the same throughout the years. He was explaining the different things of life on Earth, why it was that life on earth was not perfect, and why it was that way. What people on earth had misconstrued about life and living. He said that there were many different religions on earth, as one faith would not take care of everyone's spiritual needs. This is all I have been able to remember of this conversation. I followed Him back to this long house area, and I asked Him if I could stay, and He said, "No, it's not your time". I then asked Him if I could go back and tell everyone that he was real, and He said "No, this is for others to come to know". With that, I found myself looking at the outside of a small building with a short flight of stairs. I walked up the stairs and opened a door, and at that point I woke up from the coma. 75a/3922

37. I was aware of a presence that was at once familiar and loving and kind and all powerful and so very immense that there will never be any words appropriate to describe this thing. My first thought was "It knows my name!" I was in awe that this amazing force knew me! It was exciting and exhilarating that something so immense and important took the effort to know little me. My first thought was "It knows my name!" I was in awe that this amazing force knew me! It was exciting and exhilarating that something so immense and important took the effort to know little me. I asked was very impertinent. "Why is there so much pain down there?" (meaning on earth). The answer was laughter. I knew that this presence was all powerful and knew everything and that everything would always be alright no matter what happened ever. I became aware that the presence was prompting me into a dialogue. I remember bits and pieces of a "conversation" without words. I remember asking questions and receiving answers. The first question I asked was very impertinent. "Why is there so much pain down there?" (meaning on earth). So much joyful laughter like a mother laughing at the amazing questions only a small child can ask. The laughter was followed with something like: "Don't you know I have the power to take away all the pain? I can rewind the universe and start all over again with one simple wish. The pain is left behind on earth. It does not travel with us, but the lessons we learn from it are eternal." Suddenly I was given a choice. I could go back to earth and back to the human body that I was living in or I could stay in these realms. I wanted to stay forever and stated just that. I was shown once more the scene of the accident and I saw my friend with blood pouring out of her nose and she was struggling to breathe and the blood was making bubbles out of her nose as the air was forcing it's way through. For the very first time of this event I experienced anxiety. I felt as if I had to help her. I was shown once more the scene of the accident and I saw my friend with blood pouring out of her nose and she was struggling to breathe and the blood was making bubbles out of her nose as the air was forcing it's way through. For the very first time of this event I experienced anxiety. I felt as if I had to help her. The next thing I knew I was back in my body and my body was saying, "Oh God. Oh God. Oh God" uncontrollably. That was the last thing I remember before coming to in the hospital. 76a/3958

38. I then was in this beautiful glowing place, white glowing background like clouds but illuminating bright clouds, and a man in front of me. A man in a white dressy shirt and white dressy pants, his hair so smooth black and short, beautifully comb to the back (very good looking man). I was begging him to let me stay, but he insisted in telling me I have to go back. I insisted in not coming back, I wanted to stay in this beautiful place. ... Again he insisted in telling me that I have to come back. 77a/3920

39. This was (when He talked to me) the most intense moment of my experience (God could read my thoughts), it is thus then that I had the highest level of consciousness and alertness. God’s voice was very clear, I could therefore clearly identify the source. His voice was low and deep, as if it filled all, even myself inside. At the same time, His voice was quiet, pondered and acute, but full of authority and love. I say authority because at the time when I wanted to speak, I felt that HIS VOICE PREVENTED me to do so: He read in my mind and answered the questions I had in my head. After talking, things went very, very, very fast: I came back into my body at high speed. 78a/3916

40. And in the distance I saw a glowing point light up. While I was watching it became bigger, like the sun rising and it came through the closed window into the room and embraced me completely. 79a/3865

41. The Angels flew me over to the right of these pillars - to what looked like a HUGE 4 Foot Thick Book, of LIFE. MY Life. Just as my life had passed before my eyes when I was being drowned, I was now being shown my future life, with as much info as I could remember. Imagine a deck of cards - each card has a scene/event from your life -- now, flip those cards in front of your face -- try to remember anything you can from any card you see. That is what I saw with my Book of Life. I gather that Life is Written; LITERALLY. The Angels, The Book and God showed me several scenes of my life - I am now an inventor of animal products - but, I never invented anything -- My Book of Life had these inventions - and, I just remembered them. 80a/3919

42. Until this very day I remember the meeting with the incredibly kind figure who wore a long cloak or mantle. I think it was a male figure, maybe an angel, but without visible wings. I clearly remember the question he asked me: If I was ready to cross over. I knew somehow that there wasn’t any return if I did that. I almost felt embarrassed and ungrateful to the friendly figure when I said: “Mom and dad need me, besides we will go back to Sweden in a few days.” I don’t remember if I said that in words or by telepathy. Immediately after that I woke up. [At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?] When I met the human-like being in the light. 83a/3917

43. It felt like a long time before I was spoken to. It was not verbally, nor did I see anyone/anything else around me. I was being spoken from within my own heart. It is hard to describe without sounding like I am making a conversation with myself, but that's what it was. It was like my inner conscience was talking to me. It asked "Are you ready to come home?" [Did you meet or see any other beings? ] I was talked to from within. After it happened, and when I learned religion, I thought it to be of God. I personally feel it to be more of an inner conscience 'talking' to me. But I never saw anyone/thing else. 84a/3913

44. I felt (what I know now was an angel) something wrap around my arms and legs. I started being pulled back into my body when I was overwhelmed with the feeling of peace and calm. I knew that I was in an accident that I was being protected and that I would survive. 85a/3909

45. ... one of the others close to me said "No its too soon for you." 86a/3911

46. I was given a choice as I was traveling down this tunnel to live or carry on through the tunnel. I was going through a negotiation as to what would happen if I died and how badly it would affect my mother, husband, etc. [Did you meet or see any other beings?] Yes, like alien beings but didn't see them. Definitely felt like aliens, two only, but taking me to a higher place. They may have been angels, but I always said felt more like aliens. 87a/3908

47. The most incredible of all was this woman came to me and held my hand and stayed with me the entire time until the paramedics started to treat me. 88a/3907

48. I felt something or someone was there, it seemed I was given a choice to stay or go back. 89a/3905

50. There was a third entity that I couldn't see, but was with me, everywhere. I could only assume it had to be God. 91a/641

51. A voice came. A male voice just kind of matter-of-factly said "you are drowning." 92a/3892

52. A light appeared and there was someone, an entity, in two dimensions, without human features. I noticed other presences, as if they were accompanying me, but there was no one I knew. [Did you meet or see any other beings?] I saw a presence but did not know it, then I felt other presences but did not see them. I felt that they were behind the first being, and they told me I had to go back, as I still had things to do, that my moment had still not come. 95a/3896

53. Then a moment came when I was brought up short by a "wall" of dense light, which gave off an unbelievable goodness, an indescribable love. And I heard a voice filled with tenderness say to me: "It's not time, you must go back, it's much too soon." [Did you meet or see any other beings?] Yes, precisely this light, which was living. 97a/3891

54. There was someone close by, I can’t say who it was. And I was fascinated by the “sun” that I saw shining overhead. It drew me towards it, it was irresistible. I wanted to go to the “sun” but someone telepathically told me I couldn’t. [Did you meet or see any other beings?] There was someone to my right but I don’t know who. I didn’t look at him. 98a/3886

55. I glanced up, an indescribable “light”, like an opening to another dimension, to a completely different world. And there was a face. I will never forget that face! It was so full of a welcoming, a non-demanding, warm smile of love. In that inviting face, as in the whole experience, there was nothing else than a complete pure and total love, unlimited comprehension, kindness, and real affectionate, sympathetic and warm humour. There was a silent direct communication, which I am not able to “translate” into written or spoken words, neither into an image. I just felt, from that wonderful face, that I was both welcome and expected; exactly as if I had seen that face before... 100a/3876

56. He said his name was Michael and for me to come with him. I looked and there was a tunnel where he was. 101a/3888

1. Then to my right I noticed that there was someone moving freely, not walking but just appearing in front of some of the people there. I had noticed this person from a long way off as he seemed very small, just an silhouette. Then he was in front of me. He had a kind face, grey robes, and a grey head scarf the like worn by Muslims. Also a whitish grey beard. He uttered no words for I did not see his mouth move. He said "you do not belong here." ... and then I awoke. 1b/947

2. [Did you meet or see any other beings?] I'm not sure, seems as if there was somebody in the big room with me. 9b/2068

3. The only thing I remember is that I saw a pathway of stones, and I walked along it with someone who took me by my hand. We went towards a resplendent light. I wasn't afraid at any time. I didn't see the face of the person I was walking with, nevertheless he wore a white tunic and I walked on his left. Suddenly, I heard my mother's voice and turned back, and then I woke up. 10/b2591

4. God came. I couldn't see him. But, I knew he was there. He kept telling me how I was special and that I shouldn't think so lowly about myself. 15b/4198

5. There's someone there with me, a presence I can only feel. Suddenly I know and understand everything. I know what everything is like, and I know I'm in the realm of death. The "journey" continues and I'm a small child and my "current" self all at the same time. I just AM, it's impossible to describe. We get to this enormous light and I feel that my companion gets there before me, and I just know it's a boy my age: 17 years. We are greeted by a "being" that is light, it's like a glow coming from it, I don't know if it's a she or a he. But it radiates so much love and safety it's indescribable. The boy "disappears" into the light, but for some reason I'm not allowed to come along... I so much want to come too, it's so wonderfully comfortable. I feel so absolutely great... I stay by the light being, I can't get past it. I'm told it's not my time yet. Then everything goes black. When I woke up later I felt such an enormous sense of loss and disappointment because I couldn't go too, I'm almost angry about it. 16b/2795

6. I heard a female voice or voices in my head that said, "It is almost time," and I remember putting my head down to sleep. I had not heard voices before this (except maybe once I heard someone call my name years before that). 18b/2995

7. [Did you meet or see any other beings?] They were at the end of the tunnel. I did not know him. He had long white hair and a long white beard. I can not remember a lot of the conversation. I have thought of being hypnotized so that I could remember, but mainly he said "You HAVE to go back". As soon as he said it I regained consciousness. 19b/1457

8. I just recall being drawn towards a big bright light to the point where I was in the light, only to have it communicated (somehow) that it was time to leave and back I came. The coming back part was the most impressionable and requires very little digging into the memory, as it seems suspended somewhere in time. [Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words?] It is rather difficult to express in words, it's one of the few glimpses I've had of my higher self. [Did you meet or see any other beings?] I don't remember coming into contact with anyone/thing else, but I remember a grand presence which seemed to transcend anything (or anybody's) presence I've felt since. 23b/2978

9. Heard no voices but there was communication, knowledge and understanding. 24b/2764

10. Then the main lady talking to me said, "It's not your time yet you have to go back." Then she said, "Think about it ..you remember. " Then it was clear at that moment, I said to her, "I'm dead aren't I?" she said, "yes, but its not your time yet, you have to go back...You are our go-between." It all went black, just for a couple of seconds. Then this awesome light exploded in front of me and I stood in that light and I felt wonderful. It seemed to heal everything, and I can't remember all of what it said, but if you asked a question in it it would answer you before you could think of it. But that knowledge was forgotten when I came back. 26b/3285

11. [Did you see a light?] A bright, intense light that felt so warm and good, so loving and full of wisdom. My personal feeling is that we are all "sparks" that come from the "Big Light". When our physical bodies die, our soul, spirit, essence, feelings and thoughts, go back to the source....the "LIGHT". 27b/151

12. I remember talking to people in a room. ... I remember confusion and movement. I was yelling "Don't send me back, I don't want to go back." 30b/2317

13. I closed my eyes and saw a virgin; something wanted to take me but when I insisted on wanting to see my daughter, it left me alone and I felt my body back on the chair again. I think that if I hadn’t refused, I would have died. I don’t know, but when I refused, the force that I was feeling left me alone. 31b/3655

14. Then, two groups of persons appeared dressed as roman wrestlers; one group was red and the other was blue. They were fighting over me. Both groups wanted to take me and said to each other “he belongs to us,” “no, he belongs here." 34b/2491

15. At this time I was being pulled at a high rate of speed and there was somebody with me and I felt safe and loved and at peace. This person was transparent but I could still see him smiling at me, and saying to me, but not talking with his mouth but his mind, telling me "every thing is fine." 35b/698

16. Then I heard encouraging voices behind my head saying so gently and lovingly "come on; it's OK." 37b/3285

17. I had spiritual guides who gave me what I call "a tour of the universe" ... I encountered a form who I knew was God who told me it was time to now go back. I started arguing with God in my own little obnoxious way, and God said I needed to go back because my mission here wasn't complete. 38b/186

18. I was told all my thoughts were in the past; that none of that mattered anymore. ... I felt the presence of others. They were close but so far away. I did not recognize them, but I knew they were familiar. 39b/3684

19. I turned around in some sort of concrete swimming pool, and I was not alone there. Somebody else turned around with me. ... All of a sudden somebody appeared in front of me. He was young with a beard. I told him, “When do I go back down to earth???” and he said, “But you are already on earth.” I did not believe him and I asked the same question again, he replied the same answer, and I got back down into my body.... 40b/4043

20. I sensed there were beings around me (although I did not actually see them), and they made it clear that they were not judging any part of my life. ... I was then informed that it was not my time and that I should return. 41b/3123

21. I was asked by a person who's image was blurred, "do you want to return?" .. and the voice was not in my head, but out loud. 43b/731

22. I remember being in a dark grey void. A voice said to me: "Richard, why are you here?" I said: "I want to come home." The voice replied: "It's not time yet. You have more work to do. You have a family that loves you and that you need to take care of." ... I guess I went out a second time and returned to the grey void. I said: "I want to stay." The voice said: "What is your problem?" I said: "I don't know." The voice replied: "You have to go back. You have to take care of your family." That's the point I came to the second time. I really didn't want to go back. It was so relaxing, restful and peaceful in the void, but I reluctantly obeyed the voice and returned. [How do you currently view the reality of your experience?] Experience was definitely real. I believe it was a directive from a higher source to let me know my importance to my family. 44b/2236

23. Just then A Large Hand came and held my hand, and then I saw HIM. He was bright and had beautiful features: long silver hair and beard along with bright never-ending gown. He didn't say a word but I heard "it's OK we are going home." ... Then I heard the most calming and peaceful voice saying to me It's Not My Time! 49/2735

24. I heard a voice say, "Your time is not yet, go back, at the sound of the words." ... Then it happened. I was just pushed into my body. I felt a force a reality, a sudden movement, and I opened my eyes. 50b/1944

25. I saw a light and I went into it. It was wondrous light that engulfed everything, there was total knowledge and love. I saw my life from my addiction point of view flash before my eyes, repeated behaviors etc. ... I went back and saw myself in the womb. I was then told to "Remember." 51b/831

26. It was not that “I” was in the white light but that I was part of the white light. For a second I was part of the white light and then it seems it bounced me back. I hit it and there was like a wall; an energetic wall; an energy that I compare with what I felt the first time I touched my boyfriend; it was the same substance. 53b/2377

27. Air brushed behind my neck as though someone was behind me. Then all of a sudden I heard a voice coming toward me. A man's voice which was in a different language. It was more of a whisper that turned into English, telling me "It's almost time." I saw quick pictures of myself aging from childhood to adulthood and more forward. All of a sudden a jerk came across my body and it automatically shifted 180-degrees. I then opened my eyes laying in a hospital bed wondering what the heck had just happened. 54b/3934 [This report is also in first random sample.]

