I Was Still Me, Chapter 3

Tragedy and comedy, in fact, all the higher forms of art, free man from the bonds of his finite individuality, and through laughter and tears reveal to him by immediate intuition the infinity, the freedom of his better, deeper, larger self.―Boris Sidis, 1913

I remember thinking, "That was cool being Thomas," like it was some fun excursion, this human life.―76a/3958

I was looking down and could see people around some body on the sidewalk beside the pool. I did not know who anyone was. I remember saying to my self I am all right out loud to my self. I was me looking down but was not Bob. I did not even know Bob, but I was still me as I was before I drowned. I do not know how to explain this any other way.―47b/Bob H.

I saw some things about my family's move to Anacortes that would take place in a year, and I also saw a woman who might be me grown up.―91b/2014

It was as though the entity emitting that incredible love for me knew me the best. ... So, in a sense, I was sort of drawn to my closest relative, even though there was no doubt it was not the type of relative we experience in the physical world. It nevertheless felt more real than any physical relationship.―3c/4022

I began to "see" a progression of past lives. These were usually from the dual point of view of the person whose life I was viewing and from my own present perspective.―38d/April 23, 2003

Childing, we are yourselves of your own far future. We are who you are learning to become. Without us, you cannot be. Without you, we are not. We are who Jesus referred to as "My Father."―2e/Childing

I had this feeling that I was not who I thought I was.―42e/Guided

I "recognized" that this entity had been with me all my life. I don't know if it was what people call a guardian angel or if it was just another disassociated aspect of my psyche. However, I suddenly remembered that this entity had "spoken" to me many times earlier in my life.―Anonymous

Just as my life had passed before my eyes when I was being drowned, I was now being shown my future life, with as much info as I could remember. Imagine a deck of cards -- each card has a scene/event from your life -- now, flip those cards in front of your face -- try to remember anything you can from any card you see. That is what I saw with my Book of Life. I gather that Life is Written; LITERALLY. The Angels, The Book and God showed me several scenes of my life - I am now an inventor of animal products - but, I never invented anything -- My Book of Life had these inventions - and, I just remembered them. 80a/3919

The journey continues and I'm a small child and my current self all at the same time. I just AM, it's impossible to describe." 16b/2795

I suddenly saw a beautiful, bright light which lighted the place where I was. I looked like a boy eight or nine years old. I was standing in a white robe. 34b/2491

I saw quick pictures of myself aging from childhood to adulthood and more forward. 54b/3934

I saw myself at two years old, then at four in the sea, etc. Suddenly my life it’s over, and then I saw three slides of my probable future. ... One was my house when I moved in the next months. In the other two I was old. 62b/3472

I was shown a glimpse of my future. 64b/3206

When I saw myself dead it was my 15-year-old body, and all my friends and family looked like they were when I was 15. 75b/3215

The length of time I was in the tunnel seemed instantaneous and infinite, simultaneously. It's a feeling that I just cannot describe in words. I wasn't what I am now. I don't think I can define what I was. 92b/641

Then I walked back, passed the three people and I myself. 29d/Dec. 19, 2002

As I see myself I notice that behind my head was my life flashing in fast motion backwards. I was able to focus on that, and can remember some, but most of all I remember seeing myself as a baby being held by a woman I'm assuming is my mother. Then actually seeing through that baby’s eyes what seemed to be what it first saw when those eyes opened up after birth. 53d/August 29, 2003

I knew who I was and more importantly what I am and am to be. 64d/Dec. 11, 2003

I am aware they told me about my future and my purpose in this life, but in my dense human state, I cannot recall what I was told. 83d/Aug. 20, 2004

I could see my days stretching out in front of me for the next three months (very frightening) and could describe personal details about the staff. There was also a blue light around my hands. ... I described some of the events that I was seeing. One of them was the cover from the New Scientist (two months prior to publication) with a description of the cover and the date. Another was the News Headlines from BBCNews24 for 7th January. I asked the doctor (the surgeon) to write this down and look out for it. I watched the events come true on the day (one month after I had seen them). It felt like a very strong memory. 96d/Recall