28. ... thoughts and ideas were being imparted to me as though people were talking to me, yet there were no faces. 55b/214

29. I noticed some shadowy figures that came towards me, and behind them was the reflection of a light. There were 10 or 12 figures and I noticed a glow around them. ... I didn't know them and they didn't communicate anything to me. 56b/2460

30. Suddenly in the void, I heard a voice, a male voice, and He said" Its o.k., It's all right. It's all good." I went from total terror to total peace and acceptance of my life and responsibility. I was no longer worried about heaven or hell or my death. This voice accepted me, and did not judge me. I, in a way, had judged myself and clearly had an instant understanding of my life. And how important it is to play our lives out to the end regardless of how hard it is. After hearing the voice and receiving the understanding ... . I "came to" in the ambulance. 58b/3444

31. Immediately after leaving my body a shaft of very white light came down in the room and a beautiful woman with long black hair in a white robe trimmed in gold came down through the Light. She extended her hands toward me and gave me the choice of either going up in the Light with her or staying on earth in my body. At first, I wanted to go with her in the Light as the experience was so beautiful and peaceful. I have no actual memory of the time between wanting to go up in the Light with the beautiful Lady, and then making the other choice of returning to my body because of the children. After I had spoken the words 'I choose to live', meaning come back and live my life in this body, there was an explosion of Light in the room and I also spoke to them simultaneously from my body. This caused a great stir among the medics there and they rushed to my side. God was not finished with using my life and that is why I am alive today. I am here because God, Christ and His Holy Angels have taken care of me, protected me and kept me. For this I am truly thankful. 61b/33 [This person's website is angel-light.com]

32. And I saw a woman. Beautiful, with a light blue long dress. Charming. At that time I realized I was dead, or out of my body anyway. All I could think was: "Okay, I saw my daughter. She is great, she's beautiful. She is healthy. I am gone now. She will be all right". It sounds egocentric, but I did not feel bad about this at the time. Strange. I was happy I have seen her, that was all that mattered at the time. I kept looking at the light, at the woman. I was extremely happy. There was not a real face. She was blond, with a blue dress. She smiled. The white soft light changed into a landscape. ... I knew the woman was beside me. I did not really see her, but I knew she was there. It was so beautiful. I cried from happiness. From one moment to the other, I felt like someone or something was pulling me away. The landscape faded and I was back on the operation table. 63b/200

33. A spirit guide told me to breath deeply. A sweet perfume scent filled the air, which made it easier to relax and let go. We went through a powder blue-white light. I was shown a glimpse of my future. I continued on to a library of sorts. (I've since been to this library three times). There were small groups of people or spirits (?) in individual rooms called "pods". In these rooms the spirits or people, were planning their next life or reincarnation. I continued on with a (person, spirit, being (?) who was dressed in a monk gown. We went into the library where he proceeded to show me where the volumes of books were located that contained information on my various lives. He started to open a huge book called "The Book of Knowledge," when a higher up in the chain of beings came forth. He informed the individual with whom I was with, that I knew too much. And that he was to stop, and not open this book. The monk said that he wanted to show me where I came from, as well as three other members of my family. The picture was of a galaxy. And, he did point out were we came from. All different locations in fact. The elder monk told him to stop at once. 64b/3206

34. Then I gradually became aware that I wasn't alone, and I'm not talking about the other people in the ward. There was an unseen 'someone' approaching me. An indescribable overwhelming love began to completely envelope me, and with it came a sense of joy that defies words. 66b/2359

35. As I entered further into the tunnel I became quite calm and relaxed. The clear light kept attracting me until I heard a voice mention my name. I then retraced my steps back through the tunnel and I lived again. 67b/2243

36. I looked again at my car traveling to the other side of the freeway. I puzzled why it was moving. Suddenly a man's voice in my right ear stated "If you don't go back, someone will die." I remember not wanting that to happen. I woke up with my hands on the steering wheel and trying to gain control of the car and trying to turn it away from the oncoming traffic. I eventually came to a stop. I am searching for a purpose in life. There has to be a reason that a man whispered in my ear that someone would die. If he had said that it would be me that died, at that time in my life I would have embraced that happily. 68b/3385

37. My car was on fire, and I couldn't get out of the door because my car was leaning sideways. A man who was about 5'4" and 140lbs came running to my side. He had a cleanly trimmed beard, a soft voice and strong hands. He lifted me out of the window as though I were a child and carried me away from the fire. He sat me down and said I would be alright now. Everything was going to be ok. He reminded me of my grandfather in a strange way. One I cannot describe. When the firemen and police arrived the man disappeared and I have never seen him since. There is no account of this man, no one saw him, and I don't even know if he was real. But to me he was very real. He pulled me from a burning wreckage, he saved my life. 69b/3837

38. Then I remember looking up and getting pulled/sucked toward a great white light. When I got closer to the light I saw the outline of an adult. I was only there for a moment before I was sucked back and then I was breathing again. [Did you meet or see any other beings?] I saw the black outline of someone, adult. No communication. 71b/3732

39. There "I" was, in this "space" of light, with these three "beings" appearing in front of me. We had a "conversation"..and later (*15 years)..when all of this came "clear".. I was given a choice..AS IS ALWAYS DONE...to stay "gone" or to go back. "They" told me that they wanted my "form"...(the physical form holds the cellular memories of all of one's experiences) and "they" wanted to send me back with a "new" spirit. 72b/3254

40. [Did you meet or see any other beings?] I did not know them. There were three silhouettes. They weren't male or female. They were asking me if I want to stay or go with them. When I made the decision to stay I was told by somebody else just to roll with the punches and live with compassion. It will all make sense in the end. 73b/2432

41. Once I arrived at the end of the tunnel I saw a black table and seven people all dressed in white clothing standing on the other side of the table. Six to my right and one to my left. I did not recognize any of the people standing before me. ... I know one or two of the people behind the table had said something to me but I can not remember what. But then, almost as quickly as everything had gone to gray, I was brought back. 74b/118

42. They were trying to save me...but I still died. Death was not bad. Jesus was really there. He and I were looking over the edge of the pit, sort of looking at where hell was. It reminded me of when I was little, looking over the edge of a bridge to the water below....it wasn't scary, just looking. He put His Arm around me. He loved me. Perhaps we were looking back at earth, I don't know. [Did you meet or see any other beings?] Jesus was there. He was kind, warm, gentle, loving, and he cared about me. He received me. He is REAL. I always believed in Him before ... but now I can promise that he is REAL. 76b/Guy

43. When I died, I rose above my body and saw my grandfather working on my body. My body was of no interest to me; instead I moved out of the room towards a presence I felt in the living room area. I went towards this presence, which was within a brilliant, sun-light bright, light space - not a tunnel, but an area. The presence was unbelievable peace, love, acceptance, calm, and joy. The presence enveloped me and my joy was indescribable - as I write this I am brought back to this emotion and it delights me still. The feeling is spectacular. I did not experience this presence as God (I was too young to understand the concept), but I did experience this presence as that which made me. I knew, without a doubt that I was a made creature, a being that owed its existence to this presence. I do not remember re-entering my body. 79b/3183

44. I was sitting on my couch and my breathing was cut off. I was staring at my hand, and I saw myself draw away from my body. Then, something or someone 'pushed' me back into the world. I stood up quickly because I was startled by the whole thing. [Did you meet or see any other beings?] I didn't see or meet anyone or anything, but there was definitely someone else 'there'. 82b/163

45. Then, I heard the voice of God in my head, and all at once he asked me, "Have you loved enough?" "Have you learned enough?" "And have you experienced enough?" I suddenly realized that I had not done the things he had asked of me, and I screamed "No" I need to do more time. And just like that, boom! I was back in my body. 83b/3217

46. I have to climb up, I cannot. But a hand grabs me. I don’t see a face. He helps me to turn my head upwards where life is and I climb out. [Did you meet or see any other beings?] Yes, the hand that was offered to me. 85b/959

47. I felt like there was someone there but didn't see anything. But something was communicating with me telepathically and every thought was instant. What the conversation was I don't remember. 88b/4066

48. Than I felt that somebody caught me in an extremely rude way and threw me back. I was back in the room. 90b/3702

49. [Did you meet or see any other beings?] The lights along the tunnel were people, but I did not know them. They were encouraging. 91b/2014

50. [Did you meet or see any other beings?] I was being led by them.. at least two that were just slightly more powerful than myself, as I recall. There was a third entity that I couldn't see, but was with me, everywhere. I could only assume it had to be God. 92b/641

51. All of a sudden a firm father-like voice told me "You must go back, you cannot stay here." It was not an evil voice, just firm, as I was the type of person that would likely not listen to a softer tone. This voice I listened to and remember almost instantly becoming present again in my body, but it was only my head, near were some would call the third eye area that I was present, like my soul wanted to just sit there because my injuries were so bad. [Did you meet or see any other beings?] I did not see the being who I believe to have been God, but I definitely heard him, that's for sure! He told me in a stern voice that I must go back. 98b/3740

52. And heard a voice coming from underground saying “There is GOD, There is GOD, There is GOD” (I still can’t remember if the voice spoke Polish or English). The word ‘ecstasy’ describes the feeling best. Apart from ecstasy I also felt great awe for God. I went further till I reached a tunnel and rays of sunlight. I knelt down and I felt God. 100b/1002

53. After some time, a woman appeared. I can’t remember if we talked. At one point, a light door appeared in the wall and the woman asked me to come with her through it. We were to be back soon. 101b/1089

1. I [A] calming voice told me that everything would be explained when I arrived. I trusted this voice. Arriving at the end of the tunnel I was greeted by a man who looks pretty much like I do today. He brought me to the edge of whatever I was standing on and when I looked into the inky blackness, all sense of time vanished. There was no past, present or future. Only everything all at once. I felt a tremendous understanding of the nature of the universe and my place in it. He showed me what looked like a huge white obelisk floating in the blackness. As I looked at it more closely, I saw that the surface was moving. It was a giant puzzle and it looked like it was being solved. He showed me my place and how the puzzle was re-arranged with each action by anyone on earth. Some of the puzzle had already fallen into place and I knew that something wonderful was going to happen when it was complete. Of course, I don't remember what it is but I still look forward to it! I was then sent back to my body. Puppet

2. In shock, I was lying on my bedroom floor when I distinctly heard a male voice say, "Get into bed and whatever happens, do not move, even slightly." I used the last of my strength to get into bed and did not move, couldn't have anyway. At this point, the voice, no longer audible but what I'd call telepathic, instructed me to concentrate on a fuzzy red line in a black void. As long as I concentrated on this flickering red line I'd maintain a foothold to life. ... I realized that I had many agreements for working with people, and that leaving my life would force me to do the whole thing over later, it would selfishly harm a good number of people if I died at that point, and doing the work I needed to do would be much more difficult in another life. In other words, though I had no desire to return to my desiccated, disease-wracked body, I really had no choice in the practical sense--it was the only sensible option to return. The voice accepted my choice and helped me throughout the experience, as needed. I woke up 42 hours later. Masha

3. After that I started floating toward a tunnel. It was very long but the light on the other side was unbelievable. I was in so much bliss going toward the light. The feelings I had felt was so loving and peaceful, nothing like I ever felt on earth. I really wanted to go and never come back here! It was pure joy peace and bliss, but I was told I had to come back, my purpose was not filled here. I started floating back. Next thing I remember looking down at my body with all those doctors trying to bring me back, and me fighting for them not to! Donna

4. I then sensed a presence. I had the knowledge that this was Jesus, and he was assuring me that everything was fine. I felt total love from this presence. I was home. More so than I was ever home before. I was presented with a sense that all questions were to be answered if I stayed. He then presented me with an option ... . Rob

5. When I had totally slipped away, I felt bathed in a wonderful light, as though I was being hugged by it. I felt totally safe, that all was forgiven, and I was very, very loved. Cheryl

6. A cloudy gray mist formed around me that had sparkling white pin points of light within it, and I seemed to float higher and higher when I saw a bright white light in the distance. ... I desperately wanted to get into that incredible light. I could not, however, get past the gray mist which had accompanied and surrounded me. It held me back. MJ

7. Two "beings" appeared whom I call angels. They had no emotions nor did they communicate to me. I just went with them. ... However, I soon adjusted to the light and it was then that my "escorts" disappeared. Suddenly I looked up and saw a brighter light hovering above the waters. This light drew me upwards right out of the water into the "sky". Face to face with this light was an experience I shall never forget. This light was a person! I never saw a face, however I had the knowledge or inner vision of a face. This face was smiling and very happy to see me. The peace was not to imagine. Then I knew what this person was saying: " I Love You." I looked behind me to see who this person was speaking to and then realized the person was me. I begged to stay there; pleading like a child to one's father. The person of light began to weep and without seeing his face I knew that he too was telling me that I had to return. Debbie

8.    However, my experience was this: I realized I was in a very bright office with a man in white standing at my side and an administrative type, all in white, at a desk. This person began to ask me many questions about my life. I knew I was very ill & the minute I thought "WHY is he wasting time asking me all these questions?"--the other person began pushing me on a gurney down a long hallway. I got up & began to walk along beside the gurney & suddenly realized that half of my body was walking 'through' the wall. This scared & disoriented me.
    I followed the person toward an ER room & watched the doctor & nurses begin to work on this very ill woman. I didn't recognize the body as mine.
    Then it seemed as though I were standing on a diving board which projected out from the body's feet. I could sense many people around me, encouraging me to jump, to not be afraid. I looked down into a stream which was strewn with boulders. I looked up at the wall & could see a hand holding a reel of movie tape...another hand began to pull the film away from the reel & I could see it was my life. I thought very vehemently NO WAY, and then saw many particles of light in the corner of the room begin to gather together & form a person's shape. A believer in Jesus & angels, I immediately realized this might be "the end" for me & said NO!!! Immediately, I was thrown back into my body. Dixie

9. A man on the other side asked what I wanted. I told him I needed to pass through the gate. He said, "No Don, it isn't your time." I said "But I feel I have to go through!" He again said, "No Don it is not your time yet, go back to your family." Don

10. I hear a voice. Not with my ears, but in my head, I couldn't see a source, but I knew exactly what point space the voice was coming from and I knew, it was directed at me. In fact that point in space was watching me closely. I couldn't see it with my eyes, or hear it with my ears, I just knew. And it all made perfect sense. This voice then invited me to walk forward. It said that if I took on step forward I would be able to feel that way indefinitely. It seemed like the right thing to do. I didn't even think about it, I just lifted my foot and started to step. Then the source of the voice looked away from me, at a dark haired female. I had not seen her before, I don't even remember if I saw her with my eyes or only in my mind. All I really remember is that the voice was now looking at her and she had very dark hair. The voice then instructed her to go back, that she wasn't ready yet, and I stopped.
I told the voice that I wanted to go back with the female, and to help her. That I wanted to feel pain again, that I wanted to feel alive, and to laugh, and to cry, and to hurt if I had to. ... I was ripped back into my body. Dunning

11. Anyway, to my right was someone very awesome, a male. This big love seemed related to this being. I didn't know who it was but I was very awestruck. First.Last

12. .....I recall someone taking me by the arm and directing me into the building and to a room---my room-to-be!....my room, for the stay. I am then told, "the rules"---this place is called "THE YOUNGER CENTER"---one grows physically, bodily, younger here. I must have given my guide a startled look...he repeats---that people, as they take full advantage of all the wonderful SOUL-GROWING programs, here---they grow younger in age!!!.....and in fact, I am told...that this center is where one FILLS OUT all those dimly awakened dreams-of-creative-longings-for growth, but-were-not-done...while one was still living upon earth. [[like a remedial school class, for the classes missed]]. Freestone

13. The classic NDE experience of rushing through a tunnel and moving towards a bright light surrounding an approaching `being' who urged me to return to my life and family since it was not my time to die, seemed to follow my deliverance from `hell.' A conversation with the being of light was soothing, and enlightening, then forgotten. Genevieve

14. Now it was so bright that I feared its intensity. I raised my arm to shield my eyes. The light passed right through my arm, more intense than ever. "Stop!", I thought. "STOP, I'LL BE INJURED!" And the light replied, "I will not harm you." These were not words but thoughts which passed between us. Still closer and brighter the light came. I strained to detect its surface but could not. It was about the size of a beach ball, with no discernible surface. I asked, "Who or What are you?" It replied, "That's not important right now. You are not where it is expected to find anyone." Hal

15. A person or St. Peter like thing said I couldn't go into the light until I decided if I wanted to stay. Bummer. I just wanted to ask a couple of questions and rest awhile. Irate

16. The door to his room suddenly opened and a person, clothed in white raiment, drew to his bedside and bade him to arise and follow him. They went out of the room together and ascended up through the air. John was brought to Heaven by his Guide and was placed before the Great Being who was seated on a bright throne of glory. [John Beals gave this remarkable account to a friend shortly before his death in 1796.] John Beals

17. I could see myself lying on the bed. There was somebody beside me, but I couldn't see a face. I wasn't frightened of him. I saw the doctor who was stitching my head turn to the other doctor, say something, then I saw him put his hand in his top pocket. Then I was in another room, with the person still beside me. Joyce

18. Then, from a distance, I saw a beautiful and very bright light. I was drawn to it. In this light, I could hear a voice: "You must go back, it is not yet your time. You will recover--you have much work to do." As I protested that I did not want to go back, I shot back into my body faster than the speed of light. Karen

19. This light got slowly bigger and stronger and I began to feel really warm, almost hot. As the light advanced, I let it engulf me with its radiance and felt the feeling of upliftment. I felt no fear, pain or cold. It was very nice, safe and beautiful. At the split second that I was about to enter the white light, something inside me opened my eyes and shouted "NO! not yet! You have things to do." Kevin

20. Three men. They were wearing robes of some sort, and the one facing me had no face. There was a bright light emanating from where his face should have been. As I neared the men the one facing me reached out and placed his hand on my left forearm and spoke to me, saying "Don't pay any attention to them everything is fine you are with me now". I turned back to these men and my heart became so full of love and warmth and joy that words can't begin to describe how good I felt. Then I began floating back away from them, back to where I entered the room. I had the sensation of floating down into the darkness again, back to my body. Susan

21. I screeched with the fear of meeting the being in the light. I tried to no avail, then being a swearing boy that I was, I screamed JESUS--only this time it was out of sheer desperation and utter hopelessness. Almost instantly I found myself back on the couch, in the same position that I had initially laid. ... Later in life, after other mind opening experiences (i.e., experimenting with out of body projections), I have concluded that the only one who could help me on the other side, was the same one who pulled me from out of the darkness that day 20 years ago--JESUS. Michael

22. While in the hospital, I had a visitation. I believe with all my heart that it was an angel because this "visitor" correctly predicted that I would live. And, he predicted on which days my "case would take a strange twist"...which it did. Had the 'strange twist' not occurred, I would be dead today! ... The angelic visitor told me some other things as well...one of which was to pray for myself..and the weirdest thing is this: I sense I was allowed to live for a specific reason. Although now a shut-in, I am in contact w/people from all over the world via computer! I feel my purpose is to give joy and hope to those who are suffering. Marie

24. I remember feeling as if a tremendous burden had been lifted from me, and remember a sense of another presence. There was something familiar about this "place", as if I had been there before, but more like I had returned from whence I came. Then there was an intense sense of well being, a feeling like immersion in the emotions of love, surrounding from every point. And a sense of belonging, as in one in the same with some divine greatness which binds all matter in the universe. It is very difficult to try and describe the overwhelming feeling of this place. It is vast. I can't find the words, but there is a message which seems to give me the impression, that this place is always here, and is present in all things, and beings. This was the most tranquil and peaceful moment in all my life.
Then the question, it was not a voice as such, but more a "thought" which was not mine. It seemed to ask many things at the same time, and I remember being quite overwhelmed. But I know it asked also if I wanted to stay. I remember thinking about my mom, and parts of my life, and all in a flash, I was asking the "voice" if it would always be like this, and if I could return again, if I went back now. The answer was yes. Mark J.

25. I arrived in an explosion of glorious light into a room with insubstantial walls, standing before a man about in his 30's about 6 foot tall, reddish brown shoulder length hair and an incredibly neat, short beard & mo., He wore a simple white robe, light seemed to emanate from Him and I felt He had great age and wisdom. He welcomed me with great love, tranquility, peace (indescribable), no words. I felt "I can sit at your feet forever and be content," which struck me as a strange thing to think/say/feel. I became fascinated by the fabric of His robe, trying to figure out how light could be woven! ... The Person who first welcomed me came and placed his hand on my shoulder and turned me towards Him, He said, "You must return, you have a task to perform." I wanted to argue, I wanted to stay. I ... was propelled quickly towards the entrance, at the threshold all became blackness, nothing, no awareness. After: I awoke from my coma slowly ... . Rene

26. I told the Being that [I] knew was there, and had to be God, that I couldn't die. "Who would take care of my children?!" And then a voice, not heard with my ears, but somehow within my head, said, "Don't be afraid, you will not die. You will live, and you will live to be with your children." Love, as I never experienced, and couldn't even imagine, was in that voice. And then I was in my body. Saundra

27. I found myself waiting in front of something that I can only describe as a black curtain. I did not have any physical sensations, but I could think and communicate. I wanted to go behind the curtain, but I had to wait for permission. There were three "people" behind the curtain and they seemed unsure about letting me in. I couldn't see what they looked like, just vague images behind the curtain. Then one of them told me "It's not time yet, go back." Tom

28. But I do remember being in the presence of a love like none I have ever known before or since. This love seemed to come from a group of beings. There seemed to be about five, but I couldn't really be sure. All I knew was they were intelligent, they loved me, and they weren't human. They existed outside time, outside the physical world. I felt a peace unlike any other, perhaps "The peace that passeth all understanding." It was indescribable unfortunately. The beings had no form, other than perhaps light. I felt like I was "home". This was where I had come from, this was where I belonged. At that point, all I wanted was to stay as I was forever. I felt as if I was in the presence of God. There was some communication between us. The beings told me (but no words were used) that they loved me. They also told me that it wasn't my time yet, that I would have to go back. Tommy

29.    Soon I was before an old man who reminded me of Father Time. Anyway he had many books that were labeled by planets and by years. The old man looked down on me as he was very large. Compared to my 5' 9" body he must have been 35'! He asked, "What is your name?" I told him my last name only and he opened up the Book called Earth. Another Book appeared from this one and he opened the years 1900-2000.
        After gazing in the Book he looked down on me and said, "You must go back, it's not your time." I remember the wonderfully beautiful feeling overcoming me and thought, "I don't want to go back." He must have heard my thoughts because he said to me, "You have something to do before you can come here." I asked "what must I do?" as he said nothing and closed the Book.
         As soon as the Book closed I awoke in my body. Underwood

30. I was thinking about these feelings when I felt something "move" near me. ... I recognized the "movement" as being the movement of an entity. I "recognized" that this entity had been with me all my life. I don't know if it was what people call a guardian angel or if it was just another disassociated aspect of my psyche. However, I suddenly remembered that this entity had "spoken" to me many times earlier in my life. I had always labeled the communication as "intuition". The "speaking" was clear, yet didn't really involve words (although I *remember* the conversation as words). Anonymous

2. A radiant being in long white robes was there to greet me. I could not discern the sex of the being, or the face of the being. However the most incredible feeling of love surrounded me. It emanated from the being. We were communicating through mental telepathy. I have never experienced such joy. All of a sudden I was back in bed ... . 4d/Feb. 5, 2002

3. I realized there was someone or something beside me that calmed my fears somewhat. ... We waited for someone to come. The three others went into ecstasies as a brilliant figure approached. He/it asked me if I wanted to stay there. I thought that my mother would miss me something dreadful if I did not go back. Assent was given. 5d/Feb. 26, 2002

4. I remember standing (or whatever) in a bright white sort of fog and there was a being (or energy force) on my left. I felt very close to this being (wanting to be with it as one would a spouse, etc.) 6d/Feb. 26, 2002

5. Then I noticed a man standing beside one of the walls. No one was talking in the room and no one seemed to notice that man. But I noticed that he was doing nothing while the others were busy working. He just stood there and stared at me and had a smile on his face. He was dressed differently from the others as he had on a white shirt that was a pull over shirt with a purple stand up collar. I could not see below his waist as there was a metal table in front of him. He reminded me of a "Hippy" of the 60s. His hair was long and black. His eyes were brown and he had a black beard which was of medium length. He had a strange nose which came out of his forehead higher than usual. His dress was different from the others and he wasn't doing anything. I remember thinking "Who is that guy?" ... I realized that the person I saw was not a man but an Angel, and I was too stupid to realize it at the time. I guess that's all and it is the truth. As my Doctor said, "No one is allowed in the room without a cap and gown and a mask on before a surgery." And no one saw such a man except for me. 8d/Feb. 25, 2002

6. The next thing I remember is being in a void. I couldn't tell whether I was in light or darkness. I just remember NOTHING being all around me, except He was about six feet in front of me, standing there. He was silent for a while as if He was giving me time to revel and let everything sink in. When I looked at Him, He seemed to be about the size of a regular man, being he was only about six feet away. Height and everything seemed normal, but in another sense, He seemed huge. Not in size but in glory. Glory was the first thing that came to my mind because of the fact that even though He seemed my size, I kept wanting to look way up, straight up at Him instead of straight ahead-- But I don't remember actually "seeing" anything larger than a man. 9d/Feb. 25, 2002

7. Then I heard a loud voice tell me to put down the drink, stop drinking. I was startled. The voice was very assertive and powerful. I listened and put the drink down. I then felt a window open up in the back of my head and air started rushing through it. I started to feel myself falling, though my friend later stated I was perfectly still. I could still hear the voice. She was telling me I was going to be alright, things were going to be okay, I was safe and didn't need to be scared. I felt very calm even though part of me was terrified of what was happening. I had no control anymore. I couldn't move. I was trying to focus on something to keep me here, but I continued to fall. I could feel my heart stop beating, my body became numb and cold. Everything became dark and suddenly I was falling through a tunnel. It looked very futuristic, like something out of Star Wars, with lights zooming by me at warp speed. I could see images at the end of the tunnel, but none of them were clear enough to distinguish. They seemed very far away, but no matter how much I kept falling, they never got close enough for me to see. The voice was still reassuring me that everything was going to be alright.

I suddenly felt jolted back into reality, literally like I had been thrown. My friend was shaking me, asking what had happened. I said I didn't know. The voice told me to tell my friend that if it started to happen again, to get help. She was scared, but I felt surprisingly calm. The voice told me to tell my friend to start writing what was happening down. I had a notebook in my backseat and told her to grab it.

I then began to have a vision of a street with cars driving down it. It was in a city, there were tall buildings all along the right side. All the vehicles were white, cars, trucks, vans. They were all moving very fast. I became aware that at every intersection there was a green light with a red left turn arrow. Then I saw an image of a dark car with a dark figure standing at the passenger window, as if talking to someone inside. The figure got in the car. For some reason, I felt afraid of this scene, the car and the figure. Then the voice told me to stay away from the dark cars and dark figures. The images stopped.

I decided to try to talk to this voice. I asked her who she was, if she was god. She told me she couldn't answer me, but that I would learn on my own. Then I looked to the sky and saw an image of a smiling woman with wavy golden hair. Underneath her were stalks of golden wheat. She was glowing, emanating beauty, peace and love. I had the feeling that she knew everything, from the past to what is yet to come.

I decided to ask her a stupid trivial question, that only a teenager could think to ask at a time like this, what was going to happen between me and the guy I'm seeing? She laughed softly and said that she couldn't tell me that either, but that I had a gift and if I learned to use it, then I would know. I became curious about this gift. I asked her what kind of a gift it was. She told me that I had a power, something that I was born with, and that it was time that I learn how to use it because I was sent to give a message. She told me I was special. I had a purpose, a reason to be here. I was beautiful and strong.

Life was beautiful, everything was beautiful. Everything had a reason and a purpose. Everything was happening for a reason, from the moment I was born. Everything down to the people I had met and places I had been. I have always believed myself to be a little psychic, but always been sceptical. Now I knew, it was all real. It was in me and greater than I had ever imagined, I just needed to learn how to use it.

The woman told me that it was starting now. She told me to tell my friend to begin to write down every word that came out of my mouth, and everything that she herself was seeing, feeling, and experiencing. The voice said my friend was going to write a book. That's why she was there. That's why we were together as friends on this earth. My friend was confused, but obeyed. I felt as if I was slipping into a trance-like state. I began speaking. I could hear my voice, but was not consciously aware of what I was saying. I slowly began to feel myself having control over my body. I could feel the presence of the woman disappear. I began to cry hysterically, not from fear, but joy and confusion and helplessness. We had a purpose, I had a purpose. Somebody really did care about me, love me. These were incredible concepts for me, someone who was raised an atheist, but found her own way into certain aspects of paganism. 10d/March 26, 2002

8. There was another there with me, a guide, who was answering my questions. I knew she was female, and had been in her twenties when she died, and she was blonde. I knew that she was my guide on this side. ... My guide had a golden-greenish tinge, like masses of undefined energy. ... I believed that I was going to be there forever. I thought "I'm dead, this is where I will be now." But I felt myself pulled back. No one was more surprised at this than my guide. I believe that she didn't know that I was going back. I felt the heaviness and the disease in my body as I re-entered. 11d/April 4, 2002

9. Above and around the door was a moving ghostly white fog (Holy Ghost?) As I moved toward it a woman appeared within the lighted door frame, and she was either waving toward me or to someone in the light. I saw large light waves kaleidoscope into the darkness and smaller ones kaleidoscope off a large diamond ring on her finger. I was moving toward the light getting closer and closer, seeing clouds and blue sky (?) on the other side. Suddenly I was pushed and found myself awakening in the hospital with a frantic doctor over me. 12d/April 4, 2002

10. Then I remember someone, a being I guess, not really a face just a presence; and, with no words, stopped me in my tracks and let me know I had to go back. It wasn’t time yet. The presence gave me the greatest feeling of unconditional love I have ever felt and sent me back without ever speaking a word. 13d/May 5, 2002

11. Rose up in a ray of light, until I was asked, "Do you believe in God?" I answered, "Yes," and had to leave the light. 15d/May 30, 2002

12. I still feel a very real presence was all around me. I was not alone! 16d/June 10, 2002

13. And that I remember someone or a feeling to go to the light or something bad might happen. ... I was lying on someone’s lap. I was lost and scared. Wondering who this person is where I am? 17d/June 16, 2002

14. He was walking with His two disciples and I wanted to go with them. He suddenly turned around and with his finger motioned to me to come to Him. ... I wanted to go to where I was beckoned to come - I felt angry that they brought me back. 18d/July 27, 2002

15. I became aware of human forms off to my left with one standing right beside me. I could not make out features as it was to bright behind them. The person beside me put out his hand over my crossed hands on my chest and said to me, "You have to go back, your time is not yet." I argued with him saying that it was to beautiful here and I did not want to go back. He then said "Yes you have to go back, you have a wife and child, you have to go back" 19d/Aug. 12, 2002