My hands looked like they did when I was younger and thinner. 91e/Oversized Sun

Arriving at the end of the tunnel I was greeted by a man who looks pretty much like I do today [11 years later]. 1f/Puppet

I felt young and old at the same time. 33f/Jerry

I thought that this "voice" which came from inside was another "self," a kind of personal elfin spirit with the task of protecting me. ... The only question is: Who is this voice which protects me, is it another (unconscious) me? The spirit of a living person close to me? Or of a deceased loved one? God in person? 22a/3992

I recall clear as if it had happened yesterday: sitting up out of my body and looking at a man who was sitting on the chair close to where my body was. I recall laughing as if I was incredibly happy to see him. I felt like I had known him my entire life. 31a/3985

Then I heard a voice directly in my mind. I clearly perceived that it came to me from above-left side. This being I did not perceive as being "more" than myself. It was more like a "similar" to myself. 36a/3982

A lady appeared to tell me that I had a choice, and that I was young. ... Who is she? I don't recognize her, but she seems to know me. 39a/3897

It is rather difficult to express in words, it's one of the few glimpses I've had of my higher self. 23b/2978

There was a being (or energy force) on my left. I felt very close to this being (wanting to be with it as one would a spouse, etc.) 6d/Feb. 26, 2002

All the time there was a being with me. I realized that it always had been with me! 54d/Sept. 2, 2003

It was like I moved out from the tragedy to my inner self, a place that I found imperturbable, totally quiet and at rest. 1e/Lucid

This “being,” besides being about 8 feet tall, was made of light. The planes in the face were all of light. There was this sense of absolute acceptance, complete and total acceptance. It was around and through me. 2e/Childing

When I first saw him I felt as though I knew him. I hugged him; the love I had for him was very strong. He felt closer to me than my own family. 5e/Billions

As I waited, I remembered what I had forgotten, which was everything. I was astonished at the simplicity of why, what, who, where...all of it. I knew it all. I remember thinking that it is so weird that we don't remember any of it on the [physical] side. It's so apparent, yet we cannot see it while living in the [physical] form. At that very moment I likened it to an ant that could never perceive a human in its entirety, it's complexity, or it's completeness, yet we are right there to be seen if only the ant had the capacity. 23e/All One

Oh yeah, I forgot to mention one point. The voice…it seemed to know me. That’s the feeling I got. 36e/Someone

From ages three to eight, I had an "imaginary" friend I named Mr. Cardine. He would take me to places outside my body and tell me what was going to happen to me and other family members. 40e/Mr. Cardine

As I walked with a heavenly person, his countenance shone forth with such brightness. I can't even begin to describe it. I knew this heavenly being was Jesus because I recognized him as a familiar friend. He didn't announce who he was because this wasn't necessary. 41e/Communication

I had this feeling that I was not who I thought I was. 42e/Guided

I had heard this wonderful, familiar voice, "It is not yet your time to be here. You must go back." 64e/Mission

He said, "I'd expect you to argue for your own case!" I was overwhelmed by how intimately he knew me. 84e/Surrounded

I was told by a higher power (a female) that I had to go back. It was not my time. 86e/Other Beings

Then I heard what I thought was a lady's voice. ... As I got closer I could hear the words this lady was speaking to a figure of a man next to her. She kept saying, "There she is. Oh! Isn't she lovely. Look at her." I felt as though I knew her, yet didn't. 90e/Shed Body

There was someone I liked beside me, but I sensed them rather than saw them directly, and did not know who they were. 93e/Sensed Someone

There was a man standing there who had a white garment that resembled a monk's habit without the hood. I knew him, but I didn't know him. 36f/Joyce

I remember seeing a brightly colored dome, spires, and living a whole life someplace else. I remember being clothed in simple garb. 32a/2035

In the screen, were the most surprising images. They have never left me. They were of a previous life. 37a/3977

I remember three past lives ... . 86a/3911

There were small groups of people or spirits (?) in individual rooms called "pods." In these rooms the spirits, or people, were planning their next life or reincarnation. 64b/3206