16. There was another person there, a male. He was holding out a white coat towards me saying if I wanted to be with her then I had to put it on. The coat was like the dentist's, whereby you put your arms in first and it fastens up the back. As I began putting my arms in I felt frightened and quickly pulled them back out. I then "traveled" approximately 6 feet above the ground down a path with tall trees on both sides. Everything glowed with silver light; rocks, trees, plants etc. I then woke up in my bedroom. 20d/Aug. 25, 2002

17. I heard a voice tell me, I could “not remain” there, I would “have to go back." I asked “Why not?” and was told that I would “have to finish what I had started out to accomplish." I acknowledged okay and was back in the rack. 21d/Aug. 25, 2002

18. I ... realized my heart had stopped. That was a strange feeling all by itself. I found myself out of my body and in a new environment. A dark haired gentleman met me at the door of a very large complex and invited me in. It wasn't a dream. I remember every detail still, 10 months later. He took me through the building and showed me different areas. He showed me a classroom and I saw a few people sitting at desks. He took me to a room filled with ball gowns and he showed me a rack of them that belonged to me. He took me up on a roof and showed me many people out there. I told him I felt great fear in the people. He said they had come from the September 11th incident and they wouldn't come indoors yet. He took me to a room that looked like a lodge kitchen. It had lots of card tables and a stove and cooking area. There was a grand looking gray-haired man making baked goods. I believe he was the head of the lodge or wherever I was. He looked like a fit Santa Claus. He was very loving and smiled at me. He communicated telepathically. He showed me a vision of my ex husband hiding stocks in the sand. Then, I was sent back. 23d/Sept. 8, 2002

19. I also noticed a boy (about in upper teens) waiting by the coffee table. He kept trying to hurry me along with my mom. I kept saying things like (please excuse my French but I'm telling you the whole thing) “---- off and give me another minute!." ... (The whole time that boy is with me and telling me we had to go). ... I remember being told that I was very much loved and believed in many wrong people and beliefs. I was shown who was true and who was not to me. I was told that I was beautiful and loved and would be missed. One thing I will always remember is being told how my mom was not ready for this. I was shown what would take place if I were not to come back. 25d/Oct. 13, 2002

20. I'm in another place, walking (floating) with, I think it was, two "beings," for want of a better word. A place of great "light". It is soooooooooooooooooo beautiful. I feel so wonderful. I feel happy. I feel sooooooooooooooo much love. ... We were walking, floating, over a field of wheat. We were "talking." Much talk. Back and forth. I had sooo many questions. I was soooo happy and at peace. I can't say I felt like these beings were old friends, but I had the feeling of love and safety with them. Again, for want of a better description. We talked and talked and talked as we walked. I kept asking questions, and they kept answering my questions, as we kept walking. I'll mention that our talking was done by thinking. But, it wasn't intruding on one's thoughts. It was just the way we talked. We talked just by asking. But, it was all done without our mouths. The part I find sad, is that I cannot remember one thing that I asked or one thing that they said to me. ... Then they turned to me and told me I had to go back. We were still in the place of light. I told them I wouldn't go. They tried to convince me to go back. I was adamant. I was staying. Then, another being showed up out of nowhere. I had the feeling he was stronger, or had more authority than the others. Or was different in some way. He talked to me and tried to convince me to return. I still refused, and was steadfast in my decision. I was staying, and they couldn't do anything about it. I was staying. All of a sudden, there was this force pulling me backward. I resisted with all my might, but it was no use. It was stronger than I was. I kept being pulled backward. It was quick. I woke up in my body. 26d/Oct. 27, 2002

21. I "communicated" with "something" that I did not really see, but it was there and told me that I had to return. I remember that I wanted to stay. (I did not feel any connection with my family and found it completely irrelevant as an argument to return.) It was not my time and I had still to do something on earth. Without telling me what and so, I still ask myself what I have to do. But, it will be clear when the time is there as I was told. Before sending me back I was allowed to ask something and I remember very well. I asked how the universe was composed and it was explained to me in all details. I remember that it was extremely beautiful and extremely simple and said to myself this information I must remember when I am sent back. Being sent back, I remember very well that it was a very painful experience to be put in a tunnel that becomes more and more narrow, and also when dimensions more and more became restricted. I lost control over the information I got earlier (it felt as if my head was crashed). I woke up in my bed and found the earth a terrible dark place that really frightened me at that moment. 27d/Nov. 12, 2002

22. Then I am seeing a woman (she is beautiful with long brown hair) at the end of my hospital bed, and I can see myself lying in the bed. I am confused. I look at her and I am speaking to her and I don't know how because I can see myself in the hospital bed with tubes down my throat, hooked to machines. I am trying to convey to her the dream I had but she already knows and asks me while smiling: "Did you see the light?" I answer “yes." I look at myself in the hospital bed, then look back towards her and she is gone. Then I wake up. 29d/Dec. 19, 2002

23. Then I encountered beings of Light whom I called my Angels. It was awesome. They told me: "You're okay. Everything is okay. Don't worry." And I knew it. Then I woke up several days later, and the nurse and the surgeons could not believe it. I heard them say: "It's a Miracle!" 30d/Jan. 2, 2003

24. I did not want to re-enter my blue body that I had seen lying down there on the white tiles. Then I got a message 'from above' to return and do what was in stock for me. I was given very clear instructions how to live my life and never, never do this again. 34d/Feb. 16, 2003

25. I clearly saw the light and also heard "its not your time." Then I woke up. 36d/March 25, 2003

26. I "remember" being in the room in the light. I "grew" to normal height as I entered. While there, a being (just light) handed me a glass bowl with a white flower floating in it. I looked at the bowl and as I did I had thoughts of my family and dear friends. I handed the bowl back, turned and left the room and the light. 38d/April 23, 2003

27. I encountered these beings. The beings told me that I had to go back, that I had things to do back on earth. My Father died when I was 11 years old, and I sensed his presence. It seemed to me that there was a separation between me and where my father was, an abyss? When I regained consciousness, I was telling everyone about my experience. 39d/May 9, 2003

28. There was a complete dialogue between myself and this unknown source. I "saw/understood" my life’s purpose and how easy it was to achieve. I also knew that death was not an unpleasant place but just another realm. I was asked whether I wanted to "go back and continue what I had started" and I emphatically said, "Of course." 40d/May 15, 2003

29. Figures were only visible from the waist up but they were in a bright light. One figure approached me and asked politely, "What are you doing here?" Telepathy. I suddenly wondered what I was doing there. Next thing I knew a nurse woke me up to tell me I had a girl. 42d/May 21, 2003

30. I had a very odd feeling sweep through my body; it started at my feet and moved up. I knew I was in trouble. I tried to scream. I saw a woman by my bed. 44d/June 2, 2003

31. I was also not alone, there was a being behind me coaching me as what to say to my brother. I watched as they put me on the stretcher and carried me down the stairs, they were hurrying, and my body was flopping around. I thought that was funny, until I saw my face. I looked peaceful. Now I was afraid. I turned to the being and he pointed for me to look, as I did I saw the ambulance driving away. I saw the doctor put a tube in my mouth. I couldn’t hear any more now but, the being wanted me to watch. I felt a pull, a strong pull from beyond where I was, I didn’t want to go. The being pointed and no words but I could hear it speak, “go now, you are not done." The pull hurt like being slammed into a wall. I woke up 3 days latter strapped to the bed. 47d/June 2, 2003

32. I began to feel a presence beside me. I didn't look to the side, because I didn't need to - I knew it was God. I said, "God, who's going to raise my babies?" There was a bright flash of light - like I was in the middle of a lightning bolt - and then I don't remember anything until the next day. I opened my eyes and saw bottles and IVs hanging above my bed. 48d/June 2, 2003

33. And then a voice said, “it's not your time yet to be here." And then I woke up. 49d/June 2, 2003

34. I was "dead" for eight minutes and CPR had to be performed. I remember a man in a hat. He was standing in the doorway, almost leaning a bit with his arms crossed. He was just looking at me but I could not really make out a face. He was pleasant and I felt comfortable with him. We talked, but at this point I can’t remember much of the conversation. He came and went over the next few days. I was not sleeping much because I was waiting for him. My mother happened to be there and she told me that a pastor had come and spoke with me, and I do remember him, but they were getting confused when I spoke of the man in the hat. I would tell them about meeting with him and they would assume that I was talking about the pastor. I spent over 40 days in the hospital. When I went home I had other visions of him but kept them to myself. I don’t know why. 50d/July 24, 2003

35. I dosed off. When I woke up, I saw a guy sitting at the end of my bed; I couldn't see the face. I thought it was my dad so I said "Dad"...and he looked around...He was faceless! The guy had NO FACE! I screamed. He got up and said to me "come with me" and put his hand forward. I was screaming and refused to go but to my amazement...I was moving. We both started flying and up we went. I realized I was up near the hospital roof and could see myself lying on the bed down below. Next thing...we were in a dark eerie place. I was standing in a pew with a few people. Then someone pushed the two ladies in the front in a ball of fire. The guy who pushed them was so tall, dark and very scary. We moved to another pew and 2 people were pushed to a BIG SHARK who started eating them. I saw big glasses breaking etc. Then next I know is, I was back on the hospital roof. I could see lots of nurses and doctors around my body doing something. I started falling down, and in I went into my body! 51d/Aug. 11, 2003

36. Next I felt I was being pulled somewhere, I resisted, did not want to go "back". I also heard female voices chant "come back" (in Finnish I think). Despite my resistance I felt/heard a metallic zzzooom type of noise/sense. After this I felt hard cold tiles beneath me and heard normal voices. 52d/Aug. 11, 2003

37. All the time there was a being with me, I realized that it always had been with me! But it was disappointed in me. I had the choice to go into that tunnel, but I felt my life would be a failure if I had chosen to do that. 54d/Sept. 2, 2003

38. I didn't see or hear anyone or anything but the clouds and the beautiful blue sky, but somehow I knew it was God lifting me up and I was in his hands. 56d/Sept. 28, 2003

39. Suddenly I was in a round Greek style temple that was not roofed. Jesus was before me and I was aware that there were 70 other people there to work with me. There was a mist that hid their faces from me, though I could see Jesus quite clearly. I was aware that each of them was working with me in my soul's growth and various karmic matters I had elected to work on during this body's sojourn. Jesus informed me that I had completed the work I had come in to do, and had "channeled" the 3 souls who would affect the future <my>. I could now stay with these beings, or I could take on another assignment and return to the earth plane. I don't usually make hasty decisions, and "he" knew that. I told him that was ridiculous. I would need time to consider the pros and cons of both scenarios, and that earthly body wasn't going to last for long. He laughed, snapped his fingers and my 3 children were standing before. I instantly knew that I had the "keys" that would unlock their memories when it was time for them to awaken, but that their father did not. If I opted to stay, they would have to come into the body again in another life to fulfill their destinies. I look at Jesus and said, "That's really unfair!! You know I can't leave them to come back again. This is emotional blackmail!" At which he cocked and eyebrow at me and laughed again. Then he responded, "But you do want them to succeed this time, don't you?" I replied, "Yes, you know I do. But I have a condition. If I go back, I want to be allowed to heal people. Not just their bodies, but their souls too. I want to awaken them to their soul's potential and Truth." Jesus smiled and answered, "As you desire, so shall it be." I awakened to my anesthesiologist cursing up a storm. 58d/Nov.11, 2003

40. I felt a presence next to me now, I could not see anyone but somehow I knew someone was there. ... I could still feel the presence of someone next to me, almost as if they were mentally telling me where to look next. I found myself compelled by this guide to look at the figures that were now becoming more clearly seen in the middle of the room. I could now see that they looked like a choir of black robed beings, seated on tiers like a choir stands on when they perform. These beings were not looking back at me, instead they seemed to all be looking the other way. Just as I thought to myself, "I wonder who they are?" They all turned toward me at the same time, a powerful light beamed out from where their eyes and mouth would be. They had no faces, just bright beaming light streaming at me, through me, into me. At that very instance I felt a powerful exchange take place between me and the beings of light. I felt as if all the answers to all the questions I had ever had wanted answered, were answered simultaneously. It wasn't like I knew any one specific answer, more like I just knew everything there was to know, ever. I also had the feeling that as I received this knowledge from the beings of light, I in turn gave to them all the unique experiences that I had accumulated from my time alive on earth. They gave me what they had, and I gave them what I had to contribute. It was very pleasing to do this exchange. I felt completely free and content. After the exchange with the beings of light, I felt myself float up and over the room. ... I found myself back at the entrance to the room of the beings of light. Something felt wrong; I wondered what had happened. I felt a presence of my former guide meeting another entity in front of the beings of lights choir stand. They seemed to be having a disagreement about something; I had hoped that it was not about my being here. I couldn't tell exactly what the problem was but I sensed there was a very serious one. I had the sense that I was being brought back to life back on the earthly plane, and that this entity talking to my guide was not happy about this turn of events. I was beginning to get a bad feeling about the whole scene taking place in front of me. I was indeed being brought back to life on the earthly plane, and I was to leave this wonderful place. I felt that this entity was not happy at all with the doctors who were saving my life, and neither was I. I wanted to stay, but I knew I would be going back. And back I went. The next thing I am aware of is the beeping of my heart monitor. 59d/Nov. 11, 2003

41. I wanted to keep floating upward forever! That's when I encountered two "beings of Light". There was no form to them, just ovals radiating a soft peaceful white light. The spirit on the left said, "You can't go any farther, you have to go back." I told the spirit "No, I don't want to go back. It's not what it was supposed to be." The spirit, even though speaking in a soft female voice strongly repeated, "No, you have to go back." I again argued that I didn't want to go back. Then the spirit on the right, in an even gentler tone said, "No Joe, you have to go back. There's something you have to do. It's going to be all right, you're in a different place now." That's when I started floating back downward and re-entered my body, opened my eyes, and started to breathe again. 61d/Nov. 11, 2003

42. I do remember being with three others, one in the middle was a little above the two, on one side was my brother, who died at 11days, the other was my grandpa. I don't know how we got there, but it was such a beautiful color blue surrounding, not ground but not like we were hovering. We talked a lot, but I can’t remember our mouths moving. I paid [attention] mostly to my brother, his clothes, his hair, how tall, but can not remember the one in the middle. I know he said a lot to me, but I don't know what. My sister says when I first opened my eyes I said "God says I'm a ••••• and won’t let me stay." 62d/Dec. 11, 2003

43. There was a figure off to the left side of this door. To me it looked transparent, the color of liquid coffee held up to the light. It was the shape of a tall, thin person in a long, hooded robe. It seemed more transparent in what would be the chest area and I could not see a face or any detailed features. I know my father saw his mother. I felt his joy, his sudden childish freedom. The freedom to express the abundant love and joy that only innocent children seem to have. ... I watched as my father moved in front of me (up to now he had been following me) and moved like a child running toward this figure. ... My father and the figure were just entering the light. My father said "Bye honey, and thank you." As they entered the light, his breathing slowed; I knew the breathing would stop. I watched them move further into the light and heard the final breath of my father’s body. 64d/Dec. 11, 2003

44. Archangel Michael came to me and said "You have another school to go to; don't worry, you will continue on with your college." He escorted me to a magnetic tunnel where Jeshua (Jesus) was waiting for me, who comforted me. I then found myself at the door step of a type of school, where there were a few students learning geometric shapes and physics with the accompanying healing energy involved. I thought the better way would be to directly go to the energy that is involved in the healing, direct from Source. At this point, Mother Mary came in, and motioned for me to follow Her. She asked my thoughts about what we were learning, I told her it would be best to go right to Source for the healing energy. She said she had something for me to look at, so I followed Her out of the class. I first sat in a healing chair to help my physical body heal on earth. Then we went to a vault that held information from souls’ life cycles and growth. I was told I could have access to this information whenever I desired, it was important with the process of uncovering the dense dramas on earth. We also looked into a type of screen, that reminded me of a TV screen, and I saw a gathering of people in a field. They were all releasing the density that held back Unconditional Love, then holding the Light within and living within Peace above the dramas. After one man cleared himself out, another individual came up to him who was also cleared, then they shook hands. Both bringing the Reality of Peace into their creative engagement, they both shared Light instead of any fear thoughts or actions. At this point, the Light streamed through them, all the density was then released into the Light. "It's gone! It's all gone!" I exclaimed! “I can see how this works, but who will believe me? I'm a nobody, my dad was a carpenter in Washington and I'll be a small town chiropractor. I think you should get somebody else! Besides that, I'm a bit shy!" 65d/Dec. 11, 2003

45. Then at 11 o’clock, I saw the most beautiful man I have ever encountered in my existence. He was dressed in dark, very elegant wear; his shoes were of patent leather, and his white, ruffled shirt shone like the sun light. I fell in ecstasy and said: "You are God... I want to kiss Your feet!" As I saw myself kneeling before His feet, that shone as well, they were bare. ... Right at that moment I felt sucked back into my physical body, and then realized that again all was dark, very heavy, and the pain of my body was unbearable. My first word, only one, was: "S...!" My husband said: "I beg you pardon?" 66d/Dec. 29, 2003

46. The clouds seemed to part enough just to show a hint of a shadow of two people. It seemed to be a man with a woman standing by his side. I didn’t feel as if I knew them, but I felt as if they were waiting for me for a reason. Just as the clouds were about to thin out enough for me to see clearer, they abruptly thickened and closed up around the couple. All I could see again were the clouds passing by me in the light. I wondered why the clouds thickened up so fast just as I was about to see who was there. At that same time, I realized there was someone right in front of me. The clouds also thickened around that shadow so I could not see him. There are no words to describe the incredibly intense love I felt, standing there in front of him. No one could ever imagine a love so powerfully strong. At that moment, it hit me. I was in heaven standing before our Lord. As I stood there before Him, I felt that He knew every detail of my soul. I felt dumb that I didn’t realize the gates I had passed through were the pearly gates until that moment. My eyes turned away for a second and looked down to my right. I didn’t know if the light was just so bright or if I felt unworthy of such wondrous love. It seemed as if He could hear my thoughts because I heard, “Fear not; for thou art worthy of my love.” As I heard those words, my throat grew tight and my eyes swelled with tears. I thought, “Are you sure?” With each question came an answer and reassurance. It seemed as if my whole life was reviewed and clarified in a flash. If I could only choose one word to describe our Lord, it would have to be “Love”, an indisputable love. I don’t know how to explain it. I couldn’t see Him through the clouds and light, but I felt His love so deeply. He was right there in front of me, so close to me. I felt incredible love, power, and peace in His voice, but I don’t know if He actually spoke. It was as if we felt, heard, and responded to each other without the need to speak. I was told I had to go back; I wasn’t supposed to die when I did; and I had more work to do. In addition, I was told that I had to protect my husband and son from someone. 69d/March 4, 2004

47. Something "spoke" to me but it was like the words were given straight to my conscience. The things it (god? I don't really know) told me were "New Year, New Birth." I knew it referred to me dying, and that I was to die that night no matter the circumstances. The second thing it "explained" (and this is one thing I am still trying to grasp it's meaning, but nothing makes any more sense to me). It "said," "In heaven (obvious god or Christian reference), what you need to understand is you do not need eyes to see." The rest I knew just from a "knowing” that came with it's messages. The only thing I understand about the second message is it is something I am supposed to share, because so many people don't understand the concept of physical life and non-physical life. ... Then I was back. Boom! My eyes opened. 71d/March 4, 2004

48. Then I sensed something in front of me and heard a voice (thought) encourage me to look at my life. I didn't want to do that since I was enjoying my experience, but did so anyway. I looked over my life and saw incidents that quickly showed me that there were things I had to do. I said "I think I got a lot of work to do," to which the reply was "Well, you had better get at it." I then found myself back and awake. 72d/March 4, 2004

49. Then I heard a firm but pleasant voice say to go back. I saw the nurse in my face, screaming at me to breathe. 74d/April 13, 2004

50. As I was floating towards the tree I could hear a voice say “you can't go now.” I stopped and looked around, but I don't remember seeing anyone, but I felt someone. I remember saying, but not speaking, “I don't want to leave.” I could hear the voice in my head saying “not now, your children need you, look up.” I looked up and I could see my two children and my husband reaching over a mountain trying to grab my hand. I seem like I was at the bottom of this steep cliff. The voice told me to go but don't let the hands touch me. At that moment I began to raise up the side of the cliff. I then notice hands started to reach out of the cliff. Just as I was almost at the top, I could see my family reaching for me, and all of a sudden I felt as though I was pushed up and over, and I woke up. ...

This is not the only time I have had a near death experience. ... I was in this very bright place full of warmth and love. I was not alone. I could feel someone on both sides of me, and we were approaching this person with two other persons on each side of person. I felt as though this person was both male and female. As I got closer I could see white. Each person on the sides were very important to the person in the middle, and there was love. The person in the middle had on a bright white robe, and I remember seeing gold ropes hanging from the waist of this person, but I could never see a face. As I approached and stood in front of this person I felt incredible love. I did not want to leave, but I could hear this person say “breathe.” Just as this was said to me, I took a deep breath and woke up. 76d/April 30, 2004

51. The focus of the experience, however, was on a well-dressed professional looking man standing before me and apparently communicating with me. (Although I don't believe that there was any verbal communication, there was perfect understanding.) The person wore a white shirt and neck tie, and appeared as some one who had just removed his suit coat. The entire scene had the impression of informality, but yet being very important. This person seemed to be using a blackboard and white chalk as an aid to his delivery. The most apt way that I have found to convey my overall impression is to liken it to an orientation session for some corporation/business. I remember distinctly trying, during the experience, to put it into proper context. I told myself that I was "dreaming" but, as if arguing with myself, saying, "No, this is entirely too real to be a dream.” Also while the experience was unfolding all the details were vividly clear. 78d/April 30, 2004

52. Then I saw above me, my grandfather who had died when I was probably in my teens. He had a boxer dog on a leash with him which somehow I knew was part of my grandfather's family. He was pleading on my behalf to someone who I could not see as he was hidden, but I knew was God. With Him was a man with a beard, could have been Moses or one of the prophets. My grandfather was looking up to Him and saying, Please... let her at least stay here with me. He kept pleading. Than I saw a review of my life go so fast I couldn’t recollect what I reviewed. I was frightened of my faults, sins and weaknesses but God comforted me and told me I did a kind deed for a little boy once and because of it the boy's life had been positive. He said even to this day the little boy remembers you. (I did not recall this deed in real life.) Then God asked me if I wanted to go with him. I did not have time to think as at that moment He showed me my mother and her future whereas she would have cancer. I felt emotional pain in my heart knowing she would suffer, so I said no, I want to be with my mother because she will need me. At that moment I woke up from the coma and there were all the relatives I had seen when out of my body. 81d/Aug. 20, 2004

53. I heard two voices and tried to turn to look at them when I realized they were in a form of glowing lights, very small. They were everywhere around me but still they were only two beings. I felt their warmth and compassion for me. They were talking and I was hearing without seeing their faces. They were asking each other if she knew. Knew what? I was a little unsettled then, what was I suppose to know? Where was I? Then suddenly they said to stay there, do not move and they will be right back. I saw them fly up to an enormous building or object/satellite and go into what looked like a glass window and then quickly emerge and head right back to me. They said it was not my time and to stay with the pain and it was a mistake. Again they asked each other if I knew the answer. They were very busy trying to find an answer--maybe a formula, it was mathematical. They were looking inside of where I store my knowledge. I did not know it. A moment of feeling I needed to learn, and then a flood of information that I do not remember. They cautioned me again not to move. ... Then suddenly I was back in a tunnel with such force. It is undesirable, and crash a cold hard metal table ... 82d/Aug. 20, 2004

54. Then I found myself elevated into brilliant light, blue sky and light-filled clouds. Someone or something was holding me to their chest like a baby. Even though I could not make out faces or forms, I just knew I loved, loved, loved. There are no words for the feelings of love I received and felt. This was no earthly experience, that is for sure! There were also light beings or angels that surrounded me, and they were singing and reciting the most beautiful poetry. As a poet, I only wish I had a tape recorder. ... In this state, I am aware they told me about my future and my purpose in this life, but in my dense human state, I cannot recall what I was told. I believe that everything has spirit-consciousness, if you will. All life, both seen and unseen, is energy. Energy is life--it all comes from the same Source. We are all One, everything is One, past, present and future. Time is only an illusion, made up to suit our earthly experience. I have dropped all forms of organized religion and find myself open to much more universal truths. ... I am content to live with the mystery now. I live with the bigger picture, meditate, read, study, write, pray. I try to live with as much joy in my life as possible, in spite of being ill. I am much happier. I do not fear death at all. In fact, I believe I won't live to see a ripe old age; still, that is okay with me. I can work from either side of the veil. 83d/Aug. 20, 2004

55. On the night Dad died, I had a dream that has stayed with me to this day. I was in a great concrete pipe, and there was a cloudy light at the end, like a strong sun behind a white cloud. I walked up this tunnel toward the light. As I got closer, I ‘heard’ in my mind that my father had died, but that I would see him again in a long time (when I was about 76). I argued with the voice that my father and mother had divorced. I was again told that my father was dead but that I would see him again. Then the dream ended and I couldn’t get back into it. 84d/Sept, 1, 2004

56. I was being pulled into a white Light. I wanted to get there as quickly as possible, because all of these wonderful, ecstatic, feelings emanating from this Light: UNCONDITIONAL LOVE, FORGIVENESS, EMPATHY, COMPLETE ACCEPTANCE OF ME, DEEP UNDERSTANDING. 85d/Oct. 26, 2004

57. All of the sudden it was like I heard a voice from somewhere telling me to go back; I wasn't ready. The next thing I remember was waking up. 86d/Oct. 26, 2004

58. I came up on 4 different energies with all this other energy all around me. The first energy, Good, moved from up in front of me, over to my left side, looking down on me, facing me from the left. The second, was my uncle who died back 1975, it wasn't his body, but for some reason I knew it was him. The third was my kids’ grandfather who died early that year. It wasn't his body, but I just knew it was him, for some reason. The forth was evil, the devil. These were very, very strong energies. As I was looking up at these energies, with all this other energy around me, I heard the Word of God. Here’s what I heard: ”You are a good man.” "All men have purpose.” "You have purpose.” "White man help the black man.” "Organize.” I started to fall back when all the energies started to line up in a row, in front of me. Right before the last energy (evil) got in line, it showed it's face. First it was the ugliest, evil looking thing, then it smiled at me. As I started to fall, they fell behind me. Evil was last to fall. Back, back, back, back, back into my body. 87d/Oct. 26, 2004

59. There was an urge or a voice that called me and I ran off. ... There were several other revelations such as the origin of man, evolution, the meaning of the holy trinity, souls, my past life, etc., was disclosed to me by a voice. 89d/Oct. 26, 2004

60. I saw a tremendous light at the end of the tunnel - some kind of being was standing there. An angel? Christ? I don't know. This being can best be described like a polished saxophone, with light pouring out from all the buttons. These "buttons" were points or light sources coming out from the "being.” Then, I heard a voice, yelling, slightly distressed - a woman's voice - "Not yet, not yet!” She said this in Norwegian ("Ikke ennå, ikke ennå!"). I was pulled back, with the same great speed as before, and was out of the tunnel. Then I woke up. 90d/Nov. 5, 2004

61. The next thing, I am lying above myself. Three native healers came in a light form. I swear this to you as I sit here now. They mixed herbs and rubbed them on my stomach. One chanted a beautiful deep harmonious song. They stayed and laid their hands on me. They disappeared and the touch again came on my third eye. I awoke in tears of joy and confusion. The pain was gone. 91d/Jan. 3, 2005

62. While looking for 'the light' within this extremely dark void a voice said to me: 'Go back, it is not your time yet'. This is also strange as it was not really a voice I heard, but more like a thought that was running through my brain (consciousness). After this... I woke up ... 92d/Jan. 3, 2005

63. Behind me became bright and I saw a hand. I turned around and looked at myself and didn't turn back around. That hand touched my shoulder. When I saw what was going on in the ER and saw myself, I panicked and started pleading to god, to whomever that touched me, “Let me go back, please let me come back. I have children and a husband that need me! No, not now god. Please not now. My husband is on his way home; he knows I’m sick and he's coming home from Iraq. Please not now.” Even though I felt peace, comfort, and complete love behind me and around me, I didn't want to go. The next thing I saw was the room become bright and the light behind me was even brighter. I remember turning around crying, and I asked, one more time, “Please, Lord not now.” The next thing I knew, I was inside my body again. 93d/Jan. 3, 2005

64. I could hear people saying, "It's a lady in the car and she's dead." I could hear them, but I couldn't move. ... I was floating and it was good. That's when God said, "No! You have purpose." I immediately shifted back into my body. Then God said, "Lift up your head!" I didn't want to tell him that I couldn't, but I thought it. The next thing I know hands from behind me reach up, touch the top of my head and chin, and place my head up in a forward position. Two firemen stood at my doors. 94d/Oct. 4, 2009

65. Suddenly, he [attacker] took his hands off my neck, leaned back, and looked surprised. He put his hands up to his own neck and started tearing at both sides and front of it (like trying to tear invisible fingers away). I felt that some positive element, like an angel, had attacked him to save me. 97d/Defender

66. I came back unwillingly; someone said it was not my time. 99d/Back Unwillingly

1. I could see a person inside the light. The light was bright, but not glaring. It did not dazzle the eyes. It got close enough for me to look at what was inside. There was a very soothing, very strong, but not overbearing thought in my mind that said, “Childing, do not be afraid. We will not harm you in any way.” I thought this is very strange. What is a Childing? I was answered almost immediately with the thought, “In a moment. What do you have to show us?” Anyway, when they said, “What do you have to show us?," around us sprang up many images. I have to call them “images” here, as we cannot describe what I was experiencing. They were 360° around us. It seemed that every thought, emotion, action, and word that I ever had up to then was embedded in those “images.” ... I saw that many of my thoughts created real hard, tangible, and physical things. Many of the things I had done, thought, emoted, acted, with absolutely no idea of any repercussions, where pointed out as rather drastic errors of judgment. Not bad, just errors. Other things were pointed out to be extremely beneficial to me and to others. Things I thought would get me on the greased slide to the hot spot down below were treated with a rather vast, gentle amusement. It seemed to take forever, and was over in a moment. When it was over, I said, “Who are you? You are not Jesus, because I don’t believe Jesus looked like you.” They said, “Childing, we are yourselves of your own far future. We are who you are learning to become. Without us, you cannot be. Without you, we are not. We are who Jesus referred to as My Father.” Now that is strange, I thought. (You need to understand, there was no air there. I was not “talking” in the sense we talk here. Yet, I could talk.) So I said, “What is this all about? What is happening?” They said, “You are here before your time, an accident. As to what this is all about, you are in a physical body to learn to care about others, and to acquire knowledge. That is the sum totality of physical life.” I said, “I saw that many of my thoughts became actual physical things. How is this possible?” They said, “Thoughts ARE things. What you image with emotion is what we must give you in order for you to learn to become us. When you learn to generate a stable image, coupled with firm emotion, we are bound to bring it into being. But remember, there are issues to having this thing.” I said, “Such as?” They replied “Such as, do you have the means to support keeping the item now that you have it? Do you actually, truly want it now that you have it? For example, you cannot image intangible things. Can you image acceptance, or can you only feel it? Can you image love, or can you only experience it? You have much to learn Childing. Do you wish to stay or do you wish to return?” 2e/Childing

2. I am watching between two groups of things happening. On my left side, I view people walking two by two in a very calm way. One is a person who crossed; the other is their guide. I sensed peace and support and they were okay. When I looked to my right, I saw people huddled together in circles. Their heads were all down and I sensed this foreboding feeling, sad and forlorn. I sensed confusion and dread. It wasn't comfortable. I realized that both groups were from the crash. Guides came for the ones on the left and those on the right were having difficulty.