I am sucked up into a tunnel and I get the sudden knowledge that I am in a birth canal heading toward a light. It is very quick, and when I get to the light I see a woman in an ambulance. I am thinking that I am to be reincarnated as her child. I have never believed in reincarnation. She is African American and I am white. (I know that I am white and I am thinking, "How can this be? How can I become her child now?") The race difference doesn't matter to me. I am thinking she is a nice person, I would like to be her child. But then I have a baby in my arms. I know that it is her child and at first I am thinking that I am bringing her baby to her. I know that I am taking her baby to Heaven. I go through the light with her child and I come back through the light. And now I am walking down the tunnel again. I have a little girl of about five years of age holding my right hand and walking with me. I pass two women and it is the first time someone notices me. They smile. I pass a man who looks at me and says angrily, "Why does she get to go?" I ignore him. I don’t know who he is referring to, the little girl or me, and I don’t care. I go through the birth canal feeling again (it is painful both times) towards a bright light. I go through with the little girl when I come back through she isn't with me. I am scared because I don't know where she is, then I realize she is with Jesus. I feel good that she is with Jesus, but I feel sorrow for her mother. 29d/Dec. 19, 2002

A true enrichment is what I learned about former lives and the friends over there I can discuss essential life questions with. 34d/Feb. 16, 2003

I began to "see" a progression of past lives. These were usually from the dual point of view of the person whose life I was viewing and from my own present perspective. 38d/April 23, 2003

I also became aware (to my astonishment) that I had lived on earth many times before. I even remembered a fragment of my past time here. I was walking across a grassy heath with one other person. He was dressed like a soldier or as if prepared for an arduous journey. I was wearing a long, white dress, which was some sort of a mark of distinction. We had been very happy in our time together and we had agreed to meet again. 39e/In the Sun

I also saw a glimpse of my brother and I. Somehow I understood it was a previous life, where I was much older than him and like a mother. (In this life, he is older than me.) In that life I was protective of him. 95e/Illnesses

But if the knowledge which we acquired before birth was lost by us at birth, and afterwards by the use of the senses we recovered that which we previously knew, will not that which we call learning be a process of recovering our knowledge ... ?―Phaedo

He told me that it was not my time to enter into my heavenly home but had a mission to fulfill and my life was going to be very hard. I would go through many terrible experiences to the point of wanting to commit suicide, but if I committed suicide I would not be allowed to come home. He told me that I would be watched over and protected, kept safe. If I would get through this mission I would be allowed to return home. 18a/4009

"I don't want to go back down there; it is painful." "You must! Your mission is not yet complete!" 80a/3919

I started arguing with God in my own little obnoxious way, and God said I needed to go back because my mission here wasn't complete. 38b/186

I felt a very strong feeling of depression or failure or something along those lines. This persisted throughout the experience. This is just an interpretation based on subsequent studies of NDEs, but I think it probably had to do with the way I got there (suicide attempt) and the fact that I hadn't completed my mission. 42b/922

I also felt that I had a purpose, a mission that was not yet fulfilled in this life. This was not a work I had to finish, but rather a stage that I had to complete in this life, a form of spiritual growth. 53b/2377

The next memory I have was standing again outside the light in the delivery room and saying, "I choose to live," which I presume was a decision to come back on earth for my mission was unfinished. 61b/33

His parting thoughts, they came to me, and have always been a mystery, “Your life’s not done, you’ve a purpose still, a mission you’re on, you’ve yet to fill.” 2c/3256

We reviewed my life and also discussed my mission in life. 1e/Lucid

I told my angel that I want to go back to earth. He just smiled and told me that my mission was not done. (I still don't know what my mission is.) 42e/Guided

I asked, "Lord will I go home now?" He answered, "No, it is not your time. Your mission is not complete. You have to return." 47e/Holy Presence

I had heard this wonderful, familiar voice, "It is not yet your time to be here. You must go back." I begged it to please not send me back. And that is when it told me I had a mission to do. I begged it to please tell me the mission so I could do it and come back. Then it told me I had to go back and perform my mission when the time came. I would not know what it was until that time. 64e/Mission