... All of a sudden, I heard giggling and laughing. I looked up and across this lake, river, divide, or whatever and saw these three spheres on my far left. They looked like big cotton balls but ethereal, not dense like cotton. They were so excited to see me. I knew it. I sensed it. ... I was ready to go over and find out what was so funny. They immediately stopped me and said, "No! We'll come to you." In the next immediate second, they were there on my side. They just came in me, all three. They melded into me and I realized how great communication is without words. Mouthing words is so slow. That is the last thing that happened. The next moment I am in the plane and I hear a voice say, "Oh my God there is someone else in there." 3e/Communication

3. Suddenly, I turned around and I came face to face with this light being who looked human. As I looked around there were millions of light humanoid creatures all over the place. This place had no planets or stars; there was darkness and the only light source was the light humanoid beings. When I first saw him I felt as though I knew him. I hugged him; the love I had for him was very strong. He felt closer to me than my own family. As I looked around there were millions of light humanoid creatures all over the place. This place had no planets or stars; there was darkness and the only light source was the light humanoid beings. When I first saw him I felt as though I knew him. I hugged him; the love I had for him was very strong. He felt closer to me than my own family. We started to communicate telepathically. I was telling him that I needed to go back and he replied that it wasn't possible. I saw in his facial expression that he did not want me to go. I told him again that I wanted to go back. He then showed me an image of a young handsome and wealthy couple that just had a baby boy and he told me that I could be born as that baby. The offer was very tempting, but I refused. I told him that I needed to go back to this life. He said if I go back in this time, life would not be the same and very difficult. I listened to his advice, but I willed myself back into this lifetime. While I was willing myself to come back into this lifetime, I remember the female entity told me to bring her children back to her. I then realized that this entity is the one source, the true God. As I left that heavenly realm and came back to Earth, I remember flying in the air and into my body. While in the air looking below at the area of the crash site, I was floating down into my body. 5e/Billions

4. I would open my eyes in the hospital bed and a blue-eyed wolf was next to me. I don't remember getting out of my bed, but I would go down a hall with the wolf. We would get to a door and somehow the wolf opened the door. A blond woman, wearing white was on the other side. I never saw her face. She and the wolf led me down a long dark tunnel. She was on my right and the wolf on my left. I remember holding onto the wolf's fur. I never saw a bright light. At the end of the tunnel, the woman opened a door and I walked out to a large field. It was beautiful. There were trees, flowers, and many birds. There were a lot of people, but it did not seem crowded. I walked up a small hill and sat with a woman who had short dark hair. She was sitting with her knees pulled up and arms wrapped around her knees. We talked. I can't remember anything we said. When it was my time to leave, I knew I would walk back to the door. The woman and the wolf were there and walked me back through the tunnel. Once through the other door, the wolf would take me back to my room. I had this experience more than once because I remember feeling so relieved when I would open my eyes and the wolf would be there. That is why I was trying to go back later. I realized that I could not go back on my own and could only go back if the wolf took me. 7e/The Woman and the Wolf

5. Some were being welcomed with open arms and carefully guided through the transition point and into the wonderful light of the white tunnel; some were being greeted with discussions; and some were being turned back toward the earth plane. When I was met by my own entourage of souls, I could clearly see that they were human, but in this existence were beings of light. They seemed to be the same colour as the electric blue in the first tunnel. I was greeted with a great love and urgency. I was held, and knowledge was imbued into me. I was told, this is not my time, but this was meant to happen. 9e/Home

6. The person who was watching me walked across the bridge and said goodbye to me. 10e/Name

7. Then I felt something wrap around me (draped over my shoulders). A voice came into my ear saying, "Cindy ask him to forgive you." I said, “Oh Lord forgive me." The voice came into my ear again saying, "Now Cindy ask him to help you." I did. At the same time while moving toward the light I heard my mother saying, "Cindy please don’t leave me like this." I was in a great hurry to get to this light, and the closer I came to it the more the brightness took over the door. I couldn't get there fast enough. Almost entering the light, the voice came again and said, "Cindy you have a short time." I was so mad because I didn't get to stay and remember being mad for several days after that. I opened my eyes and saw my family and asked them if I died. My sister said, "No, you’re okay now." I said, "No I died." Then I proceeded to tell them what happened to me. 16e/Hurried

8. After about twenty minutes a man who I did not know came up and told me, "It's not your time yet and you have to go back." 17e/Mother

9. This light up in the tunnel turned into a lightning bolt that shot into my brain and down my spine into my heart, the most intense moment in my life. My heart exploded with energy, beginning to beat again. The intense calm and quiet and the entire state of mind was gone with that flash of energy into my heart. I was lying there, slouched over in the seat of my car. 18e/History

10. I was skipping up a beautiful path surrounded by flowers toward a big gate. I wanted to go in but a man's voice said, "Go back Mary Lou, go back. You are too young. If you come in you cannot go home." When I awoke everyone was crying. 22e/Skipping

11. As I waited, I remembered three sisters or spirits, three others with whom I'd spend a great deal of time. I remembered that they had been surprised and concerned that I had made the decision to live this life. They feared a danger that I couldn't place at that moment. I wondered about them, and wanted to tell them that it was okay, but I also felt strongly that I had to go back. I remembered that I had a daughter, and before I could plead my case for returning, I was told by thought that I would not be allowed to stay. I got excited to return, and thought how much I wanted to remember the knowledge, so I could explain it to others, ease fears of death, and inspire goodness. I thought that maybe I could trick them; I would think of some words that perfectly described the knowledge in it's simplest form, and then remember the words. Then I'd associate the words and remember the knowledge. I came up with perfect words, all is everything, everything is one. I was so happy with my choice of words; I knew that I would remember. Simultaneously, I drew the deepest of breaths into my human body and was hauled from the podium through the tunnel and back into my body with enormous force. I woke up in my hospital room two days later. 23e/All One

12. A voice up in front and to my right said, "Fear not. Do not be afraid." My uneasy feeling went away as I asked, "Who are you?" The voice answered, "Just call me father." In the center of my being I heard, "Christ." Then before me there were images, fuzzy and dark like the scene of the car with my friend and I below. ... Suddenly, I was standing in my mother's bedroom. The dog woke up and I said, "Hampton, it is okay." Then the voice up, in back, and to my right asked, "Is this not your mother?" I said, "Yes." Then my vision was turned to the right where I would see through my younger brother's door. The voice asked, "Is this not your brother?" I said, "Yes." Then in the blink of an eye I was 12 miles away outside my older brother's apartment. Looking down through the concrete floor of the second story and the steel security door of his apartment, I could see my brother reaching out to open the apartment door. Beside him was a shadowy figure. The voice up, behind me, and to the right said, "Is this not your other brother." Thinking that I could talk to the dog, and that my brother is awake, I started to say, "Charles. Get me out of this. Charles. Get me out of this." The voice again said in a monotone voice, "Is this not your other brother?" Again, I said, "Charles. Get me out of this." Then the voice said in a fainter voice, "Is this not your other brother?" I said, "Yes." Then again in the blink of an eye I was taken 15 miles away to my father's apartment. I was hovering in the parking lot looking at him through his apartment door while he sat on the couch reading a newspaper. I was looking through the newspaper at his face when I wondered about his wife. I was told that she was in the bedroom. Then I was asked, "Is this not your father?" I said, "Yes." In an instant, I was back in the darkness where I saw the 360-degree vision. The last one-quarter was quickly scanned. Then I had a sense of front and back. There were voices in a murmur behind me as if eight to 10 people were all talking at once. The voice up and to the right told me something and then to look behind me and to my right. I saw an image of myself in a white robe as if it were hanging on a coat hook. My head bowed down. My right hand held my left wrist at arms length and rested on my belly. As I turned forward, I could sense that the voice was gone. 25e/360º Vision

13. Then I didn't hear a voice, but rather I was asked a question by this entity. It told me if I wanted to come out now I could, or I could go back. No voice, but I felt the question in a big way. I thought of my life and fiancée and decided to go back. Right then I opened my eyes and was still on the rolling gurney, almost in the very same spot as if no time had passed at all. 26e/Infinite Entity

14. I would look down and see a white stone path with people waving; I had a feeling that I knew them. It's like they were waving hello. The path was very light, white and bright. I could see Jesus at what looked like the end, and the path was lined with a huge crowd of people waving. I wanted to keep looking down and go in that direction, but I also felt I should go to the top of the water. I would try to swim to the top, but I would look down and see all those people. They looked so welcoming and inviting. I was torn about which way to go. The last time I looked down I heard my grandmother's voice telling me, "Honey you have to go back now, we aren't ready for you. Maha needs you." I didn't see her, only heard her; she died in 1981. 29e/Pool

15. I came to this space, open space of light and I could see all of these images of people outlined in light. There were no clothes on anyone, and I could not make out faces as male or female. There were no boundaries; it was as open as the eye could see and I could see images of people and their forms as far as I could see. I instantly had no fear. ... I remembered that I never got to tell anyone that I loved them or that I was going. I needed to tell people I was going to miss them and they were going miss me. I was talking again at lightening speed. And then in that instant I was talking I felt like I was being swooshed back but this time I could feel something like a puff of air was being pushed into my lungs and my eyes opened to blinding light from the room. 30e/Filled

16. Then a voice spoke over my left shoulder, a voice so beautiful, full of love and so deep that I will never forget that sound. He said, “Your time is not now. You must go back to your children. They need you.” I said, “I do not want to go back” several times over, and the voice said, “Your newborn baby needs a mother and your other two children need you.” No words were spoken as it all happened telepathically. All I had to do was think about what I wanted to say. I was back in my body and woke up. 31e/There's More

17. I was in a hospital bed in a clinical room that wasn't solid. To my left stood my yoga teacher's wife, Bha, who had died three years previously of breast cancer. Bha was talking animatedly with a blue light being; he was tall and the shape of a man, but he had no features. A neon turquoise blue light outlined his shape and he had lights moving on the inside of his shape like sunlight playing on water. Bha and the light being were laughing a lot. I was aware that my lungs weren't moving and I was trying to make my chest go up and down by breathing; nothing was happening. Bha came over and said, "Stop interfering, let the machine breathe for you, all you have to do is be here." I thought I would give it a go and stopped trying to breathe, I realised that I was still here even if I didn't breathe. ... I was back in the room with Bha and the light being. Bha said, "It's time for you to go back now." I said I didn't want to go back. A vision came into my mind of my daughter crying over my grave. I could feel what my daughter was feeling and I thought, "Ah, she's not ready for me to leave her yet. I'd better go back." As soon as I had the thought, I was back in my body. ... For some years, I would wake at about 2 a.m. and the blue being (Michael) would teach me spiritual things until about 5 a.m. Although I still sense him around me, his presence is not as evident in my life as it was. This has been my choice because I felt that I was becoming too dependent on him to guide me. 34e/Oneness

18. I was in a very bright, white light place. There were angels who looked like people but not anyone I knew. They were down a tunnel. I was on one end and they were on the other. Someone was saying, come the fight will be over, come and you will feel better. The pull toward the "angels" was huge. It felt safe and secure. I walked a bit but below my children were looking up. They needed me. I told the angels I needed to stay with my children. They carried on saying come, come. It was exceptionally difficult to fight the urge to go. It was as if I would have been in utopia, but my children were where I could see them looking up at me. ... I looked down again and immediately turned around and walked back. I could hear them calling my name but it got quieter and quieter. Then I woke up. 35e/Chose Children

19. As I willed myself to the light (that’s the best way I can describe my traveling) someone stopped me. I felt him/her stop me, but I didn’t see anyone. I just felt a strong presence. I will never forget the words spoken to me by neither a male or female voice that said, “Don’t be scared, you’re going to be okay." ... Oh yeah, I forgot to mention one point. The voice…it seemed to know me. That’s the feeling I got. 36e/Someone

20. I felt that I was about to enter into Heaven. Just then, a lady's voice spoke to me, one of obvious authority. She said, "Don't go into the light. It is not your time yet." I remember bowing my head in disappointment. I awoke out of my coma. 37e/About to Enter

21. I was engulfed in a beautiful light. It was all around me and it was composed of unimaginable kindness. It was like being in the middle of the sun. I delighted the sun. It knew what I was like - faults and all but it loved me completely. It was also horrified by what I had done; that is, I had gone there alone and unaided. It didn't know a human being could do that. ... As I walked around inside the sun, I became aware that there was someone else walking around with me. I didn't recognize this person, but I was aware that he was unique and loved me. ... I was walking across a grassy heath with one other person. He was dressed like a soldier or as if prepared for an arduous journey. I was wearing a long, white dress, which was some sort of a mark of distinction. We had been very happy in our time together and we had agreed to meet again. 39e/Sun

22. From ages three to eight, I had an "imaginary" friend I named Mr. Cardine. He would take me to places outside my body and tell me what was going to happen to me and other family members. I could also see other beings, but I could not see Mr. Cardine. When I would be out of my body, I could see people having conversations and I could listen to their plans. It was very hard to understand why other people did not believe me when I would tell them what was going to happen.

Mr. Cardine was very friendly and never frightened me. I thought everyone knew Mr. Cardine and I would talk about him to everyone. Soon I was the target of ridicule and bullying because nobody believed my stories or that I had an "imaginary" friend. My mother got frightened because I was telling her things that happened and were going to happen. Her concern for my behavior prompted her to go to a preacher in the Holiness denomination and he began to tell me that Mr. Cardine was not real. I would tell him things about his life and he told mother to take me to a doctor.

The doctor told me to kill Mr. Cardine and my parents wanted me to tell them when he dies. One day while I was talking to some of the other beings, mother got angry and gave me a spanking and then dad did the same when he got home. Mr. Cardine was the main being in that realm of existence. He could make all the others leave. I could not hear his voice or see him; it was a presence I would feel and the communication was verbal on my part, but I am not sure how I understood him.

I would see many other beings too. Some of them looked like melted piles of tar and I was very afraid of them. They were able to move through walls and I could tell that they had no boundaries, as I knew boundaries. I remember their presence mostly when my parents were arguing or drinking and arguing. Mr. Cardine could make the tar-like beings leave.

The last time I was aware of Mr. Cardine was the day I had to tell my parents he had fallen off the roof, broke his leg and died. He told me to do this and said he would always be with me but I could not talk to him anymore because of the beatings my parents started giving me when they caught me talking to him.

Fast forward to my 39th year. It was 1995 on July 14th that my life changed. I had been breaking out in hives for 21 years and I didn't know what caused it. I ate a peanut butter sandwich and five minute later I could feel the hives starting. One hive was below my navel and it was worse than any hive I had ever had. In the mirror I watched the hive move around my body in a circle that ended back at the origin of the hive. At that time my body felt as if it was on fire. I knew I needed to get to the hospital immediately.

When I got to the hospital I was very faint feeling and I walked in the ambulance door and the staff nurse told me to go to admissions and fill out the forms. I told her I could hardly stand up anymore and requested a wheel chair. After arguing for a few minutes she agreed to take my information. I was seated in front of her and after a few questions I told her I needed to lie down. I heard her saying something and I laid on the floor.

The next thing I knew I was floating above my body and watching it as people were giving me CPR. I heard a voice that said, "Why have you worried so much in your life?" I looked at my body again. The voice said, "What good is it now?" I turned to see who was talking and the ceiling was not a barrier to me anymore. I went through to the outside and I looked in the night sky for the voice's origin. I did not recognize it at first and I found myself focused on a star. The star started to get large and I was enveloped in its light. I looked toward the source of the light and saw the light was coming from a core of colors that were in an oval shape and swirling around in beautiful patterns. Somehow the colors started to form a space and I knew I was supposed to go in that space. I then recognized the voice as it said, "Here is your assured home you built while you were living. Have you finished everything you want in this life?" I thought about my woodcarvings that were not finished. I found myself back in my body that instant.

I could feel the weight of the nurse sitting on my chest and compressing my heart. I said, "What in the hell am I doing back here?" I was then moved to a cubical with a doctor. He started inserting tubes into my arm and talking to me. He asked me, "How are you feeling?" and to stay awake and not close my eyes. I relaxed and I heard the voice of Mr. Cardine. He said, "This is what happens to evil people." Then I saw a man I had never seen before. He had a look of terror in his eyes that seemed to convey that he saw where he was going and why. He then turned to a cloud of light that was colorful light swirling about in the center of the cloud. I suddenly saw one of the tar-like beings and the cloud formed a point that drew the whole cloud into the tar-like being. I saw a woman do the same and several others came in rapid succession. Mr. Cardine said, "This will happen to your mother." I awoke suddenly on the stretcher with the doctor yelling for me to hang on. He said, "You have to hang on, don't close your eyes." I said, "What in the hell am I doing back here again."

I was on the stretcher and a moment later Mr. Cardine said, "We are going on a journey." I saw the composition of the ceiling materials and I found myself moving in darkness. I wasn't afraid because Mr. Cardine was there. We came upon something I do not know how to describe other than to say it was the largest thing I ever knew. It was alive and knew I was there. It was communicating with Mr. Cardine but I could not understand them. We started moving again and suddenly we stopped in the presence of another larger being, larger than the first. They both turned from each other and looked at me. I have never felt anything so good. I felt love. I tried to say something but I was not able to communicate at all. Mr. Cardine and I were suddenly moving and the last thing I heard him say was, "You have chosen life. You will suffer as you help others."

I awoke to the doctor's yelling for me to hold on and wake up. He was slapping me and I said, "What in the hell am I doing back here?" 40e/Mr. Cardine

23. As I walked with a heavenly person, his countenance shone forth with such brightness. I can't even begin to describe it. I knew this heavenly being was Jesus because I recognized him as a familiar friend. He didn't announce who he was because this wasn't necessary. I remember walking with Jesus, but we weren't walking in the physical sense. The best way I can describe our walking is in mid-air, floating a bare spare above the ground of a beautiful garden. ... Jesus stopped walking and looked at me while I was bent over trying to drink this water. I could feel his eyes on me. My thirst for this water (even though I wasn't able to put it to my lips and drink it) was gone at that moment. I can't describe the sensation I felt when the water was running through my hands, but I did feel something. I felt this overwhelming desire to experience everything about this garden. When Jesus and I talked it wasn't with our mouths, but I knew we were communicating. His countenance fairly shone, and how he felt about me shone forth about him. He simply exuded love and concern and caring for me, just by standing there. The feeling of peace I felt was indescribable. I was given the choice that I could either come back to earth and live more life or stay with him in heaven. We both knew that returning to earth would be a struggle because I told him that I wanted to return to earth if I could help others and myself. He knew that I didn't want to live more life on earth if it meant being trapped in an unresponsive body, unable to communicate. The look of love in his eyes filled me with joy then, and as I remember that feeling of joy I felt I'm filled with joy anew. I don't know how I did this, but I was instantly in a hospital room looking at my husband holding my hand and talking to me.

The next thing I remember was being trapped in my body while others cared for my physical needs. I can remember that I could tell what the nurses were thinking about me by how they touched me. Through their touch I knew if they thought I was going to live or not. I knew if they thought they were caring for a basically dead person whose spirit wasn't there. I remember trying to scream out, "Look, I'm alive. I'm in here. I'm going to live." I relaxed and trusted a person much more if I knew that they knew they were caring for a living person. I obviously could read their thoughts. While in my spirit body, I remember communicating telepathically. This is how Jesus and I communicated in that heavenly garden. It was so easy. It required no effort. You thought the thoughts and they were communicated. Speaking through my physical mouth is so difficult and frustrating. Sometimes we're misunderstood; people get the wrong meaning of what you're trying to say. The phrase the world uses of being soul mates is referring to the communication between two souls, spirit-to-spirit communication. To communicate on a spiritual level is a very profound experience. 41e/Communication

24. After I said, "Help me." I felt his arms around me and he said, "Relax everything is going to be okay." I could hear this and my body like it was everywhere. Initially I felt no pain and I could breathe again. I never felt so happy in my entire life. I knew this being was an angel and not God himself. My angel and I were like flying toward this really bright light. The light was getting closer and then and in a second it just engulfed us.

It was thousands of times brighter than the sun and yet my eyes did not hurt. Some how I knew I was home. This light itself had a real feeling of love, like it was alive. I felt this love in my being (very hard to explain). Then, the angel said that he had to go. I didn't feel alone because this light was still there; after a second or two another angel came toward me. I couldn't see him perfectly but he was tall and beautiful. I never saw a man that beautiful in my life. I asked him who he was and he told me that he was my guide. I was in love with him and everything I knew as a boy. I asked him, "Am I dead?" Speaking to my mind he said, "You never die." I didn't understand and I asked him, "What do you mean I never die?" He said, "You never die." and soon I will understand everything. Then he said two words and I got this jolt of joy. The words were like a package of knowledge. I could understand everything and I mean everything.

Then I started to see this movie of my life. I somehow knew I was being judged or something and I remember thinking, "How bad can this be I'm only eight years old?" I was wrong. He was showing me things with a lovely smile. I knew I was in trouble. He showed me the time I scratched my neighbor's car with a key; I could feel how bad this man felt. I was thinking, how many points for that bad thing. My angel knew what I was thinking and said, "Don't worry, that was just a lesson." He then told me, "It's the things that I do out of love that count.

My life was going backward. I remember being inside my mother and then I was this pure light. I was part of everything and everything was part of me. I had this feeling that I was not who I thought I was. Then I felt my mother's pain when she heard the news about loosing her three sons. That was when I started to remember my life as a human being. I stared to remember my beautiful life, the little things like drinking, eating, breathing oxygen, and earth's beauty. I told my angel that I want to go back to earth. He just smiled and told me that my mission was not done. (I still don't know what my mission is.) I told him, "This is beautiful and all but I want to go back." I even forgot about my brothers. My angel told me to forget everything and not to tell anyone.

The next thing I know this tall, beautiful man with dark skin is carrying me out of the water. It was then that I realized he was the one that saved me and took me to what I think was heaven and home. The first thing I saw when I became human again was the beautiful blue sky. 42e/Guided

25. I was aware that behind me were other energy beings, people whom I knew so well, like I had really come home. I felt so happy and wanted to turn around to greet them, but I got the message--there were no words or touch--that no, now is not the right time. I felt them gently guiding me back. I was instantly back in the delivery room. 43e/Lost Connection

26. There was a lady at my left shoulder even with my head. She was wearing an almost indescribably beautiful deep red crushed velvet dress that flowed to the ground (but there really wasn't any ground); I don't know how else to describe it. She had the most beautiful shiny ebony hair, wavy, flowing down below her waist and almost to her feet. I couldn't make out a face but she was the most beautiful thing I had ever seen. This I knew. This I still know. She said, "You can't go. I can't let you go." But, I didn't want to listen. She kept telling me that I couldn't go, that she couldn't let me go. After repeating that a few times, she sternly said, "You cannot go." A tear was rolling down my left cheek and she wiped the tear with the part of her index finger between the first and second knuckles. At that moment I was back in the operating room. 44e/Cannot Go

27. I am writing about my husband's NDE. He told me that he almost went to heaven. God talked to him. His voice was loud like thunder. He was huge and behind a cloud. He said he learned that God was the universe. He is love and never ending. He is in every blade of grass. It was calm and peaceful. He told my husband that he had to go back; his work wasn't finished. He was told God sends us people to help us get to heaven, a handle to God. He told me there were several levels; he was on the brightest level. Below are darker and darker levels. He told me he was in an in between place, "the other side," and people were around him in white gowns, like sitting on a train. He saw his brother-in-law that passed away about a year before. Before this experience, my husband was unsure of an afterlife and cussed a lot. Afterwards, he never cussed again. When he got angry, he would say cuss, cuss. He told his daughter, "Jesus sits on the right hand of God." He never would have talked this way before. He was different. He didn't like violent movies, liked different foods, and was very loving and patient despite his handicap. 46e/Almost Heaven

28, I perceived a holy presence very close to me. I said, "Lord will I go home now?" He answered, "No, it is not your time. Your mission is not complete. You have to return." Immediately I saw my body at a long distance very well and a powerful spiritual hand that touched my chest, exactly over my heart. Immediately it began to work again. In less then a second, I returned to my body again. 47e/Holy Presence

29. I saw flashing lights and heard male voices speaking to me, but I did not understand what they were saying. They were distinctly male and it sounded as if they were speaking all at the same time. The sounds of their voices were not unpleasant at all, just confusing. 48e/Male Voices

30. Then I became aware of a being alongside of me. I thought that it must be an angel because of its appearance. ... I said to myself, so this must be heaven! I notice the angel was still along side me. It seems that he knows exactly why I am here. We communicated telepathically. We traveled along a small road for a while. Right there in front of me stood the entrance to heaven. Before we entered my guardian angel suddenly stopped me and said after my visit here I will have no doubt that heaven exists. So we entered thru the gates into a landscape that seemed like a massive garden of some sort. The grass was so bright, glowing with energy. I noticed we were not walking but floating above the ground. Your movement is controlled with your thoughts. I could not think of any bad thoughts as we could on earth. ... My guardian angel was dressed in a pure white robe and seemed kind of transparent. ... There were countless people there, all dressed in white robes; some were walking in the garden. Others were flying through the air at incredible speed. All around was just happiness in its purest form. ... My guardian angel asked me if I wanted to explore more of heaven. Instantly I said yes. I looked up and could see no sun only a blue sky with clouds. I traveled unbelievably fast. I saw a sudden drop or a steep slope at one location in the garden. When I arrived there I had a scenic view over the scenery that unfolded in front of me. Down below in the bottom of the hill where I stood I could see all kinds of animals and people in white robes playing. There was a river and a pure golden bridge that crossed over it. ... I saw a stream of water that ran along the edge of the garden. When I came close, the water was crystal clear. I have never seen such amazing water before. My guardian angel explained that it was living water. Shortly after that my guardian angel said I should return to earth because it was not my time yet. All of a sudden I traveled back to earth at such a speed, through the tunnel, and back into my body. 50e/Living Water

31. The next thing I remember was Jesus walking me to Heaven. We came out of the darkness into a very bright, white room. I could see the white wall, but I could also see beyond it. There were rolling green fields, trees, blue sky and people. Some people were walking around, some sitting, some conversing, and some reading. I "heard" Jesus tell me that I could go on or I could stay. I understood that he was saying I could go to heaven now or I could stay on Earth longer. I gave a big sigh and told him, "Well, Lord, if it was just me, I am so tired of pain that I would go now, but my husband and son still need me, so I guess I better stay." I knew that he smiled and he said, "okay". I woke up and there was the surgeon in my face. He said to me, "Whew! Welcome back! 56e/Walking

32. Then five shadows began to form in the distance and come toward me, but they stopped. They were familiar to me, but I did not recognize them. When they stopped, I began receiving "thought talk". They were discussing whether I could go with them or not. Eventually I "heard" that it "wasn't my time." I begged and pleaded in my own thought talk for them to take me with them, but they wouldn't. One shadow lingered behind and sent me a message that there was more for me to do. I woke up after two weeks in a coma. 57e/Warmth

33. I saw a hand reaching down to me. I could not see a face. I heard my mother say grab the hand. I don’t know if I said it out loud or not but I knew it was the hand of Jesus. This is the first and the last memory of earth. I returned and have never been the same. It is as if I changed places with someone?? 58e/Hand

34. Then I heard voices that sounded like three or more people speaking to me. They said we’re not ready for you yet. I said, “Who are you talking to?” Then I awoke taking a deep gulp of air. 62e/You Were Dead

35. I heard a booming male voice loudly yell, "You are not supposed to remember this!" The next instant I found myself back in my bedroom. 63e/Back Home

36. Just as I had started walking around this waiting area, something lifted me off the ground. I stumbled over something down under the smoky area. I was inside of it, up to my knees, then I was lifted up onto my back again. I had heard this wonderful, familiar voice, "It is not yet your time to be here. You must go back." I begged it to please not send me back. And that is when it told me I had a mission to do. I begged it to please tell me the mission so I could do it and come back. Then it told me I had to go back and perform my mission when the time came. I would not know what it was until that time. Then it would be my time to be there. I awoke in the hospital. 64e/Mission

37. The Being began to move away. I began to follow, and then I paused. The Being quickly asked me what the thought was that had just entered my consciousness. I had thought that it would be a shame for my daughters to have grown up without their father in their life. I had spent a large part of my life without my father in it, and I would have liked my daughters not to experience that. Anyway, I was ready to go. The Being said that because my reason for wanting to return was somebody outside myself, I would be allowed to return. Before I had the chance to express that I didn't really want to return, there was a rapid, confused movement, something happened, the other spark which had been "observing" was somehow a part of it, and then I was waking up in this body. 65e/Glow

38. I recall some kind of people surrounding me in a circle like form, but I couldn’t make them out. I felt comfortable with them. There was a light behind them in the distance. I remember saying this is wonderful and then being told that I couldn’t stay. I don’t recall any anger at the news. Everything seemed just matter of factly. 66e/Death Wonderful

39. Then a calming voice communicated into my mind the thought, "Yes, but its okay." Then I am immersed, engulfed by total love. I was totally enveloped by this divine presence in a way that I simply can't put into words in a way that anyone would understand unless they had the same experience. All my cares and worries simply fell away. I was given knowledge of various things. It isn't spoken and I wouldn't call it exactly telepathic. Knowledge of many things on different levels simply appeared in my mind instantaneously. It's as if the knowledge of the ages all appeared in my mind at once. I remember nothing further until the hospital. I believe that it was indeed my time to die then, but that God gave me another chance. 70e/Chance

40. Crash. At that moment my spirit flung out of my body, landing like a child at the chest of a much larger being. Without any hesitation I said, with a loud, deep voice and mixed tone of commitment/reason/plea, "I'm not xxx done yet." A second conscious/third being looked on in utter disbelief as if I said to myself, "Who do you think you are staying with this being and not returning to your mangled body?" There was no light, just a dark setting and no pain. A physical spirit--as if in my own body--renewed and I felt the landing against this other spirit physically. I pushed away from the larger-than-life spirit and by doing so must have moved my actual arms outward simultaneously. Once back in my body ... 71e/Flung

41. I was being told it was impossible or it couldn't happen; somehow I was too injured or it just couldn't happen. My overwhelming anxiety for my family was making me fight and struggle against the "sucking in feeling" of the darkness. These were not verbal conversations going on but rather a dialogue I sensed in my mind. The will to fight became more overpowering. I had made the decision to go back, away from the black. The sensation is difficult to describe. I had to make a choice, live or die. I remember a sensation of the darkness rushing away from me and all of a sudden taking in a deep breath. ... That's when I regained consciousness. 72e/Peace

42. During the wait in the ER at some point I slipped away. It started with a darkened area (which was not a void) that was kind of a roadway with different colored streaks and sparks. I had the sensation like I was riding one of those airport level moving things. Then the next thing I knew I was in a kind of desert-like place and I could see a stream of people going toward a building. At that point I knew what had happened and went to the building. It kind of looked like a cross between an old 19th century church and a barn. There were people there (none of whom I knew) and some small animals. No one would talk to me because they were occupied with whatever they were doing. I finally found a badger who would talk to me. I was there for a very long time but he told me that I would eventually go to where I needed to go. I went outside and it was real bright but I needed no adjustment for discomfort. There were large animals and several roadways. I went back inside and was met by an unfamiliar man who told me, "You don't belong here." I was sent away. I went to another place which was kind of a neutral place similar to this plane. I knew I was supposed to take a "class" or learn something. My experiential time was approximately a week although only a few hours had passed here. At this point I woke up from surgery. I had the mental state as though I knew I was going to die and was okay with it.

At some point I slipped back into the experience and found myself in a "class" with several other beings. We were all given a "tool" each of which had different functions. Also, they were in groups of three except for mine which was one being and me. The class took experientially about four months. Half of it was actually at a place for learning how to use this tool and other related matters. The last half was going with my "lab partner out in the field" using our tool. I then went to his home and we built some sort of healing construct. His tool built the construct and mine did the healing aspect to it. Experiential time passage was approximately six months, equal to two or three days here.

I woke up to find at least two people (I think there was a third person out of my immediate vision) beside my bed. The nurse had a big needle and was flicking the air out of it. I felt very disoriented. The doctor leaped back when I said, "What are you doing?" He said something kind of lame like, "It took us a lot of time and effort to wake you up...." He asked me to move this, that and the other thing then asked me questions and pushed me to answer. He checked me over for the next several minutes.

At some point, I don't know exactly when this happened in the hospital, but I met "the lady of the veil" who put her left hand beneath my neck and her right hand on my belly and I passed out. I then went to a place that was kind of like rolling hills of memory foam grass with little flowers all over the place. Some entity like none I've ever encountered was embracing me. Complete unconditional love and acceptance. I interacted with this entity for the next experiential two months. This area was clearly a place where the truly dead can only go and I thought that I was not coming back. I knew that the last place I went to was beyond any "barrier" to come back but something or someone made an exception. Obviously at some point I did come back. 73e/Learning

43. I could feel the presence of a divine source, and indicated my willingness to pass from this world. I realized that this was not the end but rather a transition and I was motivated to explore the future. However, I indicated that if my work on earth was not complete as per my Creator. I was ready to return; but I remember thinking, "We better put the plumbing back together again because things don't look very good." It was at that very moment that I found myself again in the hospital bed. 74e/Natural Continuum

44. I also remember begging to stay alive for my son ... . I remember saying to our great creator, I have more work to do so please let me stay. There seemed to be an agreement with my statement. Our communication was different. It is not the same type of communication we have here. I was not talking. We could just send messages and understand each other (more telepathic in nature). One thing I do know, there is such great, immense love for all of us there. 75e/Between Worlds

45. As I approached the light it spoke to me telepathically. With each word the the light brightened and dimmed rhythmically. At first he kind of scolded me and asked what I was doing there as it wasn't my time yet. I had to go back. I was apologetic and very disappointed. I lingered and stalled as I bathed in the warmth and light of his unconditional love. As I absorbed the light of his love I felt the depth and breath of eternal knowledge and the wisdom of the ages within me. Reluctantly I returned home, but life was never the same. ... I continue to love unconditionally, fly in my dreams and commune with ethereal entities on the other side. I'm convinced that our dreams are the gateway to our eternal personality. 76e/Telepathic

46. I stood suspended in front of two forms of light. The main brightest light form addressed me mentally, saying, "It's not your time yet. You have to go back." Before I heard this, I had been examining my hands and arms, which were a translucent light blue. I still looked normal, but without actual body mass. I had some sense that I was not alive, but it wasn't entirely clear. As soon as I acknowledged what the light form was saying, I was pulled backward down the black tunnel with great speed and noise. It was extremely unpleasant. My arms and legs pointed straight in front of me as I was "sucked" back in the direction I came. I never saw anything else except the beings, the tunnel, and my see-through arms and hands. 77e/Quiet Clarity

47. I looked toward the foot of the bed and saw this evil looking image that was trying to pull me out of my body. I didn't want to go with him. I woke up gasping for air. 78e/Could See

48. My impression was that Mary and Jesus were there in the light to meet me. ... I wanted to return in order to take care of my spouse. I was told ok, but you must continue to love her, even if there is a divorce. I remember learning that all spirituality is good. Not one belief system was better than the other. I remember, people who have suffered injustice by others were generally more spiritual. I remember meeting but not “seeing” someone's brother. I was to tell his sister that he was ok. “Well, how was I to know who to tell.” His name will not be on the Vietnam Memorial, but his name will be on the Vietnam Memorial. His sister is a twin, but not a twin. In the mid eighties, I learned that one of the finance personnel working at the data processing center had a brother who was killed in Laos. His name was not on the actual Vietnam Memorial. However, an Illinois veteran’s organization had a scale model of the memorial. His name was included on the scale model. While traveling on business, I told her that her brother was ok. She was very relieved and said that she had always wondered. He had not been very religious, but had been spiritual. I told her that I was puzzled about her being a twin, but not being a twin. She replied with a smile that, “Oh of course, that’s true. As kid’s, the neighbors always commented about us as twins because of our looks. However, of course, we were not actually twins.” It was time to return. 79e/Time

49. When I "arrived" I remember people around me although no one I knew had died yet. These people were in white robes. They were so alive, more alive then anyone I had ever known before. They had intense light, but my eyes were not like earth eyes and I could see different there. ... These people were complete love. They told me things. Some I didn't remember until later in my life (I forgot a lot due to the molestation I experienced from the man's son and the brain injury). I remember the day I buried the memory of the molestation. I was 10 because I could not handle it at that time). They told me I would not have children, but I would come to be at peace with it. I always knew I could not have children. ... I saw myself starting to become successful and I had glasses. I would get glasses, which I got at the age of 25. They told me that I would have someone very special, a true love to love me the rest of my life. I always knew that I would find that some one. ... They also told me I would be very successful in life professionally and do great things for others. I am now starting to do many things in my profession. ... I think they told me more but I don't remember. They told me I had to go back, although I didn't want to. I wanted to stay in that wonderful place where I would be like them and would get such wisdom. I knew it would hurt so much to go back to my body, but I had to go back. I felt a pull on my whole self and like a zip I was back in my body. (There was blackness all around going back in. There is no difference between here and there. They are here but we don't see them because we are too caught up in the physical world). 80e/Love, Learn

50. These individuals were welcoming me into the tunnel. They were quite pleasant male and female adults. I specifically remember making a decision that it was not my time to pass. I recall pushing off from the river bottom and reaching the water surface with my sister's boyfriend there to catch me. 81e/Water

51. There were people emanating love to me. I wanted to go where they were, but I was viewing the place from a distance. I realize now that I was physically fine and that I could not go there at that time because my body was still in good shape and I was okay with that. I began to become conscious and I did not know where I was. For a split second I felt like I did not even know who I was. I did not know what had happened. The incredible peace I had been feeling began to turn and I became upset. 82e/Emanating

52. Then I found my self surrounded by PURE LOVE and I felt as if I was being embraced by Jesus. I cannot tell you what he looked like but I knew who I was with. He told me it was not my time to be there and I should go back. I did not want to do that. I remember seeing my life review and I was ashamed but when I turned to Christ I was greeted with pure love and I was guiltless. I asked him how that could be and he told me that as a mortal I'd behaved as a mortal and there was no judgment from him. I then asked him why we were not speaking the way we speak on earth and he told me that in the spirit world we communicated through our hearts and feelings so that there could never be any misunderstanding. Again he encouraged me to return because he said that "I needed to raise my sons." I told him that they had a great father and they would be fine, after all wasn't free-agency a part of his plan. A response of great humor and joy surrounded me and he said "I'd expect you to argue for your own case!" I was overwhelmed by how intimately he knew me. Then he told me that he needed to show me something else. What he showed me was my husband's death! My husband died four years later in an accident. Upon seeing this I agreed to return and raise my sons but not before asking for a promise that I could return. I received that promise. Then the savior said to me remember that all you can bring back with you when you return is the love you give and life on earth is about loving relationships. I then found myself entering back into my body opening my eyes and laughing out loud with JOY! 84e/Surrounded

53. I felt the presence of someone beside me, on my left. I knew he was there and without having to look I knew exactly what he looked like. He was dressed in a colourful something or other but what stayed with me was his face. He had long shoulders, brownish-fair slightly curly hair, a longish face darkened by a short beard and the most amazing eyes. They had a colour between pale blue and light grey. Although I knew he was there I never turned toward him. I was intent on going into the light but as I was moving toward it I heard him. "What are you doing here?" he asked. "I belong here", I replied. "That I know but what are you doing here now?" he asked again. A thousand answers were ready to come out of my mouth but before I had time to voice them I knew he was right so I kept my silence and waited. "It is not your time yet" he said in a kind but also firm way. "You still have a lot of work to do". I wasn't ready to give up yet. I was readying myself to refuse, but then something inside me realised the truth of what he had said. And that was the moment I opened my eyes and saw my sister standing above me. 85e/Home

54. I was outside a gate with other beings all around me waiting for something to happen. There was a very bright mist. I knew if I crossed over the gate it would be final. I was told by a higher power (a female) that I had to go back. It was not my time. The next thing I knew I was back in my body. 86e/Other Beings

55. It was a realm consisting entirely of light, sound, joy and bliss. All around me were beings of pulsing, colored light, and indescribable music/singing full of joy and praise. The beings did not have human shape; they were more like oval or round pulsing loci of light. There were no sharp outlines in this realm; everything seemed to gently blend into everything else a little. There was nothing but light, music, praise for God and All That Is, and many beings/points of consciousness. The beings were creating the music and were made of the music. I was made of music, light and joy. I was filled with bliss and comfort, and felt "at home" for the first time ever. It was an experience where everything was instantly self-evident. ... I wanted to stay, but instantly knew that I had much work to do back on earth that I had barely begun and that most of it had to do with my family relationships. ... I immediately looked down toward my body. I could see a cord connecting me to my body, hanging down from me and softly swaying. It looked like shimmering, softly glowing, grey silk. We were still connected. My body was far away, downward, in a very dark place. The space between us looked dark and foggy or smokey, very dismal. I jumped/dove back into my body instantaneously and found myself trying to get my breathing passages clear. 89e/Self-Evident

56. Then I heard what I thought was a lady's voice. The pitch was soft and gentle, was I dreaming? I couldn't hear clearly. I just had to get closer so I could comprehend exactly what the voice was saying so I started going toward the tone of the feminine voice. Not really walking, more like drifting, yet not really floating as such. As I got closer I could hear the words this lady was speaking to a figure of a man next to her. She kept saying, "There she is. Oh! Isn't she lovely. Look at her." I felt as though I knew her, yet didn't. I couldn't see her clearly nor the man standing to her left but I could make out the shapes of two shadow people, an older woman and a young man. As I got even closer to them, the lady kept saying, "No go back as your Mammy needs you." I couldn't understand what was going on. I just wanted to go with them. It seemed such a happy place to be therefore I kept going forward. However, the lady insisted that I go back as "Mammy needed me." I didn't really want to go back through the dark, however, somehow I was turned back. 90e/Shed Body

57. There was someone I liked beside me, but I sensed them rather than saw them directly and did not know who they were. There were nice sounds around us but I cannot remember what they were like. I really would have liked to stay but I realised I couldn't. I really, really had to go. 93e/Sensed Someone

58. Then I saw a tunnel that was lit up with white light but it wasn't hard on the eyes. Then I noticed I was following another being whom I didn't know toward the tunnel for a long period of time. I couldn't catch up to this person. This peaceful state lasted for some time but then I felt intense pain and burning in the chest again. Apparently the paramedics zapped me. 96e/Guide

59. Behind the light I heard a voice that talked to me. I believe I saw my grandmother Susie there. The voice told me that "it's not your time" and that "you'll be there in the end." I was then dismayed that I had to leave. The descent was fast and in the same slanted angle in the tunnel. When I hit bottom it was abrupt and I woke up in severe pain in the recovery room. 100e/Peace

60. I was crouched behind what seemed to be a boulder and was watching two figures. My eyes felt like they were literally as big as saucers but I did not feel afraid, just very alone. The figures were in black, hooded cloaks similar to those of the ring wraiths in the Lord of the Rings. I did not feel like they were evil. One of them approached the other one and was floating. They did not appear to have feet or at least were not using them. There was no sound of any kind but I KNEW that they were discussing me and deciding what to do. ... It was more like they were reviewing the outcomes of sending me on or back. And you can see which one they chose (lol). 101e/Review

I saw an immense, central light at the end of the path. It was as if a superior being was seated at the end, very luminous. Additionally, he interrogated me about why I was in that place. 8a/3287

Then a bright light appeared having a soft man’s voice ... 53a/3951

[At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?] When I met the human-like being in the light. 83a/3917

Then a moment came when I was brought up short by a "wall" of dense light, which gave off an unbelievable goodness, an indescribable love. And I heard a voice filled with tenderness say to me: "It's not time, you must go back, it's much too soon." [At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?] The moment when the Light spoke to me. [Did you meet or see any other beings?] Yes, precisely this light, which was living. 97a/3891

I just recall being drawn towards a big bright light to the point where I was in the light, only to have it communicated (somehow) that it was time to leave and back I came. 23b/2978

The light was pulsating as if alive. 24b/2764

Then this awesome light exploded in front of me and I stood in that light and I felt wonderful. It seemed to heal everything, and I can't remember all of what it said, but if you asked a question in it it would answer you before you could think of it. 26b/3285

[Did you see a light?] A bright, intense light that felt so warm and good, so loving and full of wisdom. 27b/151

Then I saw this being of light very bright so bright that you could not look at this being. I tried to look but it was much too bright. And this voice said to me, "It's not your time." "You have much to learn, go learn." "Don't worry you shall be with me someday. Go from me now." 35b/698

I saw a light and I went into it. It was wondrous light that engulfed everything, there was total knowledge and love. I saw my life from my addiction point of view flash before my eyes, repeated behaviors etc. ... I was then told to "Remember." 51b/831

I went towards this presence, which was within a brilliant, sun-light bright, light space - not a tunnel, but an area. 79b/3183

I was being pulled into a white Light. I wanted to get there as quickly as possible, because all of these wonderful, ecstatic, feelings emanating from this Light: UNCONDITIONAL LOVE, FORGIVENESS, EMPATHY, COMPLETE ACCEPTANCE OF ME, DEEP UNDERSTANDING. 85d/Oct. 26, 2004

As I approached the light it spoke to me telepathically. With each word the the light brightened and dimmed rhythmically. At first he kind of scolded me and asked what I was doing there as it wasn't my time yet. I had to go back. I was apologetic and very disappointed. 76e/Telepathic

This light was a person! Debbie

I felt bathed in a wonderful light, as though I was being hugged by it. I felt totally safe, that all was forgiven, and I was very, very loved. Cheryl

I screeched with the fear of meeting the being in the light. Michael